Traveling after a long time

It's been on me mind from a long time. But it came this late. Visiting Mumbai this weekend. Recollecting last few weeks reveals that I am traveling after a long time. In fact I never went out after returning from home on nov 10. Except for office route.

Lets see how everything is in the outside world has been!

Love her, love her, love her!

Before I could answer (if I could have answered so difficult a question at all), she repeated, "Love her, love her, love her! If she favours you, love her. If she wounds you, love her. If she tears your heart to pieces - and as it gets older and stronger, it will tear deeper - love her, love her, love her!"

Loner

There are things in life. Big and Small. Many of them you have to do alone. Nobody however close to you will stand by you.

After a long time went for a night stroll. A bit of leisurely stroll is something which always feels nice.

No winter

It's almost half the December and its still hot in Hyderabad. At times I would miss the inactivity we actively participate during winters. Nothing like that here.

Btw we cooked our first biryani today. It did not look much like a biryani but taste-wise okie dokie.

There is always a better next time. :)

Lost in thought and lost in time

I had have erratic thoughts running through my head from sometimes. I think I am going crazy. I think my life has gone...

Im not feeling good about myself.
That is why Im trying to hide my face. Don't know why.
Im lost. In all kind of thoughts.

like a lots of whys

lots of whats

Im not able to cohere them.
They come in discrete clumps. Bits and pieces.

क्या खोया क्या पाया

"ज़िन्दगी के शोर, राजनीती की आपाधापी
रिश्ते नाते की गलियों और क्या खोया क्या पाया के बाजारों के आगे
सोच के रस्ते पर कही एक ऐसा नुक्कड़ आता है
जहा पहुच कर इंसान एकाकी हो जाता है
तब जाग उठता है कवी
फिर शब्दओ के रंगों से जीवन की अनोखी तस्वीरे बनती है
कवितायेँ और गीत सपनो की तरह आते है
और कागज़ पर हमेशा के लिए अपने घर बना लेते है
तब सुनने वाले और सुनाने वाले में तुम और मैं की दीवारें टूट जाती
दुनियां की साड़ी धडकनें सिमट कर एक दिल में आ जाती है
और कवी के शब्द दुनिया के हर संवेदनशील के शब्द बन जाते है"

Writing on me

Im not writing these days. Sometimes I feel I have things to write. But then next moment I dont feel like telling. I dont feel like sharing it. Something has happened to me.
There are things in office. Im gradually settling in my cubicle. Im getting some work. Then back at home Im writing about myself. On how I carry the diversity and how I will add value to the place. And my life experiences that affected my decision and all. While doing this it transpired that writing on oneself is more difficult than writing on other things or people.

Because when you are writing on other things/people you are writing on what you are observing. Observations can be right or wrong. They may or may not match reality. It is like you are reporting some stuff. But when one has to write on oneself it means to write what you are being not seeing. And then there is language constraint. To know oneself you don't need language. But to write it you need to recollect all of you and then you need language to substantiate it.

Back to pavilion

Play time over. Back to pavilion. Nice break. Nice trip to home.
It was pretty close call with very little time between flight and train while going but I made it in the end.

Sometimes I feel that there is no one to talk to. No one understands you. You don't understand yourself. You
Dont worry its the hangover (of coming from home) which looms there.

Staying in office late from few days.
Got tickets for Day 2,3 of India NZ test match!

Next two days will be on the ground.

Have a lot of work to do. God please motivate me. Why am I such a procrastinator?
Dont Procrastinate Saucy!

Please DONT PROCRASTINATE!!!

Home

After all the musings on the airport, which was in last post, I was able to catch the train from Delhi station in spite of only 35 min window between plane landing and train departure.

Till then I was in relax-down mode. After running around so much in Friday I was in no mood to stop at Kanpur. So I will be coming to campus on Tuesday i.e. tomorrow.

tring my ill luck

How much min. time it takes to travel from IGI delhi to NDLS railway station
bargaining with my ill luck
i so much wish I had a parachute
try the limits of ill-luck
traffic can trafuck you.
saale pilot se mil lo.. and bolo "uncle thoda tez chalao na" :D
one friend in delhi says: lets talk when u reach my home
this is the 2nd time i bungled up while coming to home from hyderabad. its been quite adventurous last time
boarding is at 8:30
Another advice: ek parachute mil raha hai ebay par. description "Parachute. Unused. Small stain of blood on it"
advice: Bribe the TT on any train. If NOT (get down next station and try another

:)

TGIF

Finally Friday the 29th is here, the day I leave for home. But not sure of the day I will reach home. May be saturday, sunday or monday. In remote possibility on Tuesday. Depends on traffic in capital after 10 p.m.

