Way

Whatever was swaying is on way now. I'm not on sway. That too fast I believe.

This is the last post of this year. With me finding a way for myself I close the 2008 chapter of my life and my diary called Saucy Unplugged. Let's hope for some more new one ways and the wisdom to chose one right way whenever it is a sway.

Sway

I don't know what others would have done if in my shoes. Im really confused though and not quite convinced of what Im doing. May be there is bit of impulsive action which is driving me but its not only impulsive action. There is more of it. I don't no what. just before the moment Im undecided and when the moment comes it takes me through.
All I know is that I am not wrong in doing it that way or rather the way things are doing. It's right as long as policies are right and I'm not here to hurt anyone. Its just that I don't know which way to sway! Till I know which way to sway, lets keep doing things which do not appear 'wrong'. Although the terms right and wrong are relative terms and change in circumstances they can be taken in their usual sense.
At the same time lets refrain from changes that are irreversible. Sure things cannot be undone on time scale but there are things which have binding outcomes and (related) actons and there are things which don't. Sort of cause-effect relation.

New Dell

"From now onwards I will be owning this laptop."
--Saucy, February 10, 2007.

This was when I first had my laptop. http://saucy-unplugged.blogspot.com/2007/02/dell-inspiron-6400.html

Round and about, with and and without laptop I had been since then (gave that to my sister). But now is new stylish spring green dell inspiron 1525 n series. Mine is here. But as the first love is the best love, my first dell was the best laptop.
This is the first day of blogging from new laptop and brings back memories of the same when same happened to fall on me for the first time (Feb 10, 2007).

Flying back into archives I got some more memories of the lad I used to be nearly 2 years back. Here is a poem I posted:


She's been down and out,
she's been wrote about,
she's been talked about,
constantly.
She's been up and down,
she's been pushed around,
but they held her down,
NYC.
She has no regrets,
she accepts the past,
all these things they helped
to make she.
She's been lost and found,
and she's still around,
there's a reason for
everything.

You know I've been holdin on.
Try to make me weak,
but I still stay strong.
Put my life all up in these songs,
just so you can feel me,
so you can get the real me.

So take me as I am,
or have nothing at all,
just take me as I am,
or have nothing at all.

Now she's older now,
yes, she's wiser now
can't disguise her now,
she don't need
no one tellin her
what to do and say,
no one tellin her
who to be.
She's on solid ground,
she's been lost and found,
now she answers to
G-O-D,
and she's confident
this is not the end.
Ask me how I know,
cause she is me.

You know I've been holdin on.
Try to make me weak,
but I still stay strong.
Put my life all up in these songs,
just so you can feel me,
so you can get the real me.

So take me as I am,
or have nothing at all,
just take me as I am,
or have nothing at all.

So it's all or nothing at all,
all or nothing at all,
don't you know I can only be me,
I can only be me, yeah,
I can only be me.
So it's all or nothing at all,
all or nothing at all,
don't you know I can only be me,
I can only be me, yeah,
this is me.

This is me,
this is me,
this is me,
this is me,
this is me,
no one else, no,
you can't take that from me, oh.

So take me as I am,
or have nothing at all,
just take me as I am,
or have nothing at all.

Written by Mary J. Blige

Lazying

Im in one of my most lethargic modes of existence. 10 days since Im home enjoying doing nothing. Got stuck after Alexander the great - chapter 5 of History of Europe. It's almost over with this period. 27th is the registration date. It was my last winter vacation at home btw. Watching cricket matches on TV was delightful. India beating England and SA beating Aussies! That was great!

What quite makes my laziness lethal this time was inability to practice it fully. Everything I do bears high friction coefficient owing to this inability which in turn strengthens itself. Sort of deadlock!

Many a time why are we not able to speak our hearts? Why are we forced by ourselves to unnecessarily draw the covers when we know they are transparent? From whom may we hide it when everybody is aware of the truth? Its just that we are not willing to accept the facts as the appear. By concealing it we are fooling ourselves into unreal world. Isn't it logically fallible!

Many times we have heard about expression of thought. The power of expression of thought. The power that you can control your expression of thought is more important than the power of expression of thought we are proud of. If we were not able to control it then what wonders it might have brought to us. Just imagine that everybody around you knows what you think just like they hear what you say.
The fact that the feeling and the expression of the feeling can be varied saves the world for us. Sp it did saved for me.

