First Painting Class

My first painting class. I was asked to come with colours, canvas of 2/3 size, pallate, linseed oil, kerosene oil, turpentine oil,rough cloth painting brushes. In the afternoon, I went mith my sis hunting for the canvas of appropriate size at appropriate price.

Reached the place at 5:30. It was not great time there. But also it was not a wierd time. Auntie who was supposed to teach us was an extremely calm lady.
Will post the painting after first day here later.



And this was the painting which I chose to paint.

Painting Classes!

I have taken a decission to join painting classes and the decission is completely mine. Surprissed!
Everyone was surprissed with my decission, my mom, my sis and even the the arts teacher with whom I met today for learming painting was laughing in surprise. After all a techie learning painting is not something you encounter that easily!

I have been thinking of doing something which I have never done in my life. Something which I have never tasted in my life. Something which I may start from the crap. Something in which Im dummey. Of course there are tons of such things and I want to do many of these. To keep things simple I decided to start with such a thing.

I saw the painting by my sis when sitting in my drawing room and the great idea of me painting such a canvas flashed in my mind. A scenery with signature Saurabh. How is the idea! Brilliant!

I will be going to painting classes from tomorrow. It's two hour class, three days a week. I think learning painting at the cost of 6 hours a week when you have 168 hours to waste per week is not a bad deal. Let's see how is atmosphere there. Meet the people there. Or rather learn to meet people there.

Fears regarding my department

Saurabh Chawdhary
First year undergraduate,
Deaprtment of Mechanical Engineering,
Indian Institute of Technology, Kanpur.

That is my signature in my mails currently. The third line started giving my fears in recent days. Mechanical Engineering Department is also named as Hathoda(Hammer)
in IITK-Lingo. Means involvement of lot of mechanical work! [:(]. Besides when I tried to discuss why there are such miserably less female population in Mechanical Department, some of them gave reasons that because they have to do lot of hard work. And I being a lazy bum. All this gave me a feeling that I might have to struggle in my department in the coming years. Life is not going to be easy. Road ahead is not straight.


write it latter

Blog To Be Made Public: An Important turn in blogging

• This is a big decision I have taken because till now I have not been discussing most of the things mentioned in these pages save the recent few days. It's because I was able to discuss them with some of my friends that I've taken this decission.
  

I've decided to put the address of life@blogs on orkut of my homepage and the link of blog on my homepage. My Diary will also be made public by giving its address somwhere such that only those people who are really into my life can see it. For example, I might put its link in some of the blogs of life@blogs or in comments. This is an important turn for me. As doing this might prevent me from expressing my views about people around me and their characters in an unbiased way. But I will try to do the analysis almost in the same way as I have been doing because you see Im someone not usually being talked in third person. And further using my filteration process will cut down the number of viewers of this blog to almost none. This means it would be same as the present status.
But life@blogs will appear in my profile. I will keep writting in it the stuff Im currently writting. Those stuff being so boring (but more than 100% meaningful and concerned for me) that there will be very few reading even that which further reduces the people reading My Diary.

• Other than this past 2 days have been equally eventless as rest. Im still having problem with my comp. I've created my login on ACM and decided to be in touch with programming, reviving my earilier idea of leaving the interest in programming. Also decided to code the problems there.
  
• Yesterday due to power-cut in the night I had to sleep early; I slept at around 11:30. Today also I have decided to sleep around 2:00 because mom was really very upset when she saw me going to bed at 3:30. I got a good dose of scolds too.:( But Im concerned less about scolds and more about my mom taking more worries due to me. I LOVE U MUMMY.*Sobs. I know how much you are concerned about me but I stupid fellow still do stupid things to further bother you. God, please forbid me from doing such things at any cost. *Sobs. (Im sobbing). Can't write any more. Going............
  

To SJC

In the day I got a call from jatin . He told about the plan of playing football in SJC. went there at 5:30 and played football. Met Gaurav Middha there. He was cold as always. And again saw Amod who was atill trying to prove himself. Some people are such an asshole that I know that you are an asshole but still they try to prove what they are. Just can't bear them up!
When I came back Jatin again called up to invite for dinner at his home the next day.
But the next day was as usual a boring day fom me. when I woke up at8:30 pm after a sleep I realized that I was supposed to be at Jatin's home for the dinner by now! It was good time there.

Meanwhile while chating with Asif yeterday I discovered a new and more "meaningful" meaning of my handle SAUCY. Its SAUrabh Chawdhary lazY. That makes up SAUCY! Yeah! I think I really am SAUCY.

These days Im quite content with my life and whatever Im doing because basically Im doing nothing these days. That are the words of Saucy.

A Sleepy Day

Today I woke up at 12:00. In the noon read few pages of Monk Who Sold His Ferrari. Then slept again from 4:30 to 7:00.
Rest the same at night: sitting on my comp.