Festive season ahead so great, great wishes to all of you. May all my readers get what they wish for secretly. Or openly, whatever.

I will also be visiting IITK on this weekend or early next week. Probability distribution curve shows maxima on Saturday. So you can expect to see me there on saturday.

Wishing helluva good time for the festive season ahead to all of you. I'll save Happy-Diwali for next post. :)

Purge it

Nothing has changed since last year. The dilemma never ended. It was just postponed for 1 year (<1).
But this time lets go with the application part first.

And then play with the take-life-as-it-comes rule.

So what cometh now is the application.

The deadlines are imminent and work remaining is hefty.

So there is little time to adjust vicissitudes.

Purge them out and manage the things.

Kashmiri's 'will'

(Developed from a forum on BBC. Sadly such kind of opinion can only appear on blogs n forums and not on the minds where they matter)

"Guys,

People here talk a lot of Kashmiri’s will. Let me just deviate from topic and tell u what happens in Britain for law of shareholders. In England law is that when shareholders decide in AGM of a company that the company management change hands then no one on earth can stop it. Now what has happened over last decade is that England has been continuously loosing business to everyone around the world in name of so called will of shareholders. Foreign companies come to England, offer a little premium price to shareholders and in return get their votes to sell companies to foreigners and law just could not stop it. In long run foreigners who acquire English companies shut them down and sell their own good to English. So effectively in the name of so called ‘will’ of shareholders, there has been increasing unemployment in England which affects those very shareholders (common man) on streets. But obviously shareholders (the common man) fail to see this long term effects of such uninformed and short sighted will of his/her.

Now back to Kashmir. For once all kashmiris should use their heads and not hearts and ponder over these points:

1. Kashmir becomes part of Pakistan.
Consequences: All kashmiriyat goes up in flames. Pakistan destroys all culture and imposes its own agenda on Kashmiris. No economy of Pakistan and Kashmiris are made to starve and die. Look at so called Azad Kashmir, is it really azad (independent) or a mere puppet in hands of Pakistan.

2. India gives independence to its Kashmir.
Consequences: Will Pakistan replicate? A highly unlikely possibility. Will Pakistan try to annex or at least influence and install a puppet government in Kashmir? A highly likely possibility. Will China annex the Kashmir? A very very highly likely possibility. And in this case Kashmir will be treated same as Tibet. Today more hun chinese are inhibited in Tibet than tibetians themselves, do kashmiris want same fate for themselves?

3. Pakistan also gives Kashmir its independence.
Consequences: Although highly unlikely but still if it happens then India will be forced to free Kashmir and one single Kashmir will get independence. BUT BUT BUT what about red dragon with its never ending greed? Do Kashmiris want to be part of China where they can’t even protest as protesting against government is illegal in China? Do you all want to go down the Tibet line?

4. Kashmir gets independence and Super Hypothetically stays independent as well.
Consequences: A LANDLOCKED country surrounded by giants as China, India and Pakistan can never survive financially without depending heavily on these three neighbouring countries. There will always be puppet governments in Kashmir and it will always remain a financial slave of one or the other. What good is independence when for bread and butter you remain dependent on the others FOREVER? Look at Europe, Germany, France and Italy kept on supporting creation of small small countries in name of people’s will and behind the scenes they also kept on installing puppet governments in these so called independent countries. Result today they (Germany, France, Italy) virtually rule whole of Europe while giving common man a sense of false independence. Look at Euro zone. Germany and France impose 3% deficit onto everyone else whereas they themselves have been flouting the norm regularly but no one punished them AND now when Greece fails its puppet government was forced to let loose all the austerity hell unto Greeks whereas better methods existed for a way out. And by putting so severe austerity on Greece, Germany has put everyone else in danger as well. Latest example of all this so called fictitious independence is Kosovo being just another country run by puppet government. Do you, in long run, want such conditions for Kashmir? What good is political independence if finances of your countries are dictated by others? Is this false sense of independence any useful? So think of the fact that how will you earn your daily bread after independence and then you will realise the practical difficulties in this highly globalised world.