Change

Metamorphosis should be the word because this change is occurring over a period of time and since it is distributed over a time span its intensity is diluted. Nevertheless the change it is.

I am not the usual shy looking simple guy who I used to be. I have come a long way about initiating conversation, convincing people; quite confidently many times.

The change has saw me solving rubik's cube in a minute. The change has saw me involved in sports other than cubing. Squash, badminton, cricket (in earlier days) basketball (sometimes).

Beliefs have changed. Principles have changed a bit too. I have caught myself doing things I thought I will (or can) never do. And all this for good, positively.

"People, relationships and then you with your 'self' ". Yeah! All of 'em changing. Me to myself, people to me and me to people and their relationships are changing. Not a phase shift though but again a change diluted over time; still noticeable.

Waist size is also changing; on farther side! [:P]

Naukri

Its season for employment, though not the best this year, people here are getting jobs. 8/11 pf my friends appearing for placements have been placed. So coming days are those of treat party and celebration of last few months of life we will live together for the last time in our lives. No one knows what is in the next chapter but this chapter of life has been kindest.

All of them finished

All of the exams finished. It looks like India is under continuous attack of some misguided people who are brainwashed to believe that they are fighting for there freedom. As I write this post I hear to CNN-IBN live reposting about Mumbai under attack. Terrorists in the hotel.


Anyways, with this semester gone its 3 more to go. This is the closing chapter of the seventh semester. This one gone really fast and different one. This has been most studious semester. I had issued library books as many as in total of all six semesters. In spite of this I watched maximum number of movies, we played LAN games during the semester, played squash. And much more to the fullest.
Next sem plan is to learn swimming apart from all this.

Exams

With exams going around its a good time to study. But apart from it this we have been gaming on LAN as well as Badminton as well as Zataka as well as HeliAttack3. A game filled end sem is the achievement of this semester exam.
Besides all this fun I still hope the performance index this semester to be >8.5/10! So right is the thing that - people who feel good about them produce good results.

Now time to get back to study for tomorrow's exam.....

Our first and last love is.. self-love

Rightly said. But isn't that narcissistic?

Wake up call!

Now is one of the many wake up calls attended before the end-sem rings for me (to see how many search wake up call on this blog). But te fact of being so many doesn't tarnishes the honor of wake up calls. Its 11 days for end sems now. And its now-or-never type situation to get what was set in the beginning of the semester.
It has been a while since I seriously attended to studies. It all started after I returned from home on Wednesday of last week. Since then Wednesday came again and it added no academic value.

For whatever reasons I was out, I am out of it and right on track.

What's it?

Superman has it, batman has it, spider-man has it, he-man has it, even Shaktiman has it but I don't.
Clark Kent is Superman, Bruce Wayne is Batman, Peter Parker is Spiderman, Prince Adam is Heman, even Gangadhar is Shaktiman but who am I?
It's missing.

Sometimes it's better to keep it simple

This post comes in 4 parts. First one is the title and three others follow.

Living and non-living. Whats the foremost difference between them? It is FEELINGS. At times they can be so complex. I assure you it will happen to you and you will never know where it came from and why it was! It will just be as it will be as a fact. Like an elephant vanishing in the air in front of your eyes; you can only acknowledge it and wonder at it, you can neither explain it nor you are responsible for it.

I meet some people who hold my hand & they decide to walk with me. These people & their stay in my life I cannot foresee. Life for me is living in the present, cherishing what I receive ‘now’ from people & things. Let us let things shape up themselves.

From years blogger had been a good listener to me and so it remains. It listens to my most honest confessions beyond doubts. And all the while it is the feeling of soliloquy that I enjoy. I miss those days when I used to blog and read some good ones from fellow bloggers most of whom seem missing. (Shreya still writes amazing poetry; Lesia aunty seems to appear yearly; Ishan never woke up after a good wake up call; for some blog-has-been-removed) This is the only way out so here comes the punch line: Speak out, say loud and be heard; say it to blogger.

There is an additional fifth one which ought to be numbered 3.5 .

Somebody somewhere said 'Do not fight the war you do not intend to win'. But he forgot to contemplate are there are winners/losers even if there was no war? Take your guess.

