Recently one good friend observed that I haven't written a 'happy' post since long. It seems that I am going for suicide. I went through last few post and found it myself. So here is a post in high spirits. Good news for my well-wishers is I will never attempt suicide because I believe Mamma has made me mentally strong enough to save from breaking under pressure.
Anyways, here begins a new semester with a new year with all new commitments and all fresh enthusiasm. I hope it lasts longer this time. I am determined to do three things this sem:
1) Cubing and IORC
2) Heat Exchanger Design and Intern
3) CPI abve 8
4) Newsreading
Happy New Year to all the few readers!
A compilation of my day to day events and experiences. My observational reports as the world passes by me. "I am part of all that I have met"
Monday, December 31, 2007
Monday, December 17, 2007
Pissed off!!
Im simply pissed off from my life these days. I don't know if there is problem with me or the world around me. Either the world or myself has gone crazy.
Friday, December 14, 2007
Days of rest and unrest
I was back to IITK campur on 12th evening. Thereafter not having a great time. Some profs have are creating probs with IORC. The didn't like the idea of non-student participation. I don't know why these professors are so obsessed with themselves. If he doesn't agrees then our efforts will be spoilt. All this spoilt the day and the following one. When we try to reach him, he is not available due to some God damn conference in campus!
Very recently one of my friends called me and enquired about sudden extrovert nature. And whether I've developed more-than-friend feeling. Ohh God damn it! When you appriciate somebody and want to make friends with that somebody and that somebody is a girl, then is that necessary and sufficient condition to conclude that you are trying to persue the girl! Most of the people think yes. But all my rationale could not justify the fact. I was unable to see how this could be true. I wish that the girl would have been boy and rest exactly the same then nobody, including the boy, would have had any problems and we would have been good friends. But it is nobody's fault. This because we see each day people around us involing in open relationship so easily. The so called concept of girlfriend/boyfriend comes into play very easily between boys and girls.
Very recently one of my friends called me and enquired about sudden extrovert nature. And whether I've developed more-than-friend feeling. Ohh God damn it! When you appriciate somebody and want to make friends with that somebody and that somebody is a girl, then is that necessary and sufficient condition to conclude that you are trying to persue the girl! Most of the people think yes. But all my rationale could not justify the fact. I was unable to see how this could be true. I wish that the girl would have been boy and rest exactly the same then nobody, including the boy, would have had any problems and we would have been good friends. But it is nobody's fault. This because we see each day people around us involing in open relationship so easily. The so called concept of girlfriend/boyfriend comes into play very easily between boys and girls.
Friday, November 30, 2007
Dream Indian Open 2008 fulfilled!
My dream true when I recieved an official confirmation letter from WCA. Now IITK will hold Indian Open Rubik's Cube-2008 in Techkriti 08. My efforts gave results and cubing fever has started in India! Stay alert!
One person whom I will be greatful to is Mr. John Louis. Now let's hope to make it as big as we can....
Here is the link on techkriti website: http://www.techkriti.org/index.html#lookup_Events_InternationalEvents_IORC
One person whom I will be greatful to is Mr. John Louis. Now let's hope to make it as big as we can....
Here is the link on techkriti website: http://www.techkriti.org/index.html#lookup_Events_InternationalEvents_IORC
Thursday, November 29, 2007
From the pages of my diary
Post Title: I am out of my head
Current Mood: Emptiness surrounds me...
Written:
28/10/07, 21:20 a.m.
I am out of my mind this moment. And the moment just before this, I discovered an unknown(till now) characteristic of me. At regular intervals I fall into fits. Fits that don't let me forget the world's most difficult-to-answer question- 'Why are we here?'. I haven't yet discovered what circumstances are the mother of such fits but they leave me miserable. I travel time way back to 'last days of my 2nd semester'; in the same state that once forced me to identify myself with clouds. Confusion, dubious, perplex, indecisive.... And yet again I develop dusk phobia.
Why am I doing things I am doing? Everything seems meaningless.
29/10/07, 02:10 a.m.
Now I feel like I am recovering to the state where meaninglessness has less effect.
You see; things are sensible when you give up reasoning and don't think too much. The moment you start asking questions, queries for answers, the havoc starts.
In good days of my life when I was a school by concerned only about studies, friends and family things seemed so simple, so sensible.
"But now since those days are gone I'm not so self assured".
As I try to find out reasons no conclusion seems satisfactory and I have suggestions from well-wishers like-- 'Don't think too much yaar'; 'God has given us this life as a gift, make it' and blah blah.
But these answers seem as opening chapter of a whole new book of questions. This recursion goes on and I'm more in mess. Instead of pondering over answers I always catch myself drowning in a pool of question, trying hard for each breath. But how long can I hold on?
But as soon as I come out of 'fits' back into 'wits' (of vice versa is more appropriate) things seem more reasonable and I feel more comfortable being with the world that I fear I doubt is meaningless.
02:45 a.m.
Oh man! Im again into fit.
02:45
Post Title: No title
This post is about how I met a person accidental. And then I regretted for my apparent selfish behaviour. It was she who came forwarded to us and to team up for a quiz competition(us = me and Anks). Then together we performed decent and managed to finish second.
03:03
I think I would not be able to script everything with exact precision if I do it in the morning when I would be out of fit. But I can't survive being conscious while in fit and such thoughts.
30/10/07, 00:10
The feeling of emptiness is what still effects my time. Past 22 hrs. of my life were influenced by it. To begin with the script; the girl asked to exchange phone numbers and asked us to come the next day for another competition. As we (me and some friends) reached there I was not fully recovered from the fits of last night and I had a half frowning face. I was not able to recognize her before she came sufficiently close to me and and waved her hands before my face. My other friend was more into conversation than me. I was least inclined towards uttering sentences as framing up sentences seemed like preparing a report but couldn't escape yes/no stuffs.Even she exclaimed why I was not talking. Then she tells she is a very good political science student. Political science is one of the topics I loved in my schooldays and I inherit this from my Mom who is half M.A. in Pol. Science. But after the event we were in hurry so we left without saying a word to her which was the thing that pinched. I had never been into habit of being ungrateful and discourteous. At that moment I was not able to judge but after leaving I didn't like it as a whole. Using when I need you and then 'I don't know you'. This is not what Saucy has been like. I called her up. But it was not able to hear properly in the crowd so we switched to messaging. I asked her to meet in SAC. But later when I tried calling her, the result was call-disconnected. Same result 3 times. Do I deserve this for my courtesy? I collected the prizes and then left a message to her to come at SAC and share the prizes. This time reply was 'meet me at control room'. Again I couldn't recognize her until she waved her hands before my face. This time she was with a guy. I am 90% sure of what she might have thought. The excuse she gave that I wanted to press green button but pressed red button seemed to fit in the condition. By what she talked and how she behaved she seemed very sensible person, great person in fact. This was confirmed by two other friends of mine who also interacted her independent of me. She was least pretentious unlike most of the girls. All these reasons and many others made me feel she was a potential good friend of mine. Had I been two years back when I posted the blog titled Acquaintance/Relationships unexplored, I would have never tried to meet her. I thought in two years I have grown up and decided to talk to her.
But is that really the case? Have I grown up any bit in two years? Have years changed me? The kind of response I got from her was enough to put me on trial to decide on aforesaid charges. Travelling through the vicious circle in time coordinate I stand at the same point where I was 2 years back when I wrote Acquaintance/Relationships unexplored. So what? At least I tried being an extovert. As many others, one more relationship unexplored, one more relationship lost.!
So what's the tip for me? To be happy with my little world and enjoy the possiblilties of these relationship within my mind of the maximum write them about the way I did just now and at some point use these characters to develop a good fictionin future! Kya baat hai!! Kuchh metha ho jay...... Metha na mile to have some chanas and sing along
...
""Hazaroon khwahishe aisi ki, ki har khwahish pe dam nikle;
Bahut nikale mere arman lekin fir bhi kam nikle.""
30/10/07, 13:48
Waking up late till 4:00 it was difficult to stay awake in the 9:00 a.m. lecture. Yesterday Prof. Malik said: "If I hav not made attendence compulsory, why do you come here and insult me by sleeping in my lecture?" Both these thoughts made me to skip the lecture. At 10:30 I was hit again when I came to know that there was a surprise quiz weighed 6.67% in the lecture.
31/10/07, 01:45
After talking to John Louis yesterday and hearing from Tyson Mao nad Ron Von Bruchem through mail, it seems that the first ever Rubik's Cube challenge in India might be possible in Techkriti 2008. Estimated no. of participants is 40. The only problem as per now seems funds. To have equipments- stackmats, display and cubes- we need sponsors. Techkriti coordinators are silent over this. They just keep telling , try for WCA eventand never discuss on this aspect. Without this my efforts and John, Karthik and Sachin's help would be wasted. We desperately need sponsors. Whether anyone will sponsor the event or not is a big question. Suppose no specific sponsor for this event comes then how far will Techkriti suppot. Still unclear. But one thing seems clear that WCA 'support' we have.
31/10/07, 18:45
I was wrong. I thought I was back at the point of life when I wrote my first post on blogger. But I'm free from charges. Just now got a call from _Name Undisclosed_ and the reason was just-like-that. That means I've grown up in past 2 years. I remember when I told Mom about this aspect of me 2 yrs. back- my difficulty in aquiring acquaintance/relationship, initiating conversation. And her reply was "now that you have realized your problem, you will easily and surely overcome it". This birthday around 70 people wished me. Last year this number was much less. Now I see the truth of Mom's statment.
01/11/07, 01:40
As some of my friends came to know _Name Undisclosed_ calling me, they were more excited than I ever thought I myself would be. A gang entered my room saying Saucy ab comitted ho gaya. Hah! That is the last thing this world will witness. As I've written earlier I don't believe in teenagerish commitment. I hold someone in good regards and want to stay in touch doesn't give rise to anything of such sort to create hype. But you know, this place is boys hostel that too in IIT. These things are inevitable.
About talking to John Louis for about half an hour things seem to be working our way. The only problem is now sponsorship. If somehow I can get sponsors then Indian Open can be realized.
Current Mood: Emptiness surrounds me...
Written:
28/10/07, 21:20 a.m.
I am out of my mind this moment. And the moment just before this, I discovered an unknown(till now) characteristic of me. At regular intervals I fall into fits. Fits that don't let me forget the world's most difficult-to-answer question- 'Why are we here?'. I haven't yet discovered what circumstances are the mother of such fits but they leave me miserable. I travel time way back to 'last days of my 2nd semester'; in the same state that once forced me to identify myself with clouds. Confusion, dubious, perplex, indecisive.... And yet again I develop dusk phobia.
Why am I doing things I am doing? Everything seems meaningless.
29/10/07, 02:10 a.m.
Now I feel like I am recovering to the state where meaninglessness has less effect.
You see; things are sensible when you give up reasoning and don't think too much. The moment you start asking questions, queries for answers, the havoc starts.
In good days of my life when I was a school by concerned only about studies, friends and family things seemed so simple, so sensible.
"But now since those days are gone I'm not so self assured".
As I try to find out reasons no conclusion seems satisfactory and I have suggestions from well-wishers like-- 'Don't think too much yaar'; 'God has given us this life as a gift, make it' and blah blah.
But these answers seem as opening chapter of a whole new book of questions. This recursion goes on and I'm more in mess. Instead of pondering over answers I always catch myself drowning in a pool of question, trying hard for each breath. But how long can I hold on?
But as soon as I come out of 'fits' back into 'wits' (of vice versa is more appropriate) things seem more reasonable and I feel more comfortable being with the world that I fear I doubt is meaningless.
02:45 a.m.
Oh man! Im again into fit.
02:45
Post Title: No title
This post is about how I met a person accidental. And then I regretted for my apparent selfish behaviour. It was she who came forwarded to us and to team up for a quiz competition(us = me and Anks). Then together we performed decent and managed to finish second.
03:03
I think I would not be able to script everything with exact precision if I do it in the morning when I would be out of fit. But I can't survive being conscious while in fit and such thoughts.
30/10/07, 00:10
The feeling of emptiness is what still effects my time. Past 22 hrs. of my life were influenced by it. To begin with the script; the girl asked to exchange phone numbers and asked us to come the next day for another competition. As we (me and some friends) reached there I was not fully recovered from the fits of last night and I had a half frowning face. I was not able to recognize her before she came sufficiently close to me and and waved her hands before my face. My other friend was more into conversation than me. I was least inclined towards uttering sentences as framing up sentences seemed like preparing a report but couldn't escape yes/no stuffs.Even she exclaimed why I was not talking. Then she tells she is a very good political science student. Political science is one of the topics I loved in my schooldays and I inherit this from my Mom who is half M.A. in Pol. Science. But after the event we were in hurry so we left without saying a word to her which was the thing that pinched. I had never been into habit of being ungrateful and discourteous. At that moment I was not able to judge but after leaving I didn't like it as a whole. Using when I need you and then 'I don't know you'. This is not what Saucy has been like. I called her up. But it was not able to hear properly in the crowd so we switched to messaging. I asked her to meet in SAC. But later when I tried calling her, the result was call-disconnected. Same result 3 times. Do I deserve this for my courtesy? I collected the prizes and then left a message to her to come at SAC and share the prizes. This time reply was 'meet me at control room'. Again I couldn't recognize her until she waved her hands before my face. This time she was with a guy. I am 90% sure of what she might have thought. The excuse she gave that I wanted to press green button but pressed red button seemed to fit in the condition. By what she talked and how she behaved she seemed very sensible person, great person in fact. This was confirmed by two other friends of mine who also interacted her independent of me. She was least pretentious unlike most of the girls. All these reasons and many others made me feel she was a potential good friend of mine. Had I been two years back when I posted the blog titled Acquaintance/Relationships unexplored, I would have never tried to meet her. I thought in two years I have grown up and decided to talk to her.