So for once use your God given brains and not hearts. You treat those soldiers with love and affection and they will replicate. A few bad elements exist in every institution but does that make the whole institution bad. So if you keep pelting stones and burning buildings then you will achieve nothing. Why doesn’t kashmiris sit for NDA exams in large numbers? If there is trouble in family then it doesn’t mean u leave family, u try to solve it within family. How come Pakistan backed militants find hiding places inside the city buildings? How come your so called leaders never lead a protest march? Lala Lajpat Rai at the age of 70+ was leading a peaceful protest march against Simon commission when he died because of an English ordered lathi charge, does any of your Gilanis and Mirwaizes have guts for that? And you call them leaders.

So please use your brains for once and end this violence and stop supporting Pakistan and Pakistani agents (Gilanis and all like him)."

And India win

It will be nice to send Aussies win-less.
:)

Kids were good

So this Saturday was quite not-so-common days of life. Everybody of us mostly have common or normal days of life. And then there are those days which are not-so-common. Those when we would not be doing/having things which we will call that as such 'stand out' from activities of some + or - x days from that day.
So coming back to the point Saturday was that kind of day. Not that it was some F-ing day of my life or stuff like that but it had some salience which I can't associate with other Saturdays.
So coming back to the point again we (me along with some co-workers) went to a school and spent some time with students. There were few competitions where students participated with vigour we did not know when in class 10. Most of the children came from very humble family background but Im sure they could have outdid many in terms of enthusiasm. They enjoyed. We loved.

So. It was over. We went to Bangalore. Met some of the old guys. Watched first day of Bangalore test. Had some so-called fun.
And that was pretty much of it. Came back and ensconced in the frame.

Cricket Match

If everything goes well on Saturday I will be watching the cricket match live on ground. For the first time.
That too a contest between top two teams.
So this weekend will be in Bangalore.
I am also contemplating buying a bicycle to commute between office and home.
Many people discouraged the idea as in it will be odd.
But apart from that cycling in hyderabad is BIG deal.
By doing so you decrease your life expectancy by increasing your probability of death at young age.
In hyderabad there is no concept of footpath leave alone cycling lanes. So you have to work your way through bigger vehicles on the main road.
So I will have to watch out for the streets I will have to cycle through before executing the idea.
In the 3 days since I moved to new apartment the observation was that roads from here to office are relatively flat.
But the traffic is loaded.
See you Bangalore. In 3 days time.

No news

I know I am posting very few these days. But I dont know why. I will tr to keep posting. Although as of now there is nothing like work pressure at office. I sometimes even wonder why I am getting paid!
The only news is that we are moving in a new house this weekend.
And today with all the scare of Ayodhya verdict there will be quite a bit of security.
There are a lot of speculations about what will happen. Possibly communal clashes.
There are always people around us who take pleasure in meaningless things.
Sometimes I wonder that we are losing more than we are gaining from Religion.

Theory of Everything

Today was one of those days in life which leaves you confounded. Each day I travel to office I see different faces. Girls and boys, men and women, young and old. All of them so different but yet same to me. So what's really different about them.

One lady was standing besides the road with her mate, talking. Another was driving her skoda to office. Few were sitting in auto-rickshaw. Many more were waiting. Pedestrians walking across muddy side street. So what is it that makes you. Is it the skoda, the bus, how you dress, how you eat, what you eat, what you own, how you live that matters? Is it really the thing that makes a difference.

Think over again. Do these things really matter? In the eventuality it is not how many cars you've driven or how many houses you have owned is the reason that you are happy or you are sad. But still we want everything in life. Even things that we try to debunk when we see others having it.

One of these days I was reading the utilitarian justice theory which presumes that all humans are equal. Happiness value of every individual is of equal importance. Did anybody see anything wrong in this point of view? But we all know how this is not reflective around us. Imagine a guy like you getting a fever and somebody living-under-a-bridge child getting a fever.

Why do we get into this? So what is it all about? The only answer I get for this question is - 'Confusion'. The more you question the more strong your conviction about the answer.So it remains undiscovered what the answer is. And to a certain extent what the question was. But so is the 'Theory of Everything'. Undiscovered.

What a life!

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Get up.
Go to Office.
Come back.

Get up.
Go to Office.
Come back.

Get up.
Go to Office.
Come back.