Lunch at Mathur's

Todays only major event eas Lunch at Mathur's place. After lunch we played carrom for hours and then football.
While playing carrom I noticed a charecteristic about Verma. He never accepted his fault and always faught like a child over it.
Having some short chat sessions with Anam Athur these days. Now I, and I think she too, fall short of words. We have no topic to talk.
And I had a long chat session with Aman about the girls and the reasons why we are week in that department. We explored many reasons and possibilities but never drew a conclusion. Finally its 4:00 in the morning and he had to leave but the never ending discussion had not ended. You can find the chat sessions here latter.
Here is another post from psy community:

Posted by Anam Athur

Three Days Passed Lazily

I passed the last three days lazily just sitting in front of my dabba. No outting, just rubbing my bum at home. Im still having the same problem with my dabba: It gets restarted by itself. But now its happening in XP as well as win98! Damn it! Inspite of properly installing XP and win98 the problem persists. God knows what happened to my comp. If this will continue then I will start believing in ghosts!
On Mathur's recommendation I've started trying to reading "The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari" .
Today I was surprissed when Mannu, Mathur and Jatin turrned up at my home.
Muther invited me and some other friends for lunch tomorrow. He called me at 12 of 12:30. So I must sleep a little early so that I can get up around 11'o clock.

Struggling with my dabba and to get net access!

I was at home on the evening of 10th. Scince then Im struggling with my comp. and net access. I connected to net few days with my mama's relience cell. But it was absofuckinglutely slow to work on! After then dabba is also misbehaving.
In the past 10 days, I've been going out, meeting friends and wasting my time on dabba.
Finally I called shiv and got win98 OS installed on my comp. and right now its in working condition. Lets hope that it stays like this.
I went to Mathur's place more often. It was great time talking to him. It seems like he had learnt a lot from life in the past one year. And I can surely say he didn't had great time in his college. I wish we were together.I had lot to talk with him but not getting time.
But the good thing is that he had learned from life which is far more worth than having a great time.

Ishan's comp. got infected

In the chat with ishan on 4th. I came to know that his comp is infected. I can't imagine him without his comp.

Yeterday I told him about my plans of bringing the lecture series on algorithms at MIT for him. I knew he will be damn happy to get this. I wanted to give this as a surprise to him. But there was dvd writing problem so I asked him if he had the dvd drive and told my plans. Here is the chat session

Anam Athar

Yesterday was a marked day. I think Im slowly overcoming my 1st blog. I have built up some confidence regarding talking to people. I had seen the profile and written something about this girl from pakistan, ****.
I was thinking over the matter again and again. I found this girl very intresting. It appeared that she thinks the way I think- some rubish and some good, some religious and some passions, something abstract and something real.......
She too have problems making friends. She called herself an introvert. Im not sure whether I too am an introvert but she gave me that adjective.
Here is my first one to her and the further replies:
********
Then we logged on to msn and had long chat. ***.
This line shows that she is very similar attitude as mine:

[00:36]: i am observant and i take people's opinion to heart very easily

just remember to believe in yourself okkk
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This is the thing I must look to actually do. These might prove golden words for me. May be this is going to work for me. Or may be her being my friend is going to work for me!
Now today we I asked her if I bored her yeterday with my chat she said: No brother you didn't..

Today also we had a chat.

Narcissism! The word Shook me!

Huh..
I mentioned the word narcissism in my last post. The word really shook me up when I got to know the meaning. I searched almosr every article which tells the meaning of that word and the characteristics of narcissistic personality disorder. Somebody used that term for me. Chatted with my sis over phone nearly 15 min. discussing the traits of narcissism. She told that it is a kind of schizofrenia! ****! Am I schezofrenic! am I ab! It characterises excessive self love. Thats the main point. It may be physical- means very much concerned about oneselfs material gains and comforts, or non-physical- means considering oneself as a very important person and stuff like that. Am I this!

If someone wants to know who he is, then is he narcissistic?
If someone wants to know why he is on earth, then is he narcissistic?
If someone wants to know about himself then is he narcissistic?
If someone wants to know what people think of him, then is he narcissistic?

Huh. I don't know what that guy had seen in my profile that he called me narcissistic but it had shaken me.
The thing is eating me up.

DS Exam

aDS Exam tomorrow so I must study the graphs today. I was not serious past some days. Only movies and movies. I saw 3 movie, Back to the future 1,2,3 in continuation. Ultimate work of Steven Spielberg.

Posted by J K
lots to know abt him.......cool guy.....decent....

Claims insecurity & lack of confidence. Liar! you are truely in love with your self , narsisistic personality
Posted by VIVEK

Link on Narcissism

My daily routine

My daily routine for the past few days had been the same.

• Get up at 12:00
• Take bath,get ready, and take lunch (if possible and if I have collected enough courage to go 2 floors down and take in the shit in our hostel mess) and the ge to CC at 2:00
• Sitting like a geek there for about 3-4 hrs.
• Get up and go out with freinds to have some snaks from shopC or hall-4 canteen, or have juice near hall-3 gate.
• Back to CC again for 1-2 hours sitting again.
• Out to take dinner at about 8:00.
• Again in CC till 1:00 am or 2:00
  
• In our hall-2 at after having some snaks in hall-4 canteen
• then gossiping or movie till 4 or 5
• Get up at 12:00 and a new day to waste...