But is that really the case? Have I grown up any bit in two years? Have years changed me? The kind of response I got from her was enough to put me on trial to decide on aforesaid charges. Travelling through the vicious circle in time coordinate I stand at the same point where I was 2 years back when I wrote Acquaintance/Relationships unexplored. So what? At least I tried being an extovert. As many others, one more relationship unexplored, one more relationship lost.!
So what's the tip for me? To be happy with my little world and enjoy the possiblilties of these relationship within my mind of the maximum write them about the way I did just now and at some point use these characters to develop a good fictionin future! Kya baat hai!! Kuchh metha ho jay...... Metha na mile to have some chanas and sing along
...
""Hazaroon khwahishe aisi ki, ki har khwahish pe dam nikle;
Bahut nikale mere arman lekin fir bhi kam nikle.""
30/10/07, 13:48
Waking up late till 4:00 it was difficult to stay awake in the 9:00 a.m. lecture. Yesterday Prof. Malik said: "If I hav not made attendence compulsory, why do you come here and insult me by sleeping in my lecture?" Both these thoughts made me to skip the lecture. At 10:30 I was hit again when I came to know that there was a surprise quiz weighed 6.67% in the lecture.
31/10/07, 01:45
After talking to John Louis yesterday and hearing from Tyson Mao nad Ron Von Bruchem through mail, it seems that the first ever Rubik's Cube challenge in India might be possible in Techkriti 2008. Estimated no. of participants is 40. The only problem as per now seems funds. To have equipments- stackmats, display and cubes- we need sponsors. Techkriti coordinators are silent over this. They just keep telling , try for WCA eventand never discuss on this aspect. Without this my efforts and John, Karthik and Sachin's help would be wasted. We desperately need sponsors. Whether anyone will sponsor the event or not is a big question. Suppose no specific sponsor for this event comes then how far will Techkriti suppot. Still unclear. But one thing seems clear that WCA 'support' we have.
31/10/07, 18:45
I was wrong. I thought I was back at the point of life when I wrote my first post on blogger. But I'm free from charges. Just now got a call from _Name Undisclosed_ and the reason was just-like-that. That means I've grown up in past 2 years. I remember when I told Mom about this aspect of me 2 yrs. back- my difficulty in aquiring acquaintance/relationship, initiating conversation. And her reply was "now that you have realized your problem, you will easily and surely overcome it". This birthday around 70 people wished me. Last year this number was much less. Now I see the truth of Mom's statment.
01/11/07, 01:40
As some of my friends came to know _Name Undisclosed_ calling me, they were more excited than I ever thought I myself would be. A gang entered my room saying Saucy ab comitted ho gaya. Hah! That is the last thing this world will witness. As I've written earlier I don't believe in teenagerish commitment. I hold someone in good regards and want to stay in touch doesn't give rise to anything of such sort to create hype. But you know, this place is boys hostel that too in IIT. These things are inevitable.
About talking to John Louis for about half an hour things seem to be working our way. The only problem is now sponsorship. If somehow I can get sponsors then Indian Open can be realized.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Time for Studies
End sem exams are up. First one falls on 20th. And then 2nd hits same day with a gap of 45min. Cant imagine in what state would I be after being examined for 6hr continuously and that too the 2 most difficult courses of this semester. Life of not so easy this month. I wonder what my horoscope might have predicted. They usually don't read like "this month brings mishaps". They are made to please you!
Although as I see the month falling in gray note, positives might turn out. I'm expecting official confirmation letter from WCA for RCIO-2008. And then I'll turn all efforts towards publicity. As the semester draws towards closing let me pick out things to remember from this sem in the next post.
Although as I see the month falling in gray note, positives might turn out. I'm expecting official confirmation letter from WCA for RCIO-2008. And then I'll turn all efforts towards publicity. As the semester draws towards closing let me pick out things to remember from this sem in the next post.
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Indian Open 2008. Not so far
Rubik's Cube Indian Open 2008 is not far away. We are on the verge of finalizing the competition. But WCA's letter is awaited. Hoping for a positive reply.
Next up remains the task of sponsorship and media coverage.
Next up remains the task of sponsorship and media coverage.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Back from home
Yet another post on 'Back from home'. And 1 more semester going to go. After this one 50% remains. After having badly spoilt 2nd mid-sem, now only hope is end-sem. Too few hope. Departmental Winter trip of Pune-Goa-Bombay cancelled due to cousin's wedding on 6th dec.
Not in a mood to write more coz it always feels bad when you arrive at college from home. It takes some time to recover.
Not in a mood to write more coz it always feels bad when you arrive at college from home. It takes some time to recover.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Unprecedented unfamiliar
An unprecedented, unfamiliar, unimaginable, unthinkable, unusual, abnormal feeling surrounds me. Can't tell what is this feeling. I have my exam from 9:30 but I'm awake and idling with blogger at 3:00 a.m. Why I am not able to concentrate I know not. Out of the remaining 5 tomorrow's is the only exam which I can hope to do well. And still doing away with it in this manner. God help for other's?
What is causing my state miserable? What is it I know not? What is that haunts me? What is it I fear? Has anybody answers to this? What is the gloomy I see in everything around me? Is it intuition?
My nose is bleeding and I had bad dreams too. There is something bad going to happen. I can smell it
I stand on the verge of giving all up, but I will not give all and stop writing the shit and try to concentrate and try to recollect the broken pieces and I will die! But only till next morning.
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Saucy breaks!
It was never again since the Maths exam of 12th boards. I have been taking acads seriously but never felt like too much affected.Today I felt like I can never recover what is lost. I have studied too little for Mis-sem 2. now exam starts this friday with philosophy. then five more from monday to wednesday. I would never be able to do all of them. With miserable performance in first mid-sems I think I will screw this semester badly. All these thoughts brought tear glands into action. And twice in the day it happened to me.
Here I start my good old attitude. When you think you are failing, think that you have nothing to lose and try to gain as much as you can. So I start from zero and start preparing from now. Rest will be tackled in the end sem exams.
Only good thing today was that I got a reply from Tyson Mao(WCA delegate). He asked to contact Ron as he has better connections in India. He himslf deals in USA. Tyson Mao is the same person who taught Will Smith cubing for the famous movie we all know.
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Looking forward for TECHKRITI 08 and my first cubing Video
Having great time last year at Techkriti last year waiting for Techkriti '08. This time theme is Rubik's cube! Oh great this would have been my first wish! So what would be my role. So here is the call for all the cubers of India. Start practicing. If everything goes well you may see a cubing event in India hopefully WCA recognized.
Currently I am in contact with organizers of Rubik;s cube event's in US University's which have been recognized by WCA. One Miss Ambie Valdés says they didn't have any problem arranging it other than location. As per the recognition of WCA we would get it easily. It only requires a WCA delegate visit to the competition and there you have the official WCA Rubik's cube championship at IIT Kanpur!
But that was back in US of A. This is India! Will they be agreeing to come here? And supposing they agree, who will be paying for the delegate's trip. If it is us, then scooping out bucks worth up and down USA flight from Techkriti budget will be a great deal.
It has been 3 days and I haven't yet got any reply from WCA officials. Only info I have is from emails from Valdes and another Tim Reynnolds. Both of them say that getting WCA delegate visit is the only main thing. Everything else is trivial (as far as it seems now).
I have also mailed Ron van Bruchem and Tyson Mao who is the same person who taught Will Smith to solve cube for the famous movie Pursuit of Happyness.
And here is my first filemed Rubik's cube solve:
Currently I am in contact with organizers of Rubik;s cube event's in US University's which have been recognized by WCA. One Miss Ambie Valdés says they didn't have any problem arranging it other than location. As per the recognition of WCA we would get it easily. It only requires a WCA delegate visit to the competition and there you have the official WCA Rubik's cube championship at IIT Kanpur!
But that was back in US of A. This is India! Will they be agreeing to come here? And supposing they agree, who will be paying for the delegate's trip. If it is us, then scooping out bucks worth up and down USA flight from Techkriti budget will be a great deal.
It has been 3 days and I haven't yet got any reply from WCA officials. Only info I have is from emails from Valdes and another Tim Reynnolds. Both of them say that getting WCA delegate visit is the only main thing. Everything else is trivial (as far as it seems now).
I have also mailed Ron van Bruchem and Tyson Mao who is the same person who taught Will Smith to solve cube for the famous movie Pursuit of Happyness.
And here is my first filemed Rubik's cube solve:
Saturday, September 15, 2007
StockSim Working!!!
Finally got the update program working. Now stock quotes are updated every 3 sec. So you can enjoy live trading! Go to: http://students.iitk.ac.in/stocksim/index.php
It's 5 in morning. So gochaa sleep. :()
It's 5 in morning. So gochaa sleep. :()
Compilation
It seems to be a time of compilation. Lots of things compiled for studies. These include Optimization, manufacturing... and other such stuffs. Lots compiled to put on blogs. This semester sees me blogging very rare. Is it that I've little to say to myself? Is it I have little to say to others?
Anyways, I am devoting much time these days in reading newspaper(hardcopy- The Hindu). The Hindu is such a quality that I find TOI crap. Read Hindu 10 days and then read TOI for next 10, you will know whatg i'm trying to say. Also participating in all the practice GD sessions of the wing and finding myself bellow par there. New organizaton notice of intern: Schlumburger. Let me try on this also. Got a big work of completing my resume for that.
Today had hard time bearing the absurd blabs from HOD in the AME meating. Stuffs like, "You should stand on your onfeets. Don't take monry from anyone. See Americans", "Mumbai is much easier a place to travel-in than Kanpur". Can you bear such nonsence for 90 min?
Stock up with java program of StockSim. The program is running but after some time- 30 to 40 min- it pops an error "java.lang.OutOfMemoryError: Java heap space." Now I dont know how to tackle this? I'm calling System.gc() many times for garbage collection but of no help.
With two Quizes in the near future and the miserable results of 1st mid-sems, it's going to be a study-packed week ahead.
Anyways, I am devoting much time these days in reading newspaper(hardcopy- The Hindu). The Hindu is such a quality that I find TOI crap. Read Hindu 10 days and then read TOI for next 10, you will know whatg i'm trying to say. Also participating in all the practice GD sessions of the wing and finding myself bellow par there. New organizaton notice of intern: Schlumburger. Let me try on this also. Got a big work of completing my resume for that.
Today had hard time bearing the absurd blabs from HOD in the AME meating. Stuffs like, "You should stand on your onfeets. Don't take monry from anyone. See Americans", "Mumbai is much easier a place to travel-in than Kanpur". Can you bear such nonsence for 90 min?
Stock up with java program of StockSim. The program is running but after some time- 30 to 40 min- it pops an error "java.lang.OutOfMemoryError: Java heap space." Now I dont know how to tackle this? I'm calling System.gc() many times for garbage collection but of no help.
With two Quizes in the near future and the miserable results of 1st mid-sems, it's going to be a study-packed week ahead.
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Stuck with StockSim
Here is the link of StockSim that I amde in summers. The java program to update the quotes isn't working on server (it's working fine on my comp.). Im stuck at it. I wa susing JDBC to write to sql table. After that took all the pain to rwrite the code to first write table to file and then copy it to sql via a php page. But that one too is infected!
Kush told that he talked to Ashwin for holding a workshop on Rubik's Cube in spite of my saying no to him. I have tried to teach some impatient fellows and got frustrated. People are only fascinated, they don't want to scratch their brains. That's why I don't want it. Let's see how things shape up. Probably I myself will force for it if Ashwin agrees on ordering DIY cubes from cube4you.com.
Learning Solidworks these days. Having a good time on it.
Now with a personal best of 65 sec, I think I am fastest cuber in IITK!
Kush told that he talked to Ashwin for holding a workshop on Rubik's Cube in spite of my saying no to him. I have tried to teach some impatient fellows and got frustrated. People are only fascinated, they don't want to scratch their brains. That's why I don't want it. Let's see how things shape up. Probably I myself will force for it if Ashwin agrees on ordering DIY cubes from cube4you.com.
Learning Solidworks these days. Having a good time on it.
Now with a personal best of 65 sec, I think I am fastest cuber in IITK!
Saturday, August 25, 2007
No time for blogging
These days blogging is not the same fun it used to be. May be because I've grown lil "extrovert" as one of my friend says.
Okey. These are the hot news from life these days.
Okey. These are the hot news from life these days.
- Screened out from the HUL GD for intern. I thought I made it through for interviews but was proven wrong. Oh! I suppose I missed by an inch. Before all of this I was much confident of getting selected for intern in HUL. Don't know why but it was a feeling. So here we see feelings are proven wrong. Now the search for intern remains.
- Mid-sems are up from 30th this month. With all the time spent over StockSim, there is a reason to worry.
- Stock Simulator is uploaded on students server. All the problems are fixed except that the JDBC drivers aren't working on students server. So the problem will be fixed after the Mid sems. Probably after 1st next month.
- Yesterday there was a lecture organized by AME (Association of Mechanical Engineers) by the first HOD of Mech. department, IIT Kanpur. By this way it sounds like a usual buddha-type image. But after meeting him I was amazed. He was such a man with clear vision about everything that I've never seen. You can talk with him over anything, just anything.
The only thing is med-sems in mind. So I'll be off for some more days.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
ITC intern. No
Current Mood: All fuss in my mind. Lot amount of heat coming of it.
My mind is going wild now. Just to think if I made the right decision.
In the morning session was an informal talk with ITC representatives. They were proving the points of ITC being best and blah blah. Talking about the working condition and the kind of job/interns only for tobacco. They said ITC is not all about tobacco, they have other products too. But the are here to recruit mainly for tobacco. It was hard for me to imagine my self working for improvement cigarette production. This was main drive for me. I came back and mailed to sposecy to withdraw my application.
But I hear in the evening from my friends that my name was there in 36 shortlisted candidates for GD. How come that. After some phone calls I was told that ITC-men want to meet me to know as per why I wanted to withdrew my application for interns. What should I tell them? I don't know. I went there but it finally so happened that the meeting was not able to materialize.