Get up.
Go to Office.
Come back.

Get up.
Go to Office.
Come back.

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Don't go to office.

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It seems new city does not suits to my eyes.

First the lens correction increased to -0.75, -1.0. Secondly I am suspected with some xyz hi-fi eye disease a doctor in this hospital.

Now the advice is to keep dropping the eyedrops and have diagnostic tests. 

Eventually we have to face the tests and the result.

Let us see what it turns out to be.

Weird al

I know I can be weird at times. But not that weird. I can be decent too. Many times I am this weird that I feel self-weirdness.

A day in life

This birthday was really a memorable one. Got up early. Went for office at 9 a.m. Mom, dad and sis came to meet me at 10 a.m. And then what fell was only rain. All the traffic gone crazy when I was returning. We started at 6:30 from office and reached 10:15. So nothing much left for the day. Only some cake celebration and all.

The next day went again in similarly. Only I was able to have home cooked food. :)

And now that Momma has gone back we cook ourselves in the evening.

Not got enough time to sleep amidst all this.

It's hard to stay awake will gulping down syntaxes of PL/SQL. So I use IM clients and facebook to fight the sleep.

No only 1 day and Im going to sleep whole of Saturday!

Goodie nightie. Have to wake up in the morning early.

On independence

My homage to all those who lost their lives or family members in the carnage concomitant of independence. At this day my heart always shudders to imagine the picture of Punjab, Sindh, and Kashmir 63 years hence. For most it was a red lettered day. For some it came as a ghost to seek their life.

The power transition carried a lot of friction. And the heat burnt many. I don't know what better way could have been for transfer but it seems as though any way other than this would have been better.

BTW I was reminded by a call on 12:01 that it was my birthday! So Happy Birthday to me! I wish that I love my work.

All the rocking time has gone past

Yes it was rocking...
The final year at college was, to say the least, rocking, wonderful, awesome, rocking, legendary.

I think we were so hell bent on we-will-miss-these-days-later kind of stuff that we made every conscious efforts to enjoy to the fullest during last 2 years, specially last 1 year. Sometimes it paid bad returns in some other things. For example our theses defense. None of our wing-mates were able to finish our dissertation in may. We starting in june and still going on.

But believe me it was worth it. Only to recollect some of those memories is several times more joyous than watching the best of movies in theaters partying anywhere in the world.

But as I always say and will say again. All things must pass. So has this. But we try to enjoy every-time everywhere. And I will tell you that's the secret often ignored. Secret to stay happy forever.

No life without Internet

So finally getting back the life. I have been missing badly. A lot of days went un-captured on blogger. That pains me a lot. It is exactly after a month that I am writing.

The big news is that I have joined my job. Now I am a working professional. 9;30 to 6 each day. Sitting straight on a chair. Get home. Eat. Sleep. May be blog on some days. Wake up from all this for 2 days after every 5 days. Do something else. That's it.

The trick is to do things I wanna do in between this. So I want to keep blogging and do a lot of things apart from work.

We will be having a 5 week training in the company then assigned projects. Overall things are well down here. Trying to settle in a new rented flat. 5 of us are sharing in a 3 bed room house. Few things are still left to buy. Just waiting for weekend to fix these things.

To Death!

Death can be so near you and you may not know.
Death can come so fast.
Death is the ultimate reality of life.
Death can be realization of many truths.

I will die this month

As I wrote the closing chapter of my masters thesis it reminds me of closing chapter of a lifetime. Yes. A lifetime of 5 years it was. Coming to this place called IIT Kanpur I was reborn into a different individual. Possibly because 18 to 24 is the age where teens move into maturity and it is a window from which a helluva wisdom enters as deep as skull. Perspectives are formed, myths are broken and a whole new world egresses before our eyes.

Now the end is near and I am getting hard time winding up with this thesis thing. But as all things in life this will get over too. It is just a matter of time. I only look towards the one month off time I will get to spend at home on the other side of this hard time.

Happy Birthday Rubik's Cube

A cake for a conundrum which caused a revolution. That's what they call it.

Rubik's Cube is celebrating its 30th birthday... (http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/entertainment_and_arts/10158617.stm)

Wish you a long life.

Hiatus

It is longest hiatus I have ever shown on blogger. It is first time in last 4.5 years that more than a month passed without scribbling here. And it was not for no reason. I was way too busy winding up the work for my masters thesis. Most of the work is finished now. Only scripting part is left with it. Secondly I was not feeling very hearty past few weeks. Dont know why it was so. But better to leave out some bad memories.

No its going to be all over. The 5 year plan comes to end. I leave the college and enter into the so called big-bad-world. [edited on May,21] But that's the reality. All of us have to do something for a living. Then why not do something I'm good at for living's sake. But only as long as I like it. No immediate alternate plans right now. Hope I get 'em when needed.

By the way I was learning something new from last 2 weeks. Swimming. I still cant breathe while swimming but getting the hand and leg strokes right. Glad that I've learnt this much before leaving campus. :)

It's going to end very soon. The loving guys here, night fun, gossips and all. You know these things will be etched in fond memories. And in blogs too. Im happy that I've scripted most of the experience on blogger. Feels good to travel down the memory lane sometimes. Whenever I read them I see myself growing up through my own eyes. This blog thing is wonderful! I promise to keep writing as long as I live. and have internet access.

I am pissed off

I dont know why?

Today was a bad day.

That's all!

70+ people died in a massacre! 

I am working.

The hangover is close to over.

Bryan's book is great!

I'll finish it soon.

Sleeping too much.

Bad for health.

Bad for work.

Too hot here!

No option but to endure.

15 June is exit date.

28 June is enter date.

That's all!

Really that was all!

No more!

Only that I don't want.

Oh I wish!

OK. that's enough!

Over and out.

Few days

Possibly it is the first week of the last three (or so) months of my stay in an isolated planet called IIT. It's high time we ponder over what has been done over the last five years here. So I recall this article by Sandeepan Deb and go and read it again. It speaks the veracity of the situation.

Right now I am having a hangover which is usual when I come back from home. It will take a day or two before I settle down into normal daily routine.

Till then very little of work and very little of everything. But I'll try.

We cannot get everything out of life

Other way to say this is in Adam Smith's words "Human wants are unlimited, resources are limited". But this poem below summarizes it best. At times shayaris can look so beautiful!

Kabhi Kisi Ko Muqamal Jahan Nahin Milta
Kahin Zamin To Kahin Aasmaan Nahi Milta

Jise Bhi Dekhiye Vo Apne Aap Mein Gum Hain
Zubah Mili Hain Magar Humzubah Nahin Milta

Kabhi Kisi Ko Muqamal Jahan Nahin Milta
Kahin Zamin To Kahin Aasmaan Nahi Milta

Bujha Saka Hain Bhala Kaun Waqt Ke Shole
Ye Aisi Aag Hain Jisme Dhuan Nahin Milta

Kabhi Kisi Ko Muqamal Jahan Nahin Milta
Kahin Zamin To Kahin Aasmaan Nahi Milta

Tere Zahan Mein Aisa Nahin Ki Pyar Na Ho
Zaha Umeed Ho Iski Wahan Nahin Milta

Kabhi Kisi Ko Muqamal Jahan Nahin Milta
Kahin Zamin To Kahin Aasmaan Nahi Milta

Racquet

In august I bought a squash racquet. In march this year its gone. That bloody frame made of carbon fiber broke down. The worst part is it did not happen while playing. Otherwise it would have been a consolation. Somebody borrowed from me. I lend him. He goes to his room. After minutes he discovers that racket is broken a bit. When I look at it that 'bit' was not really a bit. It was byte. Or may be megabyte if not gigabyte. Carbon fibre is supposed to last life long. That bloody quack who sold me the racquet told me this. My life goes on but its life ends. What am I supposed to do. End my life or somewhat.

Non living objects are to be used and living beings are for loving. So it's not love for racquet .But it carried more significance than just being a racquet. It was birthday gift.

Anyways there more setbacks these days than this. Nothing seems to be working in thesis these days. And I have to anyhow do it well before joining date- 28 june. Right now I have no clue how will I make it. I will make it through though. Because all things must pass! All things must pass away!

Talking sense

Why do people think that they sound more convincing by stretching R's and L's and making faces with the words and jumping around with the words. All they need to do is speak logical and sensible and intelligent things to convince people. Is it really that very difficult to say things sensibly?

When you have to say something say it. Don't over say it. Don't mix the sense of simple things with shitloads else they might get lost in the shitloads and never appear to surface of the matter.