At the end of the day I abide by my conscience. Let alone the so called one of best industry interns. I stand here satisfied by what I have done today. This is a building day in my life and of my life.
My mind is going wild now. Just to think if I made the right decision.
In the morning session was an informal talk with ITC representatives. They were proving the points of ITC being best and blah blah. Talking about the working condition and the kind of job/interns only for tobacco. They said ITC is not all about tobacco, they have other products too. But the are here to recruit mainly for tobacco. It was hard for me to imagine my self working for improvement cigarette production. This was main drive for me. I came back and mailed to sposecy to withdraw my application.
But I hear in the evening from my friends that my name was there in 36 shortlisted candidates for GD. How come that. After some phone calls I was told that ITC-men want to meet me to know as per why I wanted to withdrew my application for interns. What should I tell them? I don't know. I went there but it finally so happened that the meeting was not able to materialize.
At the end of the day I abide by my conscience. Let alone the so called one of best industry interns. I stand here satisfied by what I have done today. This is a building day in my life and of my life.
Friday, August 17, 2007
My cubeing page
I got my personal best today. 74 sec. It came as a birthday gift. A good one. I'm improving. I've got my own cubing page on the webhome server. Catch it here. Now next target is sub-60. I'll do anything for it. I've tried much with my old cube. Lubricated it with wax, talcum powder, Vaseline jelly. Still can't get it right. I want a good cube now. Also working on finger tricks.
It used to be my passion. But recently my friends say that its not passion, its your obsession now! hah! Anything it may be. I'm lovin it!!! SPEEDCUBING!
It used to be my passion. But recently my friends say that its not passion, its your obsession now! hah! Anything it may be. I'm lovin it!!! SPEEDCUBING!
It's B'day again
Here I am after a long interval again. Its been quite lot difference between some of my last postings.
Today I will talk about "this day". As I sit in hall 2 I see time repeating itself. days passing into months and months in years. Little has changed hence. I recall my last B'day (here are some memories of it.) and then this one today. It was too much same bit different. It was a day of few realizations. I think this time over 70-80 people wished me today(including orkut/college/phone calls). Last year the figure was much different. How is that. Am I really overcoming my as-people-call-it "introvert" thing. I never realized but this day that I have many friends and buddies around now. Well Sauce, its working now. The book has changed the course of life. Today I stand on cloud and compare my first blog post(Acquaintance/Relationship Unexplored) and this one. Its really worth man!!! How u say?
Well it was large day in terms of happenings also. At first it was dozens chappals striking my bum with the stroke of 24th hour of yesterday. Then it was surprise party by wing mates. I tell you these wing mates of mine are one of my biggest assets. God save it! From morning it was quite the same old story of lectures, assignment. I tried to keep the album of the day but I could only produce these: http://picasaweb.google.com/saurabh.chawdhary/BDay. Freshers for juniors of Mech. dept. was today. Put up for some time there. It was decent show and a good dinner indeed
One more GPL from dept. friends. That was my day.
Today I will talk about "this day". As I sit in hall 2 I see time repeating itself. days passing into months and months in years. Little has changed hence. I recall my last B'day (here are some memories of it.) and then this one today. It was too much same bit different. It was a day of few realizations. I think this time over 70-80 people wished me today(including orkut/college/phone calls). Last year the figure was much different. How is that. Am I really overcoming my as-people-call-it "introvert" thing. I never realized but this day that I have many friends and buddies around now. Well Sauce, its working now. The book has changed the course of life. Today I stand on cloud and compare my first blog post(Acquaintance/Relationship Unexplored) and this one. Its really worth man!!! How u say?
Well it was large day in terms of happenings also. At first it was dozens chappals striking my bum with the stroke of 24th hour of yesterday. Then it was surprise party by wing mates. I tell you these wing mates of mine are one of my biggest assets. God save it! From morning it was quite the same old story of lectures, assignment. I tried to keep the album of the day but I could only produce these: http://picasaweb.google.com/saurabh.chawdhary/BDay. Freshers for juniors of Mech. dept. was today. Put up for some time there. It was decent show and a good dinner indeed
One more GPL from dept. friends. That was my day.
Monday, August 06, 2007
Morning comes. And comes again the sore throat problem. oh God. It was same as experienced at the end of lst sem. And then remember what happened after I took medicine from HC(Health Centre). Damn it! Those Morons of HC.
Problem furiates me more and more in the day. I think I need to visit home coming weekend for treatment.
Lets wait and watch how things shape up.
And now on I've decided to put on blogs
Problem furiates me more and more in the day. I think I need to visit home coming weekend for treatment.
Lets wait and watch how things shape up.
And now on I've decided to put on blogs
Saturday, August 04, 2007
Boring is Normal
(Current Mood: Nostalgic)
Days passed and I have been proving wrong the header of the blog. I have written nothing since. Now I'm into new semester after having my last over-month visit to home. Never will I get such long time for home-stay. Life has been hassle in the short span after return to Kanpur. Registration was sting. But now its over. I'm in MTH506: Optimisation course after much do around with DUGC of my dept.
So the days are normal again. I read this oneliner somewhere: Normal is boring. Hah! For here, boring is normal. Though days have changed a little as this year saw me moving to third year. Seems there are lot of studies this year with 6 courses of the sem. Once again I have lots of plans but no promises this time after I encountered last sem. Besides, I will be happy if I learn to break the monotonicity of my life that's been following from few years. This post was a step towards the same after staying away from blogging for so long.
Days passed and I have been proving wrong the header of the blog. I have written nothing since. Now I'm into new semester after having my last over-month visit to home. Never will I get such long time for home-stay. Life has been hassle in the short span after return to Kanpur. Registration was sting. But now its over. I'm in MTH506: Optimisation course after much do around with DUGC of my dept.
So the days are normal again. I read this oneliner somewhere: Normal is boring. Hah! For here, boring is normal. Though days have changed a little as this year saw me moving to third year. Seems there are lot of studies this year with 6 courses of the sem. Once again I have lots of plans but no promises this time after I encountered last sem. Besides, I will be happy if I learn to break the monotonicity of my life that's been following from few years. This post was a step towards the same after staying away from blogging for so long.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Idle-ing at home
It has been 10 days since I am home. I had only 3 outing 3 of these. That's quite like lazy and like Saucy. Watched loads of movies. Among the list are Blood Diamond and Black Friday. Both of them are reality telling. There is so much to be done. I wonder if ever the problem of diamonds in Africa and problem of Hindu-Muslim conflict could ever be solved before they burst out by themslves!
Tomorow I plan to buy a canvas and start painting it hoping to complete before vaccations.With 35 days of vaccations to go there's to much left.
Ishan is not in town.
Tomorow I plan to buy a canvas and start painting it hoping to complete before vaccations.With 35 days of vaccations to go there's to much left.
Ishan is not in town.
Friday, June 08, 2007
Nostalgic...
I am feeling nostalgic now. Days to acknowledge good times at home are near. Momma says over phone that she has some plans for me this summer. One of them is the dreaded Yoga. Oh God! What must be the other things. People are crazy about Yoga.
I too have plans for me. Firstly, I will fix a time for studying the T.Herman Tomography book. Also issued a history book from lib. Ancient India is the title. If there will be any oportunity of playing Basky, I will grab it. Improve my fitness level. Paint a canvas.
And if time alows, try out a new thing. But what this new thing will be is not yet known.
I will move on 11/06 or 12/06.
I too have plans for me. Firstly, I will fix a time for studying the T.Herman Tomography book. Also issued a history book from lib. Ancient India is the title. If there will be any oportunity of playing Basky, I will grab it. Improve my fitness level. Paint a canvas.
And if time alows, try out a new thing. But what this new thing will be is not yet known.
I will move on 11/06 or 12/06.
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
basky again
Second day of basket-ball. My body is aching like anything. Never in my life have I paind my body physically like this. Not even on Vaishno devi climbing!
Kush gets a call in the afternoon. It was google, Banglore offering him internship. And you know what; he turned it down finally.
Kush gets a call in the afternoon. It was google, Banglore offering him internship. And you know what; he turned it down finally.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Basky session
Nothing as special as such of this Sunday except a long basketball session. This was my second attept at basketball. Kala, Vats and me- all dual degree guys have a long term plan. We will learn basketball now and make it aur favo time-pass in 5th year!
The good old friend Vinay was to visit me here at campus but in the end it was cancelled because of his ill health. It would have been 11-12 years since we last met. He promises next week but I may be at home at that time.
The Stock Simulater Project is almost finished. From now onwards we will work apon improving interface and adding more features.
Looking for great times at home!
The good old friend Vinay was to visit me here at campus but in the end it was cancelled because of his ill health. It would have been 11-12 years since we last met. He promises next week but I may be at home at that time.
The Stock Simulater Project is almost finished. From now onwards we will work apon improving interface and adding more features.
Looking for great times at home!
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
It's never all over
Strangely enough this is not a never-lose-hope kinda post.
When I was a kid, I heard people say: "Beta achchhe se padh lo, ek baar base achchha ho gaya to aage achchha karoge". I got it then. I was a decently well student and scored percentage in 80s.
When I passed 8th standard, my sister said: "See Saurabh, now is the time to start board studies. It's very important that you score in ICSE". The coaching teacher in 10th standard said: "You will have your high school mark-sheet shown everywhere. Leave all frolic and engage yourself in studies only". I said, OK sir here is my effort. I dumped the whole year in study-bin. Then. Sir, here is my 90% at the end of the story.
But the story was just begun. 12th board was the new story. It's a bi thing in one's life, I was told. Relaxed a bit in 11th, but soon it was time to screw again. For boards and simultaneously for JEE-04. During this year I got unprecedentedly large number of this-is-the-time type comment. One uncle who used to be an engineer said: "Beta Saurabh, yahi waqt hai. khub mehnat kar lo fir aage to aish hai aish". Beta Saurabh thought as usual: Right Sir I will do that as I've been doing ma whole life.
I remember a day during this year when my sis tagged me hard-working-fool. It was not in this context but as I think it over now it's as much true. Yes, that was what I've been all my life.
But the fool was to be fooled more. So JEE people did not select him for JEE-04. One more year of fooling around in a strange new place with all strange new faces. I moved to Kota, Rajasthan for one year and made my life more miserable. But life is a function which takes miseries as input and gives back big things as output. Akbar was King at 14 just because he was born in deserts when his parents had nothing. Not even food and water!
This was when I thought This might be the all over point. This might be the end. Came to IIT Kanpur and caried this myth for one more year.
Then it was summer of '06. I was seriously caught in a mental paradigm. If this is the end then why not it had ben 2 year back. Why can't it be 4 years hence? Trying to solve this I was reading a book by Mr.Robin Sharma.(Yes, the same you are thinking now).
Now my dear. It scraps the question itself. If you want to be happy. It this very moment is the best time. Try to be happy in this moment and apply the same model to next moment and you will never be sad. All the while you sacrifice your present for future and then you realize that these is no future infact. When 'what you think future' comes, it comes in the form of present. So don't you think the present is important than future?
SO what's the tip for me? Ho sake to isme jindagi bita do pal jo ye jane wal hai. Think future live present.
Friday, May 25, 2007
From dummy to decent (photographer)
Hey hey! It feels so good. Im really happy! When someone appreciates my photography.
First it was Vatsheel who said: yaar Saucy tum decent enough photographs lene lageho. Then Mr.Ranjan said."Saw your pics. Nice photography yaar".
Having comments from first a very close friend- who knows me inside out; and then from someone I knew not from long time' I had no I idea where does he saw my photographs; means that I have risen to a 'decent' level from the dummy level.
This is for a incentive rather than boasting. O God of photography, grant me results of the efforts I make from the journey of decent to good and from good to excellent.
Once Dr.Pal said in photography-club lecture- The realization that you have taken one good shot gives you eminent joy. If you get 1 shot in a week-that counts 4 in a month- its enough to make you ever-happy-living.
Right Sir!
Right Sir!
H1B is here. Mai jaa hu Indiaaaaaaa !!!
Okay, I said the post on H1B. The is a social one. Vatsheel had is his view point. He said that he writes on social issues. The contrast is that I write about personal issues. But as Vatsh said H1B's visa is a very much social issue.
The visa may be an issue but I write about what appeals to me. The bill of doubling of H1B visas is around in the US of A senate. Much more is the debate is whether or not the bill will be passed or not. Even more is the debate that should the bill be passed or not.
What are H1B? The H-1B visa program allows American companies and universities to employ foreign scientists, engineers, programmers, and other professionals in the United States. The H-1B is a non-immigrant visa category in the US of A under the Immigration & Nationality Act, section 101(a)(15)(H). It allows American companies and universities to seek temporary help from skilled foreigners who have the equivalent US Bachelor's education. H-1B employees are employed temporarily in a job category that is considered by the U.S. Citizenship & Immigration Services to be a "specialty occupation". A specialty occupation is one that requires theoretical and practical application of a body of specialized knowledge along with at least a bachelor’s degree or its equivalent. For example, architecture, engineering, mathematics, physical sciences, social sciences, medicine and health, education, business specialties, accounting, law, theology, and the arts may be considered to be specialty occupations.
What's the mess is about? This is from one of the business week report.
Sehgal is one of many international MBA candidates who's caught in a visa bind. With only 65,000 H-1B visas available for professional-level workers across all sectors for the 2008 fiscal year, the U.S. Citizenship & Immigration Services received 123,480 eligible applications on Apr. 2 and Apr. 3. After a computer lottery, about half the applicants were rejected.
Another Report:
Abhishek has a few options. After completing his degree requirements, he can try his luck in a visa pool for candidates with Master's degrees. That's 20,000 visas above and beyond the H1B - for students who've completed advanced degrees in the US. Citi could also take him for a one-year "practical training" under his student visa and he can reapply for an H1B next year.