Im staying back

So now it's official that I am staying  back at campus in summers. According to my supervisor I have to stay here at LEAST till mid of June. Good and bad in some sense. Good that I have one month more to enjoy campus life. bad that I wont make it to attend the SPIC MACY fellowship will not come after this year reason being it is offered only to students. A lot has happened. I am working more. At least trying more if not working more.

25 km cycling trip today was nice. Probably it was first time IIT Kanpur has organized such trip. The response was nothing less than humongous. 1100+ participation is something which misrepresents the usual laziness of IITK junta.

Btw I've just uploaded a new set of photos on flickr. All of them before sunset in hall 9. 

Locked up

Enough wastage has been done. To the satisfactory level. Now Im no more wasting away.

The price is I spent a cube crazy week and lost something like 10 second. 50% of the time Im getting below 50 sec. And few 40s also.

Finally to get rid and start working on thesis I had to lock the cube up. I've locked the Rubik's Cube. It will come out only after wasting satisfactorily enough time on thesis.

I will waste myself on

After a sweet break of 5 days at home life is back on same old track.

Loads of cubing. In early 50s. Lots of 40s and few sub 40 sec timings.

I will waste myself on.......

H@H

It's Holi at home guys. With all the usual papad, chips stuff its yet another colourful time of year. We love it when we are happy and we hate it when we are in sad composure. I dont know but it happens with me sometimes. I have mood swings sometimes.

For better this time I am happy and Im loving it. I went shopping with Mom. These days we are inundated with choices in the garments and I am that kind of tasteless fellow that I can't choose among them. It was quite a difficult time.

So friends Happy Holi and enjoy your time. I don't have much to write right now. If you are in :) mood then you are rocking! But if you are in a sad mood then just 'take a sad song and make it better'. Listen to 'Hey Jude' from Beatles.

Weekend out

I had a weekend out of college. went to attend wedding ceremony of a friend's sister. It was at a rather unknown place 3 hrs journey from Delhi. So we (I and a friend) went to Delhi and traveled with 2 others in Delhi by road. I must say it was a rather boring day sitting there idle with no one to talk. We stood like 3 idiots. I started to wonder why we in India make so much pomp and show of marriage. We should rather save some bucks instead. And save a lot of people from getting bored and wasting 1-2 days of their short life. We invite people, bore them, feed them then bid them. Better to KISS. Keep it straight and simple. I would chose otherwise if given an option.

In spite of all this I had very nice time on Sunday. Came back to Delhi in the morning at my brother's house. After that there was a sort of mini-family-gathering. Two of my (cousin) brothers, I and my sister. All 4 of us have spent our childhood together at our old house. We are childhood mates and share close bonds.

By the way I practiced a lot on blindfold solving and got close several times during the return journey. Couldnt make it successful though.

But right now got my first successful blindfold solve!

A * can change your life

A * can change your life. For worse if commuted with a /. This is what ruined my life for over a week. Absolutely simple shit-piece of code was not working. So I thought I was not using the correct equations for computation. I scanned many journals and looked around for alternative methods but with no hope. In the end yesterday was a path breaking day and it just flashed me trace back the values. And the moment was maddening when I found out that I actually mistyped * in place of /. I went berserk screaming like stabbed man in the middle of road.

Good thing is results are absolute match with the reality and Im on to the next step! :)
Sometimes things can be simple shity. Shit happens. At times, shit happens.

Blindfold

I am learning blindfold cubing these days. For the less enlightened ones let me tell you that in blindfold cubing you first take visual of a completely scrambled Rubik's Cube and memorize its configuration without moving it. Next you put on a blindfold on your eyes and in one go you have to solve the cube.

Right now the status is that I can solve only the edges of the cube. Still working on the corners. I have to device mnemonics of my own for each locations and memorize with the help of pictures-story in a journey form.

Since we are going to Delhi this weekend (in all probability, if my mates do not ditch once again) to attend a wedding ceremony. I will have lots of time while traveling in the train. Let's hope I would be able to perform a successful solve after return on Sunday.

The results of an absolutely simple piece of fortran code seem to trouble me since last week. Don't know what went wrong. Have to check it once again. Now I know why mtech thesis is extends beyond May.