The current Law regarding H1B's allows 65,000 visas only. The reality is that if an IIT graduate gets the much hyped foreign placement, it might be that he doesn't actually answers the job.
One such affected student says: "Microsoft hired for US positions (at IIT) and then almost simply dropped their new hires because of the H1b mess (did not even give India positions), Merril Lynch took people to UK, same with Deutsche Bank, Capital One kept few people in India and moved rest to England and Canada.LimeWire opened an India office. This year also many companies are in trouble including Bloomberg".Mai aa raha hu America
So what's the bill? The US senators cum top-shot-business persons (You can count more business persons in White House than non-business ones!) fear that this might lead to deficient supply of immigrant energy of the nation.
Two such senators proposed a new plan. This seeks to increase the number 65,000 to something like 1,2o,000 now and further to 1,80,000. It also allows unlimited number of visas to personnel who hold Master's and higher degree from a US University or any such equivalent.
The two-sided effects? The senators have made them clear. They want more and more servants. More human resource at their disposal. The arrow is shifting. After English, the Americans are our new masters.
However attractive it may seem for the industry of US of A it has a real backlash from the side of an average American citizen. There is a natural fear of 'my job could be at risk'.
The Americans are hotly debating the issue here . One gentleman argues: "Labor is work, not product, and if you are going to stand up and tell the US government you cannot possibly find a US Employee to do the job, and must bring in someone from another country to do it, you should be paying an abjectly high premium".He adds: Look, here is EXACTLY how H1B works the vast majority of the time, and I know this because I’ve been in the meetings where the decisions were being made to do it! List for a job posting offering 50-80% of the market rate for the skill set you need... of course you can’t find anyone with decent skills to take the job.. so you then hire someone H1B and pay them 50-80% of what you should be paying. You weren’t in a situation where you couldn’t find an american to do the job, you set up a situation where you couldn’t find an american to do the job for WHAT YOU WANTED TO PAY... not that there was no american who could do it... so instead of the company being forced to simply adjust to market situations, you give them a trump card to avoid the market forces, using government interference.That’s all you have going on with H1B... its a COMPLETE and total scam, its a short circuit of the market, and to argue its “free market” is repugnant.
Well it may be repugnant but that is life. Skills are important but immigrant labour is attractive because it is willing to work for less. And longer and harder hours, as well.
A study conducted by Centre for Immigration Studies (CIS) tells that 85% of foreigners are paid $13,000 less than an American working in America for the same post and in the same state. This is against the law. But it happens very much. You know that you are being exploited but I can photograph you drinking and enjoying in the sahab ki visa party. Still I see the front page headlines of TOI speaking the issue as -'Chalo America'! Aapka bachpan ka sapna ab poora ho sakta hai. Still I here my friends speak "Mai to India jaisi country me job nahi kar sakta". We still can't get out of our "foreign jaane ko milega" paranoia.
The courtesy argument of there-are-more-research-facilities-in-USA given by the migrated scientists and researchers is as much valid for Dr.Kalam, Homi Bhabha, S.C.Bose as it is for them. Yet we see these two types of peoples taking different paths at a critical point in their life. Now I don't need to justify the argument.
No wonder why we have the tag line of a leading organisation as Building Nations without specifying which nation and having its yearly meeting in US of A and India alternately.
Just imagine we go to past and every single Indian immigrant with the so called label of skilled-worker had not immigrated in the new happenings. What would have been India then? What would have been America then? I agree they develop more skills with them being in America but still they would have been much worth working with India. The new proposal invites more skilled foreigners from India. Hence more skill flowing out from India. Hence India becoming more and more skill deficient. Hence America becoming more and more skill proficient.
As I end this I hope from the youth of India, creation of an India where we shall not need to the go past and reform the things!
The visa may be an issue but I write about what appeals to me. The bill of doubling of H1B visas is around in the US of A senate. Much more is the debate is whether or not the bill will be passed or not. Even more is the debate that should the bill be passed or not.
What are H1B? The H-1B visa program allows American companies and universities to employ foreign scientists, engineers, programmers, and other professionals in the United States. The H-1B is a non-immigrant visa category in the US of A under the Immigration & Nationality Act, section 101(a)(15)(H). It allows American companies and universities to seek temporary help from skilled foreigners who have the equivalent US Bachelor's education. H-1B employees are employed temporarily in a job category that is considered by the U.S. Citizenship & Immigration Services to be a "specialty occupation". A specialty occupation is one that requires theoretical and practical application of a body of specialized knowledge along with at least a bachelor’s degree or its equivalent. For example, architecture, engineering, mathematics, physical sciences, social sciences, medicine and health, education, business specialties, accounting, law, theology, and the arts may be considered to be specialty occupations.
What's the mess is about? This is from one of the business week report.
Sehgal is one of many international MBA candidates who's caught in a visa bind. With only 65,000 H-1B visas available for professional-level workers across all sectors for the 2008 fiscal year, the U.S. Citizenship & Immigration Services received 123,480 eligible applications on Apr. 2 and Apr. 3. After a computer lottery, about half the applicants were rejected.
Another Report:
Abhishek has a few options. After completing his degree requirements, he can try his luck in a visa pool for candidates with Master's degrees. That's 20,000 visas above and beyond the H1B - for students who've completed advanced degrees in the US. Citi could also take him for a one-year "practical training" under his student visa and he can reapply for an H1B next year.
The current Law regarding H1B's allows 65,000 visas only. The reality is that if an IIT graduate gets the much hyped foreign placement, it might be that he doesn't actually answers the job.
One such affected student says: "Microsoft hired for US positions (at IIT) and then almost simply dropped their new hires because of the H1b mess (did not even give India positions), Merril Lynch took people to UK, same with Deutsche Bank, Capital One kept few people in India and moved rest to England and Canada.LimeWire opened an India office. This year also many companies are in trouble including Bloomberg".Mai aa raha hu America
So what's the bill? The US senators cum top-shot-business persons (You can count more business persons in White House than non-business ones!) fear that this might lead to deficient supply of immigrant energy of the nation.
Two such senators proposed a new plan. This seeks to increase the number 65,000 to something like 1,2o,000 now and further to 1,80,000. It also allows unlimited number of visas to personnel who hold Master's and higher degree from a US University or any such equivalent.
The two-sided effects? The senators have made them clear. They want more and more servants. More human resource at their disposal. The arrow is shifting. After English, the Americans are our new masters.
However attractive it may seem for the industry of US of A it has a real backlash from the side of an average American citizen. There is a natural fear of 'my job could be at risk'.
The Americans are hotly debating the issue here . One gentleman argues: "Labor is work, not product, and if you are going to stand up and tell the US government you cannot possibly find a US Employee to do the job, and must bring in someone from another country to do it, you should be paying an abjectly high premium".He adds: Look, here is EXACTLY how H1B works the vast majority of the time, and I know this because I’ve been in the meetings where the decisions were being made to do it! List for a job posting offering 50-80% of the market rate for the skill set you need... of course you can’t find anyone with decent skills to take the job.. so you then hire someone H1B and pay them 50-80% of what you should be paying. You weren’t in a situation where you couldn’t find an american to do the job, you set up a situation where you couldn’t find an american to do the job for WHAT YOU WANTED TO PAY... not that there was no american who could do it... so instead of the company being forced to simply adjust to market situations, you give them a trump card to avoid the market forces, using government interference.That’s all you have going on with H1B... its a COMPLETE and total scam, its a short circuit of the market, and to argue its “free market” is repugnant.
Well it may be repugnant but that is life. Skills are important but immigrant labour is attractive because it is willing to work for less. And longer and harder hours, as well.
A study conducted by Centre for Immigration Studies (CIS) tells that 85% of foreigners are paid $13,000 less than an American working in America for the same post and in the same state. This is against the law. But it happens very much. You know that you are being exploited but I can photograph you drinking and enjoying in the sahab ki visa party. Still I see the front page headlines of TOI speaking the issue as -'Chalo America'! Aapka bachpan ka sapna ab poora ho sakta hai. Still I here my friends speak "Mai to India jaisi country me job nahi kar sakta". We still can't get out of our "foreign jaane ko milega" paranoia.
The courtesy argument of there-are-more-research-facilities-in-USA given by the migrated scientists and researchers is as much valid for Dr.Kalam, Homi Bhabha, S.C.Bose as it is for them. Yet we see these two types of peoples taking different paths at a critical point in their life. Now I don't need to justify the argument.
No wonder why we have the tag line of a leading organisation as Building Nations without specifying which nation and having its yearly meeting in US of A and India alternately.
Just imagine we go to past and every single Indian immigrant with the so called label of skilled-worker had not immigrated in the new happenings. What would have been India then? What would have been America then? I agree they develop more skills with them being in America but still they would have been much worth working with India. The new proposal invites more skilled foreigners from India. Hence more skill flowing out from India. Hence India becoming more and more skill deficient. Hence America becoming more and more skill proficient.
As I end this I hope from the youth of India, creation of an India where we shall not need to the go past and reform the things!
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Mother's Day
Mom, I want to say wish you mother's day like this:
Happy Mother's Day
Sorry Mom for not remembering the day. In the morning came back from mess after breakfast and saw on cell phone: 6 missed calls from Mamma. Naaaahhhhiiiiiii.
Called back immediately to know from Mamma that today is mother's day! The response in defence was. oh I thought it falls on 13th may, Sorry Mamma. :(
It's really hard to explain. How the hell I didn't remember. *sobs*
Thursday, May 10, 2007
More Quake3 and more CT
Playing Quake3 like anything. The flag game in two teams. Me and AC vs. Kush and Bhatia. Also in Deathmatch Arena. Improving my game day by day. Right now got a new book from lib on Tomography- IMAGE RECONSTRUCTION FROM PROJECTION- The Fundamentals of Computerized Tomography By Herman, Babor T. The Preface reads like "Ideal book for a two semester course on introduction to CT". Hoping to finish the two-semester-thing soon.
Got iTunes installed on lapP.
Taking meals these days consists of crossing over the fence to hall 5, eating and then again crossing the fence into hall2.
Heard about the Sting operation on BCCI selection panel. It's a disgrace to country and country's cricket.
Although I should be spending more time on CT than Quake3 but the current status is opposite. Struggling to get out of Quake3 arena! [:((]
Got iTunes installed on lapP.
Taking meals these days consists of crossing over the fence to hall 5, eating and then again crossing the fence into hall2.
Heard about the Sting operation on BCCI selection panel. It's a disgrace to country and country's cricket.
Although I should be spending more time on CT than Quake3 but the current status is opposite. Struggling to get out of Quake3 arena! [:((]
Thursday, May 03, 2007
Summer once again
It's happening once again. The summer has come. The Earth has made one full revolution since it encountered me giving end-sem exams of second semester. The last summer was in a sence revolution. It;s since then I started thinking. I became aware of me. Not going into this detail further.
The first one month spent at IITK. Full time masti. Then at home. The book I read. Monk WhoSold His Ferrari. Its impression. All that. I remember. The painting classes. The old blogs. It's going to be once again.
Assignments this time: Learning PHP. Some reading assignment regarding Tomography. Get better cuber(Rubik's Cube). And at last- Enjoy! Live these days.
The first one month spent at IITK. Full time masti. Then at home. The book I read. Monk WhoSold His Ferrari. Its impression. All that. I remember. The painting classes. The old blogs. It's going to be once again.
Assignments this time: Learning PHP. Some reading assignment regarding Tomography. Get better cuber(Rubik's Cube). And at last- Enjoy! Live these days.
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Getting lethargic...
Toooooooo lazy too write anything.
Though I've been off from blogging since long time, I can't move my fingers over keyboard. My fingers are each 10kgs right now. And my body thousands!
Though there are many things worth wasting some space here; things about end-sem exams; things about how I slowly recovered from the throat illness; things about the pain-affected-preparation; things about unexpected disastrously looking but still worthless marks obtained in MOS; things about stay back at IITK till 15th june; things about Dr. P.Munshi; things about the AME meeting (which a new person will call a spoof of a meeting) with HOD; things about review of Philosophy course done this semester; things about Mamma and Didi s out of home; things about learning php; things about SPI, CPI and such heck; things about one more suicide at IITK; things about the shrewed attitude of director's and deans'- all the time claiming some irrelevant things; things about the ******* professors in my college; things about the hall allocation next year; things about the boring WC07; things about all other happenings and mis-happenings gone past in last few weeks.
In spite of all this Saucy is busy playing QUAKE3. Now quiting the blogging arena and entering Quake3 arena. Fight!!!
Though I've been off from blogging since long time, I can't move my fingers over keyboard. My fingers are each 10kgs right now. And my body thousands!
Though there are many things worth wasting some space here; things about end-sem exams; things about how I slowly recovered from the throat illness; things about the pain-affected-preparation; things about unexpected disastrously looking but still worthless marks obtained in MOS; things about stay back at IITK till 15th june; things about Dr. P.Munshi; things about the AME meeting (which a new person will call a spoof of a meeting) with HOD; things about review of Philosophy course done this semester; things about Mamma and Didi s out of home; things about learning php; things about SPI, CPI and such heck; things about one more suicide at IITK; things about the shrewed attitude of director's and deans'- all the time claiming some irrelevant things; things about the ******* professors in my college; things about the hall allocation next year; things about the boring WC07; things about all other happenings and mis-happenings gone past in last few weeks.
In spite of all this Saucy is busy playing QUAKE3. Now quiting the blogging arena and entering Quake3 arena. Fight!!!
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Hard time fighting illness
Hard time fighting illness. Four days before I woke up at 12:30 in night due to acute pain in the throat. The very next day I couldn't avoid consulting doctor in HC (Health Centre at IITK), a place popular for its ill-treatments. The doctors are excellent in giving medicine but poorest in diagnosis.
So the medicine that Dr. Batra gave me suggests that I have a throat infection. Specifications: Roxithromycin, Ibuprofen, Cetirizine. All these include nausea as side-effect. That's what exactly I am suffering.
Now it's a helpless kind of situation. If I take the medicine Im sleeping like anything! can't concentrate. And if I don't then I can't even sleep because of throat pain!
Somebody save me!!
Can't study in all these. End-sems start from 13rd. It seems that this end-sem is going to be worse than ever.
So the medicine that Dr. Batra gave me suggests that I have a throat infection. Specifications: Roxithromycin, Ibuprofen, Cetirizine. All these include nausea as side-effect. That's what exactly I am suffering.
Now it's a helpless kind of situation. If I take the medicine Im sleeping like anything! can't concentrate. And if I don't then I can't even sleep because of throat pain!
Somebody save me!!
Can't study in all these. End-sems start from 13rd. It seems that this end-sem is going to be worse than ever.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
The open elective Fight
Open elective is open only in name. Every course which you would like to do will have time clash or instructor will not allow you saying for fourth year only. Most of 'em which u would love are not offered. Or the instructor will not mysteriously reject your request saying nothing. Phew! whats open in it and what's elective in it. Practically I stand with no choice. And Virtually choices include few of my departmental (Mechanical Engg.) courses which are last to my likeness and few of MBA courses- no use to me if I don't plan to do anything in management. With all the future unpredictable, insecure let's hope for the best for the next semester.
The HSS I'll be studying next sem is tittled: PHILOSOPHICAL PROBLEMS instructed by Proff. Boruah.
The HSS I'll be studying next sem is tittled: PHILOSOPHICAL PROBLEMS instructed by Proff. Boruah.
Monday, April 09, 2007
Overloaded students at IITK
Today's fortune:
Your talents will be recognized and suitably rewarded.
Just now came from interview for AME council. Hah... come on was it like an interview. Prashant just asked what do I know and told what I was supposed to do. Not that big thing. The AME site is already there. I would just be supposed to update the data and forms on that site. Only data thing. Ohh. No deal, I'll do it.
Mom dad and didi were here from last evening till today. Khub sara khane ka saaman aaya ghar se yummm... (English:Lots of edibles came from home).
Options for next sems are open on OARS site. A heavy sem with 24 credits! Only 1 less than the maximum allowable. This may be 25 if someone takes 5 credit course as Open Elective! Now who will disagree that students at IIT Kanpur are overloaded with studied. I remember Dr. P Kumar saying in class that he accepts the truth of above statement. I too remember a guest lecture by an IITK alumni (he is a top-shot name in industry everybody knows. just that I'm missing it on my tongue) spoke about an incident about him in HBS. He met his dean for permission to take an extra courses. But it was never happened and never allowed for students to take more than that fixed credit in a semester. But as he came yo know the man is from IIT Kanpur, he at once allowed him to take the courses. See! IITK students are popular(not famous) for taking (or Bearing!) overloads!
Here is the course templete:
1)HSS-2
2)ME352
THEORY OF MECHANI. & MACHINES
3)ME341
HEAT AND MASS TRANSTER
4)ME321
ADVANCED MECHANICS OF SOLIDS
5)ME361
MANUFACTURING TECHNOLOGY
6)OE-1 : Open Elective (Means choose one whatever course you like.)
And it's again a wake up call for end-sems. 13 days left. Let's start with the unlucky number 13. 13 days of preparation
Your talents will be recognized and suitably rewarded.
Just now came from interview for AME council. Hah... come on was it like an interview. Prashant just asked what do I know and told what I was supposed to do. Not that big thing. The AME site is already there. I would just be supposed to update the data and forms on that site. Only data thing. Ohh. No deal, I'll do it.
Mom dad and didi were here from last evening till today. Khub sara khane ka saaman aaya ghar se yummm... (English:Lots of edibles came from home).
Options for next sems are open on OARS site. A heavy sem with 24 credits! Only 1 less than the maximum allowable. This may be 25 if someone takes 5 credit course as Open Elective! Now who will disagree that students at IIT Kanpur are overloaded with studied. I remember Dr. P Kumar saying in class that he accepts the truth of above statement. I too remember a guest lecture by an IITK alumni (he is a top-shot name in industry everybody knows. just that I'm missing it on my tongue) spoke about an incident about him in HBS. He met his dean for permission to take an extra courses. But it was never happened and never allowed for students to take more than that fixed credit in a semester. But as he came yo know the man is from IIT Kanpur, he at once allowed him to take the courses. See! IITK students are popular(not famous) for taking (or Bearing!) overloads!
Here is the course templete:
1)HSS-2
2)ME352
THEORY OF MECHANI. & MACHINES
3)ME341
HEAT AND MASS TRANSTER
4)ME321
ADVANCED MECHANICS OF SOLIDS
5)ME361
MANUFACTURING TECHNOLOGY
6)OE-1 : Open Elective (Means choose one whatever course you like.)
And it's again a wake up call for end-sems. 13 days left. Let's start with the unlucky number 13. 13 days of preparation
Blood is thiscker than water...
See the last line of this post chhote chhote shehro se. Wah! What an analogy! Wah! It wud have taken time to understand that.
Blood is thicker than water, but modern life has made us all a bit anaemic. You don't want to be seen as a leech!
Friday, April 06, 2007
Hostel Blues after JEE07 and and a plain NO from CADES
As the second year comes to an end a restlessness is in air. With the quota bill almost clear(if not it will be very soon I bet on these politicians can go all the way to anything they want), and increase in strength of incoming batch of JEE-07 there is going to be an acute shortage of living rooms of allocated hostels. The whole structure of accommodation of UGs is on the verge of Revolution.
Earlier hall allocation was like this. Hostels Hall2 and Hall3 were filled with first and second yearites mixed. Hall 5 for third year and Hall 1 for fourth year. This was okey till now. But with a jumbo sized Y7 batch which is coming it isn't possible anymore. The total strength of Y7 and Y6 is more than the combined capacity of Hall2 and 3. There were many meetings and public poles. And finally few things are in air but still final word has not yet come.
Firstly there is one idea of Hall 2,3 and 5 combined with first second and third yearites. This is the minima which is going to be for sure. But this alone is not enough to hold all the student. So some students will be going to a newly constructed (under construction in fact) hostel Hall-9. Now there are many solutions in air that I've heard from different people but nothing final as such. Some say hall-9 will also contain all 3 batches combined. Or only third yearites will be going to hall-9. All those who will give their preference as Hall 5 might be sent to hall-9. An the scene of preference is as follows.
Hall 2 and 3 have double rooms as a disadvantage over other two halls. Also the mess of hall 2(my hall) is the worst minimum level in food quality. So no one would like to feed on it 1 more year after already getting harassment for 2 years. Most of the guys in hall-2 would like to go to leave it. Among hall 5 and 9 hall-5 seems preferable because of only ill factor of hall-9 - it is situated a long distance from academic area. But opting for hall-5 includes a threat of going to hall-9 if it has no space when your turn comes. So those who are too obsessed with the distance factor would like to stay in hall-2. And those obsessed with food quality would want to leave it at earliest, even at the cost of being sen to hall-9.
In our wing about 4 out of 22 are obsessed with distance factor and prefer hall-2. Rest all (including me)despise hall-2 for feeding reasons. So that's super majority as Ankur calls it. Hopefully we will be in hall-9/5. If it happens hall 9, cycling alone to academic area/Lecture halls would take around 5-7 minutes forget about walking!
All in all the situation is too complex with increasing strength of batch size every year. Also there is an urgent need for more and more faculty persons which deteriorates the quality of teaching and the level of IITs.
Anyways, it will be all clear in the next few weeks.
Called up the Cades people and got a plain reply : NO. no students.
Earlier hall allocation was like this. Hostels Hall2 and Hall3 were filled with first and second yearites mixed. Hall 5 for third year and Hall 1 for fourth year. This was okey till now. But with a jumbo sized Y7 batch which is coming it isn't possible anymore. The total strength of Y7 and Y6 is more than the combined capacity of Hall2 and 3. There were many meetings and public poles. And finally few things are in air but still final word has not yet come.
Firstly there is one idea of Hall 2,3 and 5 combined with first second and third yearites. This is the minima which is going to be for sure. But this alone is not enough to hold all the student. So some students will be going to a newly constructed (under construction in fact) hostel Hall-9. Now there are many solutions in air that I've heard from different people but nothing final as such. Some say hall-9 will also contain all 3 batches combined. Or only third yearites will be going to hall-9. All those who will give their preference as Hall 5 might be sent to hall-9. An the scene of preference is as follows.
Hall 2 and 3 have double rooms as a disadvantage over other two halls. Also the mess of hall 2(my hall) is the worst minimum level in food quality. So no one would like to feed on it 1 more year after already getting harassment for 2 years. Most of the guys in hall-2 would like to go to leave it. Among hall 5 and 9 hall-5 seems preferable because of only ill factor of hall-9 - it is situated a long distance from academic area. But opting for hall-5 includes a threat of going to hall-9 if it has no space when your turn comes. So those who are too obsessed with the distance factor would like to stay in hall-2. And those obsessed with food quality would want to leave it at earliest, even at the cost of being sen to hall-9.
In our wing about 4 out of 22 are obsessed with distance factor and prefer hall-2. Rest all (including me)despise hall-2 for feeding reasons. So that's super majority as Ankur calls it. Hopefully we will be in hall-9/5. If it happens hall 9, cycling alone to academic area/Lecture halls would take around 5-7 minutes forget about walking!
All in all the situation is too complex with increasing strength of batch size every year. Also there is an urgent need for more and more faculty persons which deteriorates the quality of teaching and the level of IITs.
Anyways, it will be all clear in the next few weeks.
Called up the Cades people and got a plain reply : NO. no students.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Reply post
P.S.: This is a reply post to the Are you in love?.
Love is all we need here!!!I've written and read much on the topic.Thre's a movie tittled Anwar. Every character in the movie was sad. but all of them had on single reason. They all needed love!To be loved is such a joy that hides all reasons to be sad. Think of when you put ur head in ur mother's lap and u jst closed ur eyes. Thousand worries that were in ur minds would vanish for those moments. I feel this everytime I visit home.You might be intrested to read following
Love is all we need here!!!I've written and read much on the topic.Thre's a movie tittled Anwar. Every character in the movie was sad. but all of them had on single reason. They all needed love!To be loved is such a joy that hides all reasons to be sad. Think of when you put ur head in ur mother's lap and u jst closed ur eyes. Thousand worries that were in ur minds would vanish for those moments. I feel this everytime I visit home.You might be intrested to read following
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Recently someone made me believe some persons are never meant to be helped.
Helping is like a virtue. Help till you are at stake. I thought.
But I was proven wrong! Apparently it might not affect you but there are some people in helping whom you are always at stake. Somebody made me realize that.
But yaar. Fir bhi, sometimes, being a human, I can't follow!
Helping is like a virtue. Help till you are at stake. I thought.
But I was proven wrong! Apparently it might not affect you but there are some people in helping whom you are always at stake. Somebody made me realize that.
But yaar. Fir bhi, sometimes, being a human, I can't follow!
Chance
It seems a very week chance I have of working with a hardware design solution company. CadesTech. Mamma and didi were in Banglore for did's m.Phil enterance exams. And they also had a chance to go to airshow where these csdes people met my sister. Was this more than just coincidence that airshow fell on the date when they were there; and my sister met those people; and that it was just a point in their conversation that my name was up and she told Im doing Mech. Engg. B.Tech.?
But the dark side is that I sent a mail regarding this to a person who gave contacts to my sister and it's about two days and didn't get the reply. Tried calling them but couldn't talk to the person concerned. I'll call later. What's in giving it a try.
Witrh all the fascinating things that Dr. Deb told us in ME251 class I can say I'will learn and enjoy if it happens.
But the dark side is that I sent a mail regarding this to a person who gave contacts to my sister and it's about two days and didn't get the reply. Tried calling them but couldn't talk to the person concerned. I'll call later. What's in giving it a try.
Witrh all the fascinating things that Dr. Deb told us in ME251 class I can say I'will learn and enjoy if it happens.
Monday, April 02, 2007
Days Become Hotter
With days becoming hotter it's becoming difficult and more difficult for mugging. As soon as I take up a book sleep takes on me. Facing this problem from two days. In fact days are too hot to handle!
At last started FluidMech. Quite unknown things are coming forward to my notice. Had all this what the world has produced in Fluid Mechanics with all there efforts. It's a bevkufi type topic. All you need to do is to mug-up how to see the chart. Nothing like rule exists. Some idiot did some experiment and jotted down the data. Now bigger idiots see the data from chats and graphs and get marks in exams. Okey! I'll also try to be an idiot. That's the rule after all.
From two days sleeping like anything! slept for 1 1/2 hrs. in the day. Then in clases till 5. Went to library eith the books. But salted them with my sweat while sleeping. May be I'm not able to cope up with changing climate.
Currently reading the autobiography of Imran Khan.
That's all. These days i don't have much to say...
At last started FluidMech. Quite unknown things are coming forward to my notice. Had all this what the world has produced in Fluid Mechanics with all there efforts. It's a bevkufi type topic. All you need to do is to mug-up how to see the chart. Nothing like rule exists. Some idiot did some experiment and jotted down the data. Now bigger idiots see the data from chats and graphs and get marks in exams. Okey! I'll also try to be an idiot. That's the rule after all.
From two days sleeping like anything! slept for 1 1/2 hrs. in the day. Then in clases till 5. Went to library eith the books. But salted them with my sweat while sleeping. May be I'm not able to cope up with changing climate.
Currently reading the autobiography of Imran Khan.
That's all. These days i don't have much to say...
Friday, March 30, 2007
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Dr. Munshi
Met Dr. Munshi of Mechanical department. A cool fellow to be in touch. Can't imagine someone to be a professor at IIT Kanpur and behaving so much like humans!!! Rare thing to watch! Hopefully I would be working for him this summer '07.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
IITR trip - horrible experience
With a sore toe and pain in the hips, it seemed impossible to move to north. But impossible is nothing. I did go finally.the trip was not a great one in terms of technical success but have some memorable moments.