Run time starts

Fun time up. Run time starts. Techkriti is over. A lot happened. IORC 2010 was good. This time it was good with decent number of turnout in events other than normal Rubik;s cube speedsolve. 11 people solved 4x4x4 cube (including me at last posittion :| ..) means it's also well known now. Quality of timings was definitely better than last two years. You can have a look at the results on WCA website as soon as they are uploaded in a day or two.

Among other things I lost two of my cubes. 3x3x1 also called Floppy cube which was the cutest of all the cubes I have. :( The second was 4x4x4 cube. It was turning weirdly since I lubed it last. Anyways I was going to get a new 4x4x4.

Yesterday we had a dinner with Mr.John Louis. It was nice time sitting together and sharing time with this wonderful gentleman and his prodigy child.

There was this girl from San Francisco who came to IORC for filming a part of her documentary on Rubik's Cube. He interviewed John, Bernett and me. She was on a fellowship of one year. What a dream fellowship. For one whole year you have to travel all round the world and meet people and see places and shoot movie!

Did a decent job and secured fourth place in gimmick competition to win some bucks. :) And this time, unlike the previous year when I was not able to en-cash the cheque, got the cash immediately.

Now back to square-1. have to meet my supervisor. Before that gota fix a piece of java code. Already I am running behind the target in the master's thesis. Today mamma asked me when I will be getting the degree in the robes. And I just tried to avert the question. Big task ahead. If I have to save my chances of wearing convocation robe then I should better get things running. Run time starts now!

Buzz

So the new Buzz is Buzz from google. I would say it emulates twitter. (Although I never used twitter. I dont have account on twitter.) Twitter is to blogger what T20 cricket is to test cricket. Oh a far fetched imagination. But well quite a comparison. I love blogger as I love test cricket. I can write my life down on twitter. You may have a lot more followers on twitter but whats the point if you are forced to practice frugality in talking. That's not what makes a good conversation. And I can converse to myself at blogger. That's the beauty! More time to reflect. But then 140 chars means more economical in spending words. May be good thing sometimes.

Another buzz on the campus is Techkriti.  Going from 11th to 14th Feb  its a 3 day treat for guys here at IIT Kanpur. 3 and half day to be exact. Only half of first day is counted. For old people like us (yes, 5th year at IIT Kanpur and you feel old-ish type for routine things on campus) a little more than extended weekend. I'm quite involved in coding AI for a game. The idea is to develop AI for a bot which will play on its own in an areana on web against other people's bots. And not to mention I'll be there for IORC for some cubing. Though not speedcubing. I lost speed over last year or so. :)

Im also looking work around with my new cam. Just need to get the entry pass for my camera to things worth clicking. I'm not sure about the effect of laser lights on the camera lenses. How much unhealthy it. I can carry it for many other good things though. Look out fro highlights from my cam soon in this space.

Forgot to mention that I have been pretty consistent with jogging. me and a friend are going jogging in the morning every alternate day from last week. Wont we call it consistent? :P

Padhai

Tell you people something.. I am auditing a course. Although officially all course work of my curriculum is over. I chose to attend a course without crediting it on my gradesheet. And this is mid term exam 1 hr from now.

Ever since I was born exams have been a strong turn-on for me when it comes to writing blogs. And so its customary to write a post now.

If ever somebody plots scatter-graph of my blogger post versus time then there the highest density of posts would be the exam days.

As of exams its fixed. There is going to be a one-day cricket match in Kanpur and this is the last chance of watching a cricket match in Kanpur. But it seems I'll have to miss this too. It falls on 24th Feb. and the same day I have to appear at a presentation as Teaching Assistant. damn it! All my friends are going. And poor me is left with this damn TA thing...

All the gears-stackmats and displays- that we ordered for IORC has arrived with a person named Lee Sonko and this gentleman will be carrying this stuff from USA all the way down to Kanpur for us. This year they are spending lot of money on this Rubik's cube event. And I heard that someone from US is coming to Kanpur to participate in IORC. Probably this the first time we are having a participant in Techkriti coming from outside India.

Our plans of going to Orissa to attend a friend's sister's wedding is in abeyance because of people are backing off and numbers are dwindling fast. Let's see who all are left in the end.