Whenever I sit down to write anything could only produce this: We were disqualified from a programming event on account of cheating. 2-5 were the timings. we finishd 4/5 questions in 2:10 hrs. tried the third for about 20 mins. but left it as. Submittied the 4 problems at abot 4:34 and left CC for another event going on. Then at our back there was some ill abrewing against our back! Can't think if there can be such a****** who could copy the codes as it is. not even changed a line. Renamed the files for them and send the same files. We didn't attempted the problem2 but in a file named problem2.java there was partial code of problem3. Those idiots submitted it as problem2 without giving it a look! F*** people. The next round was on next day from 2 and the results were released as late as 1 p.m. We(me and Bhatia) were not in the list. Not even Kush and JBhatia. Talked to cordi's and we were charged with cheating! My Lord. What's it! This is the reality of world. Its full of rouges and cheats. Code Cheaters. Aman talked to them as long as 20 min. but then they gave excuses even if code was not copied it has fallacy of I/O reading. and so on... 8/10 teams were from home team.
You cheats give excuses to expell us. But how can you put out Kush and JBhatia. The google coders. Programming chapms at IITK!!!
Had a chance to meet Kushs' Dad and I came to know why he is like that- calm. He is a reflection of his father! a true reflection.
Whenever I sit down to write anything could only produce this: We were disqualified from a programming event on account of cheating. 2-5 were the timings. we finishd 4/5 questions in 2:10 hrs. tried the third for about 20 mins. but left it as. Submittied the 4 problems at abot 4:34 and left CC for another event going on. Then at our back there was some ill abrewing against our back! Can't think if there can be such a****** who could copy the codes as it is. not even changed a line. Renamed the files for them and send the same files. We didn't attempted the problem2 but in a file named problem2.java there was partial code of problem3. Those idiots submitted it as problem2 without giving it a look! F*** people. The next round was on next day from 2 and the results were released as late as 1 p.m. We(me and Bhatia) were not in the list. Not even Kush and JBhatia. Talked to cordi's and we were charged with cheating! My Lord. What's it! This is the reality of world. Its full of rouges and cheats. Code Cheaters. Aman talked to them as long as 20 min. but then they gave excuses even if code was not copied it has fallacy of I/O reading. and so on... 8/10 teams were from home team.
You cheats give excuses to expell us. But how can you put out Kush and JBhatia. The google coders. Programming chapms at IITK!!!
Had a chance to meet Kushs' Dad and I came to know why he is like that- calm. He is a reflection of his father! a true reflection.
Gota sleep.. write more latter
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Chaos in life
After the exams end. Started a period of chaos, confusion and fuss! Involved in an online puzzle solving contest of IITR. Sleepless nights and sleepy days. The laziness continues. Then the two autocad assignments. This plight continues. Finished the assignment. Now the 2 labs on friday and saturday shake my trip to IITR. Adding to this, got a sore in my right toe. Got an injection poked in the hip.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Blue Print for Mid sem 2
Topics to crack!!!
Materials: -Diffusion
-Phase Transformation
-Elastic Inelastic/stress strain
Philosophy: -Astika-Nastika
- Karma Theory
-Dharma
MOS:-Ch4(Mohr's Circle)+ torsional strain
-Ch5
FluidMech: -Differential Analysis
-Dimensional
ME251(Drawing): -Conventions
-Theory from copy and book
12th: FM, ME251
13th: FM,Philosophy
14th: ED, MOS
Materials: -Diffusion
-Phase Transformation
-Elastic Inelastic/stress strain
Philosophy: -Astika-Nastika
- Karma Theory
-Dharma
MOS:-Ch4(Mohr's Circle)+ torsional strain
-Ch5
FluidMech: -Differential Analysis
-Dimensional
ME251(Drawing): -Conventions
-Theory from copy and book
12th: FM, ME251
13th: FM,Philosophy
14th: ED, MOS
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Wake-up call!!!
Its time now. With mid sems around the corner and days becoming lazy is not going to work. Studying just returning from home is always annoying. But it has to be done if I've to save any hope for straight 10. Time to turn off orkutting, mailing, blogging, everything. Just mugging!
Just do it!
Found this pic funny enouugh to post here.
Saucy, Bhatia aur Circuit.
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Follow your conscience.
This was taught in Indian philosophy lecture last week. It is seemingly logical and unquestionably true it is!
When there is conflict between Shruti(Vedas: w.r.t society now one may assume it the customs of society, what we are used to doing) and Smriti(Dharma Shastra: can be assumed equivalent to the correct way. That which is in consent with common good); FOLLOW YOUR CONSCIENCE. Everything may be wrong but your heart can never be. Don't tell yourself what is correct. Listen to your conscience. Don't decide what to do. Do what your heart says. And that's the only way to get outa this conflict!
Hibernating today. Studied only class notes of philosophy. Sleeping like anything!
When there is conflict between Shruti(Vedas: w.r.t society now one may assume it the customs of society, what we are used to doing) and Smriti(Dharma Shastra: can be assumed equivalent to the correct way. That which is in consent with common good); FOLLOW YOUR CONSCIENCE. Everything may be wrong but your heart can never be. Don't tell yourself what is correct. Listen to your conscience. Don't decide what to do. Do what your heart says. And that's the only way to get outa this conflict!
Hibernating today. Studied only class notes of philosophy. Sleeping like anything!
Friday, March 09, 2007
Days end at....
...home. Returning to IITK tomorrow now. The last day was probably the most busiest and new things happened today. Woke up at 10:30 after long tight 11 hrs sleep. Went to reserve ticket for tomorrow. 9:40 a.m. That was the time to go back to the world composed of lectures, exams, proffs,..... Came back to know Mannu invited for lunch. Had a nice lunch. Wach
ed movie ("School of Rock"). All hard party man! Saucy turned battery!! [:(] Checked for eye vision and got -0.5 lens correction. And the doc told to wear them as most of time as possible. That means you're gona see Saucy in specs next time. Collected the specs from Civil Lines. Mom wanted to see Hanuman Mandir today. Went for a normal prayes there. Also bought the card reader. Got the songs from didi's cellphone. Refer post a previous post. It was night before when I was leaving Allahabad. I asked mamma to sing the same song which she used to sing when once I was lil boy. Recorded all of them on cellphone. Its here. (try playing in quick time player if doesnt works.)
Visitd Ishan's place after that. Amazed her friend wanted to talk to me! Just Normal stuff. The last statment was 'Keep in Touch'. Good enough. But ya tell me how can I keep in touch if I don't Who you are; Where you're from;.. what you did (copyright: BackStreetBoys).
Things that stand out in the 6 day stay at home:
ed movie ("School of Rock"). All hard party man! Saucy turned battery!! [:(] Checked for eye vision and got -0.5 lens correction. And the doc told to wear them as most of time as possible. That means you're gona see Saucy in specs next time. Collected the specs from Civil Lines. Mom wanted to see Hanuman Mandir today. Went for a normal prayes there. Also bought the card reader. Got the songs from didi's cellphone. Refer post a previous post. It was night before when I was leaving Allahabad. I asked mamma to sing the same song which she used to sing when once I was lil boy. Recorded all of them on cellphone. Its here. (try playing in quick time player if doesnt works.)Visitd Ishan's place after that. Amazed her friend wanted to talk to me! Just Normal stuff. The last statment was 'Keep in Touch'. Good enough. But ya tell me how can I keep in touch if I don't Who you are; Where you're from;.. what you did (copyright: BackStreetBoys).
Things that stand out in the 6 day stay at home:
- Celebrated Holi. As colourful as every year. This time made memorable by few friends. These festivals in India save our life from becoming dull. Else I would have been Miss Havisham!! Lolz! I feel lucky to be born in India. Proud to be an Indian!
- Yet another awesome production from Steven Spielberg! The Schindler's List. The movie is on a real life story of a person in the time of World War 2. A total business minded person but a saviour of generations! Angel Unaware.
- Started loving those John Lennon classics. Topping the lists are In My Life, My Sweet Lord, Help and Revolution.
- Bought a carry case for the laptop for a decent price.
- Got the mamma's songs from didi's cellphone. Still dont know where do the attach those widgets so that openning the blog page whole playlist plays. Help!
- Party time with friends were memorable.Jatin invited for his parents' 25th anniversery celebration. Nice time there except when I was asked to dance. Did some usual leg and hand break. Remarks came: Kanpur me dance nahi hota kya? I stood hesitant between two thoughts- (i) Had I learnt lil bit of party dance . To open up, Street smart, and stuffs like that. (ii) WTF?? I dont do something that means don't. Don't force me! Zamana hamse hai ham zamane se nahi. World will be what I become. Ah... whatever.
- Gave final touch to the canvas I started long before in Dushhehra holidays. Only signature left. ; Left it for my sis. Hopefully it can be carried here in next visit to home.
- Last day being most happening. Visited Ishan at night. he told how one of his friends(not a friend exactly but I cant find another word fr it) did fraud on some participation certificates and telling lies all over. How can a man be such a big big biggest A******! I just can't believeanybody can do this!. I simply hate liers, racists, arrogance, pretentiousness, hypocricy. Though I should learn to live with all kinda people, my blood boils on the mention of such idiots! You can't have leather covering all the ground all over the world; better wear shoes. On the other hand there are some of his friends who are so nice(believe me it turned my head to finding appropriate adjective; in the end decided to keep it simple). Waise I can write whatever I want. Nobody is gonna sue me. Lolz!
Monday, March 05, 2007
Mom and Dad
Just thought to post a pic of Mom and Dad so that the memory stays forever. Even if my laptop, digi-cam,whole city, whole India vanishes, it's there. 
(Hoping Google doesn't collapses in the meantime).
To leave on 8th probably
Spent a day at mausi's (Aunt's) place. Gave some final touch to the second canvas Im painting. It will take some time to dry and then in lamination and framing. Let's see if I can take it to my hostel room this time.
Not studying at all here at home. Now I have to decide b/w studying some time here and leaving on 11th OR enjoing home full-time and leave earlier- 8th or 9th. May be the latter is better. In American's word Work hard, party harder.
Recently watched the Schindler's List.. An unexpected change in an extraordinary man. Enough to make him immortal! Amazing!!! That's fine example of anybody can do anything. We can find reasons to appriciate every person.
Not studying at all here at home. Now I have to decide b/w studying some time here and leaving on 11th OR enjoing home full-time and leave earlier- 8th or 9th. May be the latter is better. In American's word Work hard, party harder.
Recently watched the Schindler's List.. An unexpected change in an extraordinary man. Enough to make him immortal! Amazing!!! That's fine example of anybody can do anything. We can find reasons to appriciate every person.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
All we want is love
Holi this time was as colourful as ever. At first I wasn't ready. Thought of tomorrow. But Mannu, Jatin and Matty surprissingly turned up at my home and started colours. Then it was all red and green and blue.
In the day saw the movie Anwer. It says the same thing. All we need is love. The SP, master Pasha, Mehru, the journalist(Mrs. Koirala), the minister, Anwer, Anwer's friend, all were unhappy. And the reason was one for all of them : they all wanted LOVE.
If you are feeling sad now, just reason out why; untill you arrive at the conclusion that all you want is Love.
It's holi time. Gota go out and meet people.
In the day saw the movie Anwer. It says the same thing. All we need is love. The SP, master Pasha, Mehru, the journalist(Mrs. Koirala), the minister, Anwer, Anwer's friend, all were unhappy. And the reason was one for all of them : they all wanted LOVE.
If you are feeling sad now, just reason out why; untill you arrive at the conclusion that all you want is Love.
It's holi time. Gota go out and meet people.
Left to right: Jatin, Matty, Mannu, Saucy.(hav u identified me?)
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Another Black Wednesday and meeting with alumini
Meeting wwith 65 pass-outs i.e. first batch batch to graduate from IITK. What they talked reallylet me belive that engineering is not all crap. Here's a pic..
Wednesday. Celebrated as black wednesday among Mrch 2nd year att IITK. Courtesy: Engineering drawing Lab. Had quite a deal completing the autocad assignment on steam stop valve. Then the last lab excercise. Thankfully other friends(fellow sufferers from same department) completed the last lab work. In return I gave them the completed autocad assignment. C2D!! Taking print outs at 4:00 a.m.
Missed the two morning lecture. Almost falling in the lab.Sleeping in the 2:00p.m. lecture. Sleeping in the room 3:00 to 4:00. MOS Quiz till 5. And the day ends. Almost cracked the quiz question. But the old habbit of silly mistake and all gone. Anyways. Coming back another task at hand. Wrote up an article on Rural Entrepreneurship for a competition. Submitted just before deadline 23:59!!! Living on the edge.
Lots of sleep hours back logs remain. So gotta sleep. Oh! but FluMech quiz on friday. As the day of going home nears, losing concentration in studies. Something I experienced right from the first sem. HOME BECKONS!!! Im coming.....
Wednesday. Celebrated as black wednesday among Mrch 2nd year att IITK. Courtesy: Engineering drawing Lab. Had quite a deal completing the autocad assignment on steam stop valve. Then the last lab excercise. Thankfully other friends(fellow sufferers from same department) completed the last lab work. In return I gave them the completed autocad assignment. C2D!! Taking print outs at 4:00 a.m.
Missed the two morning lecture. Almost falling in the lab.Sleeping in the 2:00p.m. lecture. Sleeping in the room 3:00 to 4:00. MOS Quiz till 5. And the day ends. Almost cracked the quiz question. But the old habbit of silly mistake and all gone. Anyways. Coming back another task at hand. Wrote up an article on Rural Entrepreneurship for a competition. Submitted just before deadline 23:59!!! Living on the edge.
Lots of sleep hours back logs remain. So gotta sleep. Oh! but FluMech quiz on friday. As the day of going home nears, losing concentration in studies. Something I experienced right from the first sem. HOME BECKONS!!! Im coming.....
Monday, February 26, 2007
Quiz time
This week Im gonna hit by quizzes. 2 quizzes already announced. Wed Mos , and friday FluMech. Hope that's all. Missed Materials tut completed the backlogs of sleep in morning 9:30 to 1:30. That's something I can't compromise. Charger missed in techkriti croud. Now borrowed Lava's charger. Thank God it's working!
Looking for Holi holidays. Loads fun beckoning at home. But first there are two quizzes two be combated just as the holidays finish on 11th there is bigger monster- MidSem 2. So apart from that some part of the mid-sem exams syllabus is to be finished. As this will be inversely related to no. of days I can spend at home.
Whole day wasted on repairing some programs on lapP. Lets go mugging now. Happy mugging!!!
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Ishan and Co.
Found a movie for which I have been looking for long on DC++. Women on Top. Penelope Cruz at her best. She made me awake till 6:oo in morning. Early morning shower made cool atmosphere.
It was Ishan again who woke me at time when my alarms were about to ring. (Something about alarm: Normally I use to put two morning alarms, but both fail in purpose. I can still remember the days in first year when Bhatia used to come from his room and say to me. Sale teri. Ye sada sa alarm band kar. Mai baaju wale room me so nahi paa raha! That torturing alarm tune of my cellphone is still blade to his ears,anytime- conditioned reflexes.) But this time straight in my room with her
friend. Thanks buddy for waking me up. Ishan with his 4 friends- Akriti, Kshitiz, Mitali and Supriya were in my room completing their poster for biz event. Meantime I did with daily-bath (rare for a hosteler-but some habbits never leave you), morning prayer which was occasionally done in morning, no breakfast as usual. Still unsure with the future of Chaos event. Bhatia, I feel too bad for you. COM200 destroyed your Techkriti. Not at all fair. This is not something expected for an extraordinarily brilliant geek like him. But as the saying goes Don't expect life to be fair. Stayed with Ishan and Co. for abt 3 hrs. at my room. Lots of painting and sketching going on in my room. As I write this post I fancy about bringing all the oil colours and canvas and painting a canvas in my room. Not possible.
At the end got ready till 1:00p.m., bid good bye and good luck to current 368/2 inhabitants and ran to CC after a call from Bhatia telling me that he will manage to appear for Chaos. We were waiting for the contest to start. Having some fun with camera right in CC. Kush had his laptop which proved entertaining (playing Contra on it).
Contest starts 2:15. But this time we were totally lost in taking input and output of the given language. Problems seemed easy enough to be solved. The whole program was written and compiled. But it screwed our nuts to execute it! No success. Finally two hours pass and we stand there with no submission out of 5. Horrible!Came to SAC in while it was raining light. by that time Ishan had left institute! F***! Wasn't able to meet him. He got in top three in advt-event. Congrats to you and your team-mates!
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Huhhoooo. This sound comes as Saucy jumps back into his routine life. The boring life and the boring blog posts. Work at hand:- Autocad assignment, drawing lab exersise(10% left), 2 complete chapters in FluidMech, MOS quiz on Wednesday, Fluid quiz on Thursday.
--->
Today Aman clicked me smiling. Can't remember when I was last caught smiling on camera. Is it true that my smile is fading? Khushi leaving me as earlier observed by some of my very close friends including Aman Bhatia. Anyways, here is the pic. Actually Aman had the camera. It was supposed to be a photograph of Saucy and Kush( you can see latters hand on formers shoulder), but the pranker focussed on me and here is the result. Thanks Aman. The green thing is Kchha Mango Bite. My energy bite. It drives me nuts!
--->Called Ishan while he was in train, wished him and team@UCER good bye and good luck. All those ppl were good to meet. Kshitiz and Supriya were friendly enough. Akriti was quite busy in and good at painting/sketching. Mitali cool and calm. Less talkative to new faces like me. I always hold special view about the people who are less talkative. May be I appeared less friendly to these people but that was not I wanted to be. That's my inability (First blog post).
I think, at times, I must have been with Ishan but I haven't. Couldn't go with him to meet Onkar sir and on other occasion couldn't give him lapP. And I always wanted to be friendly with all those people. Memember one of Avichal's blog tittle- What we've got here,is a failure to communicate. I know this is too much. But I can't help. Thats Saucy for you! With this very habbit of complicating things in his head!
All in all a nice 3 days. Thoda setback tha. Kuchh khas nahi kar paaya. Missed important lectures by personalities. Limited participation (some credit goes to My dept.). But however worse it may be, at least I can say that these were few of the most happening days of my life. Importantly, it helped me get that smiling pic (which I also posted on orkut).
Had 1 hr chat with Vinay. Now Materials assignment to be finished this time- 00:44a.m. and then wake up for absofuckinglutely boring+harrassing FluidMech lecture. Also coming up is a jam-packed week with 2+ quizzes and 3 assighnments.
P.S.- Hope nobody minds my taking and then publishing the first photograph here without there knowledge. Actually I didn't intend to do so. But that's the way things are!
It was Ishan again who woke me at time when my alarms were about to ring. (Something about alarm: Normally I use to put two morning alarms, but both fail in purpose. I can still remember the days in first year when Bhatia used to come from his room and say to me. Sale teri. Ye sada sa alarm band kar. Mai baaju wale room me so nahi paa raha! That torturing alarm tune of my cellphone is still blade to his ears,anytime- conditioned reflexes.) But this time straight in my room with her
friend. Thanks buddy for waking me up. Ishan with his 4 friends- Akriti, Kshitiz, Mitali and Supriya were in my room completing their poster for biz event. Meantime I did with daily-bath (rare for a hosteler-but some habbits never leave you), morning prayer which was occasionally done in morning, no breakfast as usual. Still unsure with the future of Chaos event. Bhatia, I feel too bad for you. COM200 destroyed your Techkriti. Not at all fair. This is not something expected for an extraordinarily brilliant geek like him. But as the saying goes Don't expect life to be fair. Stayed with Ishan and Co. for abt 3 hrs. at my room. Lots of painting and sketching going on in my room. As I write this post I fancy about bringing all the oil colours and canvas and painting a canvas in my room. Not possible.
At the end got ready till 1:00p.m., bid good bye and good luck to current 368/2 inhabitants and ran to CC after a call from Bhatia telling me that he will manage to appear for Chaos. We were waiting for the contest to start. Having some fun with camera right in CC. Kush had his laptop which proved entertaining (playing Contra on it).
Contest starts 2:15. But this time we were totally lost in taking input and output of the given language. Problems seemed easy enough to be solved. The whole program was written and compiled. But it screwed our nuts to execute it! No success. Finally two hours pass and we stand there with no submission out of 5. Horrible!Came to SAC in while it was raining light. by that time Ishan had left institute! F***! Wasn't able to meet him. He got in top three in advt-event. Congrats to you and your team-mates!
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Huhhoooo. This sound comes as Saucy jumps back into his routine life. The boring life and the boring blog posts. Work at hand:- Autocad assignment, drawing lab exersise(10% left), 2 complete chapters in FluidMech, MOS quiz on Wednesday, Fluid quiz on Thursday.
--->
Today Aman clicked me smiling. Can't remember when I was last caught smiling on camera. Is it true that my smile is fading? Khushi leaving me as earlier observed by some of my very close friends including Aman Bhatia. Anyways, here is the pic. Actually Aman had the camera. It was supposed to be a photograph of Saucy and Kush( you can see latters hand on formers shoulder), but the pranker focussed on me and here is the result. Thanks Aman. The green thing is Kchha Mango Bite. My energy bite. It drives me nuts!
--->Called Ishan while he was in train, wished him and team@UCER good bye and good luck. All those ppl were good to meet. Kshitiz and Supriya were friendly enough. Akriti was quite busy in and good at painting/sketching. Mitali cool and calm. Less talkative to new faces like me. I always hold special view about the people who are less talkative. May be I appeared less friendly to these people but that was not I wanted to be. That's my inability (First blog post).
I think, at times, I must have been with Ishan but I haven't. Couldn't go with him to meet Onkar sir and on other occasion couldn't give him lapP. And I always wanted to be friendly with all those people. Memember one of Avichal's blog tittle- What we've got here,is a failure to communicate. I know this is too much. But I can't help. Thats Saucy for you! With this very habbit of complicating things in his head!
All in all a nice 3 days. Thoda setback tha. Kuchh khas nahi kar paaya. Missed important lectures by personalities. Limited participation (some credit goes to My dept.). But however worse it may be, at least I can say that these were few of the most happening days of my life. Importantly, it helped me get that smiling pic (which I also posted on orkut).
Had 1 hr chat with Vinay. Now Materials assignment to be finished this time- 00:44a.m. and then wake up for absofuckinglutely boring+harrassing FluidMech lecture. Also coming up is a jam-packed week with 2+ quizzes and 3 assighnments.
P.S.- Hope nobody minds my taking and then publishing the first photograph here without there knowledge. Actually I didn't intend to do so. But that's the way things are!
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Techkriti's First Post
All the time busy i thechkrit. Opened the laptop very few times. Some good new
s this time. Cleared the prilims for Chaos and On-spot Programming events. Yesterday was Chaos finals. They called us on 2:00 p.m. to CC. Then made us wait till 4:15. There was an important lecture on Optimisation in Geometry. Missed it The scheduled duration was 2:30. The documentation of the given language ws 369 pages. Eh! Bajar thi baap. Searched all round for input. It doesn't allowed to define varriables. This we figured out near to the end. Finally when we were about to complete a problem, they announced the event to be cancelled saying the proiblem given was too difficult since there were very few submissions. F*** u ppl! We did it. Bhatia was the only one to figure out the input read statment. Many guys were not able to reached that. Then I remembered that there was something like ! when it was doing subtaration operation. We submitted the solution just after they said event is being rescheduled. But it was within the time of contest! Ohhh! The contest is rescheduled on Sunday 1:00-4:00p.m. Bhatia has his Com-Skills classes. So he will be unavailable. What will I d
o? Oh god! wasted 5 hrs there, missed some important TechTalks due to it, the we stand virtually winners but practically not even participants! Anyways. thats the way things are. Let it be.
Then had dinner inhall-2 canteen with Ishan and co. including Kshitij, Akriti,Mitali and Supriya. The ran to CC for On-Spot prelims. Me Ishan and Kala- The Three-Headed Monkey The 30 min. quiz include 15 maths and 15 Java questions. We did all in Java section and 13 in Maths.
---Came to room slept lil early(12:00) and the day two ends here----
In the morning it was about 8:30. Woke up from Ishan's call. Our team name was in finals list. There was some drama as the college written in front of our of team name was BITS Goa. Got ready and reached CC and got to know we are through! The final round was little embarassing. did 2/5 questions. Although a third would have been managable. Chance was little. But we didn't gave a try. Missed the lunch. The reached SAC for SDR workshop. Oh GOD. It was all about soldering components on a PCB. Is it all we paid Rs.150. Absolute idiotism till 6:00. Returned to hall-2. Some time-wasting on YouTube. After the dinner reached L-7 for Ankit Fadia's lecture. 550 seating capacity and it was jam-packed. See how popular is this 21 yr old guy among farzi-engineers. Hopeless, No Entry, returned to room. Oh God! I missed some serious excitment! That's the way things are. Wrote a reply mail to Lesia Aunty. Slept some time around 11:00. Wole up again. Got the news: Ishan stood 2nd in IOHC-International online hacking competition. He proved it again what he is. Born Genius! Congrats man! Great doing. Go ahead.
That was all for day 3. Coming up is day4. Hope for the best for re contest of chaos.
s this time. Cleared the prilims for Chaos and On-spot Programming events. Yesterday was Chaos finals. They called us on 2:00 p.m. to CC. Then made us wait till 4:15. There was an important lecture on Optimisation in Geometry. Missed it The scheduled duration was 2:30. The documentation of the given language ws 369 pages. Eh! Bajar thi baap. Searched all round for input. It doesn't allowed to define varriables. This we figured out near to the end. Finally when we were about to complete a problem, they announced the event to be cancelled saying the proiblem given was too difficult since there were very few submissions. F*** u ppl! We did it. Bhatia was the only one to figure out the input read statment. Many guys were not able to reached that. Then I remembered that there was something like ! when it was doing subtaration operation. We submitted the solution just after they said event is being rescheduled. But it was within the time of contest! Ohhh! The contest is rescheduled on Sunday 1:00-4:00p.m. Bhatia has his Com-Skills classes. So he will be unavailable. What will I d
o? Oh god! wasted 5 hrs there, missed some important TechTalks due to it, the we stand virtually winners but practically not even participants! Anyways. thats the way things are. Let it be.Then had dinner inhall-2 canteen with Ishan and co. including Kshitij, Akriti,Mitali and Supriya. The ran to CC for On-Spot prelims. Me Ishan and Kala- The Three-Headed Monkey The 30 min. quiz include 15 maths and 15 Java questions. We did all in Java section and 13 in Maths.
---Came to room slept lil early(12:00) and the day two ends here----
In the morning it was about 8:30. Woke up from Ishan's call. Our team name was in finals list. There was some drama as the college written in front of our of team name was BITS Goa. Got ready and reached CC and got to know we are through! The final round was little embarassing. did 2/5 questions. Although a third would have been managable. Chance was little. But we didn't gave a try. Missed the lunch. The reached SAC for SDR workshop. Oh GOD. It was all about soldering components on a PCB. Is it all we paid Rs.150. Absolute idiotism till 6:00. Returned to hall-2. Some time-wasting on YouTube. After the dinner reached L-7 for Ankit Fadia's lecture. 550 seating capacity and it was jam-packed. See how popular is this 21 yr old guy among farzi-engineers. Hopeless, No Entry, returned to room. Oh God! I missed some serious excitment! That's the way things are. Wrote a reply mail to Lesia Aunty. Slept some time around 11:00. Wole up again. Got the news: Ishan stood 2nd in IOHC-International online hacking competition. He proved it again what he is. Born Genius! Congrats man! Great doing. Go ahead.