(cant think of a title today)

SO things have been moving fast since I dropped by blogger last time. Got some results in my thesis only to realize that we need to simplify the problem statement right now. :P

This time techkriti, IIT Kanpur ordered 4 sets of stackmat timer and tournament display from Speedstacks for IORC 2010. But it seems participation is not going to be as high. Lot of cubing junta have been diverted to the new WCA competition being held in Mumbai. Seems like we are being hit by the other competition. But then its going to be good because there are more no. of good cubers from campus itself. At least 3 sub-30 sec. solvers and many sub 60. In the meanwhile I realized that I have degenerated and my timing slipped beyond 60 sec. Thats's embarrassing. I'm trying to gain speed on 4x4x4 cube. But not able to squeeze enough time from other engagement.

Also having a mid-sem exam for a course I'm auditing. Also our FEDUCON team geared up and we are working like 2-3 hrs daily on its website. We may soon expect a career counselling website up and running. Hopefully it will be of great help to students of 10th and class 12th in choosing their path when they have time. There are hell lot of career options out there apart from the ususal engineering/medical fever that is apparently infecting every second parent and subsequently every second school-going child. All this on the website soon. Our team working.

New cubes

Finally they reached me. New puzzles. Now I can solve 2x2x2, 3x3x3,4x4x4,5x5x5.

Now Im trying my hand on the other new puzzles - Mastermorphix , 12 sided puzzle, floppy cube and 3x3x4. That's whole lot of exciting pack!

Consumed...

Im kind of consumed these days. Little bit of work at opportunity college. I take two classes at the end of weekdays - Thurs. and Fri. Learning fortran for thesis. Not using my new camera very frequently. But now I have procured the battery charger again.

Its hell lot of foggy here in Kanpur each night. It is effecting badly. Mamma was traveling to delhi and her train is running late by 15 hrs! Feels bad. Wish I could do something. May be I shud have gone with her.

Indian Open Rubik's Cube this year at Techkriti 2010 is closing by. Seems like it is going to be big this time. I was not involved too much in the preparation. But Im happy guys here are doing great. Sure they will make it biggest this time. With cubing fever spreading in India very fast this year is promising.

Daybreak

Sun in the earth, Sunflower.
Bird in the air, rain.
I within I daybreak.

Streets we have never walked on.
Windows we have never opened.
Hands we have never held.
Dreams we shall never see again

Lives we have never lived.
Hopes we have never realized.
Fires we have never lit.
Loves we shall never, never make again.

Bavra mann. dekhne chala ek sapna.

Amazing poetry!

Look back

When Im not writing too much I tend to look back at some of older posts. Its good reminiscence of the past. A bit of brushing your brain what you had been. A picture of how you've been changing all these years. And yes I've been changing. There is this post which amazes me now. Some of the lines written do not make much sense. But at that time it was all naturally flowing thoughts. May be I used to think a lot over then.

May be nowadays I've sort of grown blubber skinned. Most of these days I'm sitting here doing nothing but aging.I need to reflect more. It's time to get to something. Another GRE, history books, philosophy books, blogging. or something. anything.

work

So seems like I have some work at the end of it. And consequently back on blogger. Worked out some equations and finally got something to code in thesis. The CFD work comes in. Deadline is Tuesday noon. amm... seems like a lot of time left. Well can wait for a lil before I get started. :)

Without the camera charger I have managed to take some 200 shots with the once charged Li-ion nikon battery. The charger was left behind at my brother's place in Delhi. Forgot to pack it in hurry. Just waiting for it to be couriered to my place.

Meanwhile am reading some photography tutorials online. Also downloaded few books. Anyone in need of ebook copies can get it from me. (Of course the pirated once). Here is a good website for viewing and uploading photos. I'll be uploading soon. Good to see a lot of Indian presence on NGM website. Seems like lots of good guys in photography are Indian.

And getting back to the Beatles days. Hey Jude, Day tripper, While my guitar,........

And thats me and my tool

And thats me and my tool
Originally uploaded by Saucy007

So after a long time and showing lot of patience finally I bought this one. Nikon D3000. And it's a beauty! There is a helluva difference between DSLRs and point and shoot cameras. it clicks amazing photos. Ultra clarity and sharpness and colour depths.
Saving myself 27k from months I got a new DSLR kit, a carry case and a tripod. That's quite enough to begin with photography.
:D

Winter

Its been a long and lonely winter and it seems I was hibernating. Somehow something kept me away from blogger. Why does it always happen that when something is on my head, exams, lectures, some sort of deadline or something, only then I find ocean of topics to write about.

When I have free time writable things do not come in mind.