That was all for day 3. Coming up is day4. Hope for the best for re contest of chaos.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
IOPC hopeless
IOPC. The contest starts at 14:00 IST. sting still with problems. Stuck hard on problem 6. Finally coded the problem with no syntax error/silly mistakes(something Im very much pronned to). But Alas! The judge says: EXECUTION ERROR. Hey bhagwan. what else u want...
With Kala coding the easiest one P1, I toally left the problem for him. But at in the end it doesn,t even matter, how hard u try. No submissions.
Dukhi-Dukhi: Observing from last 3-4 days. Firstly it was Sumit pointing out "yaar Saucy why are u in so dukhi -dukhi mood".(Dukhi=sad). May be I pissed off on him on something, that's why he was saying so. But it was vatsheel, Shadab, Alok saying wha happened to you? At last it was none other than Bhatia sayaing it to me when I seriously thought Im very much upset these days. What might be the reason. Is it that Im not fulfilling my reason. But is the reason studying? Its days I seriously opened book. Also couldn't talk to mamma past days as she was visiting Buaji in Banglore for 10 days. Am really upset. These clsose friend's testimonies and somewhere me in me say YES!
On Blogger. Found an Americans lady's blogs. She seems to hav done loads of studies and findings on what I would have loved to know. But the last thing to my likeness, I came to IIT Kanpur studying Mehanical Engineerig department. Had a series of comments on her blogs. And she also wrote 1 or 2 on mine. She replied in my post addressing Namaste. Hehehehe. American wishing Namaste. Not so common. And that even to me. Not at all common!
With Kala coding the easiest one P1, I toally left the problem for him. But at in the end it doesn,t even matter, how hard u try. No submissions.
Dukhi-Dukhi: Observing from last 3-4 days. Firstly it was Sumit pointing out "yaar Saucy why are u in so dukhi -dukhi mood".(Dukhi=sad). May be I pissed off on him on something, that's why he was saying so. But it was vatsheel, Shadab, Alok saying wha happened to you? At last it was none other than Bhatia sayaing it to me when I seriously thought Im very much upset these days. What might be the reason. Is it that Im not fulfilling my reason. But is the reason studying? Its days I seriously opened book. Also couldn't talk to mamma past days as she was visiting Buaji in Banglore for 10 days. Am really upset. These clsose friend's testimonies and somewhere me in me say YES!
On Blogger. Found an Americans lady's blogs. She seems to hav done loads of studies and findings on what I would have loved to know. But the last thing to my likeness, I came to IIT Kanpur studying Mehanical Engineerig department. Had a series of comments on her blogs. And she also wrote 1 or 2 on mine. She replied in my post addressing Namaste. Hehehehe. American wishing Namaste. Not so common. And that even to me. Not at all common!
Friday, February 16, 2007
Today
Woke up at 11:00. Brushed the teeth. Collected enough courage and determination to go for a hair cut at Hall-1. Suffering From previous two experiences I too a vow to never have a hair cut at IITK. kI used to hav it when I got to home. But I was not able to hold the long hairs any more. So ultimately did it. Also shaved the 20 days beard. Ab achhe bachho ki tarah.
Mom left from banglore yesterday. Havent got to talk to her from past 48 hrs. She will be reaching on 17th. Lets talk then.
IOPC tomorrow 1:00 p.m. Taking part with Kal. Not great hopes. But still I will try. Even at least 1 submission will give me a lot of joy, sincee I left coding long ago.
Lingered around a new community I love my mom to the couples thread.
Studied a bit of MOS.
Gota see the eye specialist for vision test at 11:00 a.m. in an unknown area of kanpur city. So need to wake up early and hunt the place called Azadnagar. Feeling a bit of strain in eyes. Shayad I need a correction![:(].
Teaming up with Ishan for on the spot programming contest.
Got blog on Karma written by an american lady. Writes appealing. Somany ppl around me write so incredibly good. I too want but kya karu... Gota Improve me
Mom left from banglore yesterday. Havent got to talk to her from past 48 hrs. She will be reaching on 17th. Lets talk then.
IOPC tomorrow 1:00 p.m. Taking part with Kal. Not great hopes. But still I will try. Even at least 1 submission will give me a lot of joy, sincee I left coding long ago.
Lingered around a new community I love my mom to the couples thread.
Studied a bit of MOS.
Gota see the eye specialist for vision test at 11:00 a.m. in an unknown area of kanpur city. So need to wake up early and hunt the place called Azadnagar. Feeling a bit of strain in eyes. Shayad I need a correction![:(].
Teaming up with Ishan for on the spot programming contest.
Got blog on Karma written by an american lady. Writes appealing. Somany ppl around me write so incredibly good. I too want but kya karu... Gota Improve me
Heart Breaking
Whenever u feel that life isn't fair to you look at this:
This is the most heartbreaking picture I've ever seen and I'm putting it low on the page to give you a chance to back out now.
This is the most heartbreaking picture I've ever seen and I'm putting it low on the page to give you a chance to back out now.
About me
Some changes in the about me section on orkut. Here is the old one:
I’m someone who staunchly believe in karma theory…that you reap what you sow…. ..in this birth or in the next….and the cycle of birth and death goes on unless you attain the spiritual path and succeed in your journey towards the final Nirvana.
Hates pretentiousness, arrogance, hypocrisy, liars, racists.(Specially the first one).
Usually not being talked about in the third person..
Uncomfortable being in spot light.
A great Procrastinator, cunctator, lazy, sleepy, lethargic, unpersevering, languid, dilatory, dilatory, lackadaisical.(these r not my vocabulry but synonym search for lazy)
Enjoys living in "dead state"
I have my own perspectives to look at things. Even small things which nobody thinks about appeals to me so much.
Loves to ponder about very abstract things.
Known among friends for having no guts, the one who never dares.
Emotionally connected to every small thing around.
Indecisive over matters.
Im not always the first to initiate the conversationas, I wonder if the person would be comfortable speaking to me. I always wait for others to invite me for speaking. Im always very eager to know what other people think of me.
Perplexed, Confused within myself, clouded, doubtful, dubious, dubitable, Indecisive, inconclusive, indeterminate, problematical, uncertain, unclear, unsure.
"To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them?"
"Hazaron khawahishen aisi ki har khawahish pe dam nikle,
Bahut nikle mere armaan lekin phir bhi kam nikle"
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BLOGS:
http://shanunerd.blogspot.com/
http://saurb-lifeblog.blogspot.com/
http://geeky-rubbish.blogspot.com/
Here is the new one:
Im not always the first to initiate the conversationas, I wonder if the person would be comfortable speaking to me. I always wait for others to invite me for speaking. Im always very eager to know what other people think of me.
Usually not being talked about in the third person.A great Procrastinator,lazy, sleepy, lethargicEnjoys living in "dead state"
I’m someone who staunchly believe in karma theory…that you reap what you sow…. ..in this birth or in the next….and the cycle of birth and death goes on unless you attain the spiritual path and succeed in your journey towards the final Nirvana.
Hates pretentiousness, arrogance, hypocrisy, liars, racists.(Specially the first one).
Known among friends for having no guts, the one who never dares.
Perplexed ,Confused, indecisive ove matters. Yet determinned over what I decide. My principles mean to me more.
And at last these great lines from Galib's pen and Saucy's lips:
"Hazaron khawahishen aisi ki har khawahish pe dam nikle,Bahut nikle mere armaan lekin phir bhi kam nikle"
Adicted to bloging - both public and private. Here are the public ones:http://shanunerd.blogspot.com/
http://saurb-lifeblog.blogspot.com/
I’m someone who staunchly believe in karma theory…that you reap what you sow…. ..in this birth or in the next….and the cycle of birth and death goes on unless you attain the spiritual path and succeed in your journey towards the final Nirvana.
Hates pretentiousness, arrogance, hypocrisy, liars, racists.(Specially the first one).
Usually not being talked about in the third person..
Uncomfortable being in spot light.
A great Procrastinator, cunctator, lazy, sleepy, lethargic, unpersevering, languid, dilatory, dilatory, lackadaisical.(these r not my vocabulry but synonym search for lazy)
Enjoys living in "dead state"
I have my own perspectives to look at things. Even small things which nobody thinks about appeals to me so much.
Loves to ponder about very abstract things.
Known among friends for having no guts, the one who never dares.
Emotionally connected to every small thing around.
Indecisive over matters.
Im not always the first to initiate the conversationas, I wonder if the person would be comfortable speaking to me. I always wait for others to invite me for speaking. Im always very eager to know what other people think of me.
Perplexed, Confused within myself, clouded, doubtful, dubious, dubitable, Indecisive, inconclusive, indeterminate, problematical, uncertain, unclear, unsure.
"To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them?"
"Hazaron khawahishen aisi ki har khawahish pe dam nikle,
Bahut nikle mere armaan lekin phir bhi kam nikle"
---------------------------------------
BLOGS:
http://shanunerd.blogspot.com/
http://saurb-lifeblog.blogspot.com/
http://geeky-rubbish.blogspot.com/
Here is the new one:
Im not always the first to initiate the conversationas, I wonder if the person would be comfortable speaking to me. I always wait for others to invite me for speaking. Im always very eager to know what other people think of me.
Usually not being talked about in the third person.A great Procrastinator,lazy, sleepy, lethargicEnjoys living in "dead state"
I’m someone who staunchly believe in karma theory…that you reap what you sow…. ..in this birth or in the next….and the cycle of birth and death goes on unless you attain the spiritual path and succeed in your journey towards the final Nirvana.
Hates pretentiousness, arrogance, hypocrisy, liars, racists.(Specially the first one).
Known among friends for having no guts, the one who never dares.
Perplexed ,Confused, indecisive ove matters. Yet determinned over what I decide. My principles mean to me more.
And at last these great lines from Galib's pen and Saucy's lips:
"Hazaron khawahishen aisi ki har khawahish pe dam nikle,Bahut nikle mere armaan lekin phir bhi kam nikle"
Adicted to bloging - both public and private. Here are the public ones:http://shanunerd.blogspot.com/
http://saurb-lifeblog.blogspot.com/
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Lazier than ever...
My hair needs a cuting. My beard needs a shaving. After working 48 hrs. on Autocad my knees almost got cramps. Feeling lazier than ever.
Techkriti is around the corner. I was supposed to have been busy but can't get over this laziness. I wonder how I will go to city tomorrow for eye check-up.
Take me as I am
She's been down and out,
she's been wrote about,
she's been talked about,
constantly.
She's been up and down,
she's been pushed around,
but they held her down,
NYC.
She has no regrets,
she accepts the past,
all these things they helped
to make she.
She's been lost and found,
and she's still around,
there's a reason for
everything.
You know I've been holdin on.
Try to make me weak,
but I still stay strong.
Put my life all up in these songs,
just so you can feel me,
so you can get the real me.
So take me as I am,
or have nothing at all,
just take me as I am,
or have nothing at all.
Now she's older now,
yes, she's wiser now
can't disguise her now,
she don't need
no one tellin her
what to do and say,
no one tellin her
who to be.
She's on solid ground,
she's been lost and found,
now she answers to
G-O-D,
and she's confident
this is not the end.
Ask me how I know,
cause she is me.
You know I've been holdin on.
Try to make me weak,
but I still stay strong.
Put my life all up in these songs,
just so you can feel me,
so you can get the real me.
So take me as I am,
or have nothing at all,
just take me as I am,
or have nothing at all.
So it's all or nothing at all,
all or nothing at all,
don't you know I can only be me,
I can only be me, yeah,
I can only be me.
So it's all or nothing at all,
all or nothing at all,
don't you know I can only be me,
I can only be me, yeah,
this is me.
This is me,
this is me,
this is me,
this is me,
this is me,
no one else, no,
you can't take that from me, oh.
So take me as I am,
or have nothing at all,
just take me as I am,
or have nothing at all.
Written by Mary J. Blige
she's been wrote about,
she's been talked about,
constantly.
She's been up and down,
she's been pushed around,
but they held her down,
NYC.
She has no regrets,
she accepts the past,
all these things they helped
to make she.
She's been lost and found,
and she's still around,
there's a reason for
everything.
You know I've been holdin on.
Try to make me weak,
but I still stay strong.
Put my life all up in these songs,
just so you can feel me,
so you can get the real me.
So take me as I am,
or have nothing at all,
just take me as I am,
or have nothing at all.
Now she's older now,
yes, she's wiser now
can't disguise her now,
she don't need
no one tellin her
what to do and say,
no one tellin her
who to be.
She's on solid ground,
she's been lost and found,
now she answers to
G-O-D,
and she's confident
this is not the end.
Ask me how I know,
cause she is me.
You know I've been holdin on.
Try to make me weak,
but I still stay strong.
Put my life all up in these songs,
just so you can feel me,
so you can get the real me.
So take me as I am,
or have nothing at all,
just take me as I am,
or have nothing at all.
So it's all or nothing at all,
all or nothing at all,
don't you know I can only be me,
I can only be me, yeah,
I can only be me.
So it's all or nothing at all,
all or nothing at all,
don't you know I can only be me,
I can only be me, yeah,
this is me.
This is me,
this is me,
this is me,
this is me,
this is me,
no one else, no,
you can't take that from me, oh.
So take me as I am,
or have nothing at all,
just take me as I am,
or have nothing at all.
Written by Mary J. Blige
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
The Ultimate autocad assignment
The ultimate auto cad assignment.it took out last drop of blood. Continuously doing autocad from 2 days. Missed the dinner this night. Pains printing the final drawing in the DRPG office. Valentines day par 3 autocad assignment. 5:30 now but still awake
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