When it pains to smile

Im in those rarest state when it pains to smile. Got my first injury (a minor one) in squash. The lips were smashed by raket into bigger lips. half part of the lips are protruding out. It may keep me from playing squash next one day.

Gift

Never before had I felt humiliated for a gift.
Few weeks ago I bought myself squash kit and playing little regularly. Though that doesn't implies playing good. May be this is not I'm fit for with the kind of limbs I'm gifted with. Wrist joint is paining. It's difficult to make good grip of the racquet.

Its birthday again!

Lots of wishes for free. More wishes than last time. My friend list is increasing. I'm growing up. Going out and making more friends this year.

Traveling home for 3 days was not very much fun. It was raining heavily when we somehow managed to reach Kanpur Junction at 1 am. Waiting for the train, standing and sleeping together. Then finally caught a train and reached home 5:30. Three fests together at home - 15th Aug, Rakhi and the birthday. aah! nice time really! But I had to finish an assignment that was to be submitted on18th in the 9 am class. This is the irony of the story. Solving assignments at home on your 22nd birthday! Got on a train at 8:30 with my parents and sis who were going to Delhi. It was exactly 00:00 when train was at Kanpur station. I wished my sis while we moved into 18th Aug., her birthday; and celebrated with ice-cream. I gifted her my laptop. To say it is not good to present used gifts. But do you know what it takes to part with personal things like laptops? Anyways I will try a few days without having a Personal computer of my own. If it helps for better acads. Just in case it does.

Coming back to the campus it was not much different. Slept for 1 whole day and plan to sleep more. And labs this semester really suck! My interest is pathetic when it comes to making lab reports. Just getting through it.

Coming back

Yesterday I was just reminded by a friend that I haven't posted since long time. And rightly this my only second post after coming back to Campus.
So. I came to my second home on 25th July and felt the feel of 4th year. Not final year though (Im in five year program). Third year has been tiring and academically backward. But after the intern experience Im loving IITK like anything. It's best place to live man. The hassle of corporate life is much different from the paradise of college life. I'm sure we all miss it after we leave behind. For the first time I'm happy that I have one extra year for IIT life.

The intern experience was a learning one. Went out, met people, loved them, met bosses, worked from them, hunting for rented house, freaking out for dinners, being hated for being bachelors,.... the list goes on. And there are lot of new things which showed hard realities of life. All that helped in better appreciation of Darwin's theory. Struggle for existence and survival of the fittest. That is popularly quoted in Hindi as aate daal ka bhav. Though all the while it was exciting as well. Sort of adventure. At the same time I was counting down days for the return ticket to home. But you know what; when you long for something more than you should then life teaches you a lesson itself. Remember Wordsworth's The Prelude. When the final day arrived the icing on the cake was we missed the train!

The last day turned out to be adventurous. Then moving in and around railway station. Plans and replans came one after another. But using Internet at the station I finally ended up in booking a flight in the night which drops me at Delhi on the same day just before 12. Thanks to Ankit whose had credit card at disposal. Once bitten twice shy. Time I wanted to be safe so I reached Hyderabad airport 5 hours before the flight. Then boarding on my first passenger plane it was difficult to stay awake after the tiresome day. I was weird out physically but not mentally. My good old friend Rubik's cube (4x4x4 cube) was with me. I used it to stay awake. Then I met this air hostess who had two marked attributes. First, she had one of the cutest smiles and the second- she had seen 4x4x4 cube! People in India hardly know about 3x3x3 rubik's cube and this girl knew about the 4x4x4 one. A rare piece! At last cubing fever is cathing up in India too. As I accomplished the solve she accomplished the smile. :)

And even as all this happen the Sun and the Earth and the Moon went on rotating and as a result the days passed on and once again I find myself scribbling on blogger at 2 a.m.

One Liners

1.Some of them are really that provoking, save it for a relaxed afternoon.

2.Two wrongs don't make a right, but three rights make a left.

3.Do you have trouble making up your mind? Well, yes or no?

4.Before borrowing money from a friend, decide which you need more(friendship or money)

5.Death is hereditary.

6.An expert is someone who takes a subject you understand and makes it sound confusing.

7.Many things can be preserved in alcohol. Dignity is not one of them.

8.When you're right, no one remembers. When you're wrong, no one forgets.

9.Cheer up, the worst is yet to come.

10.Always remember that you are absolutely unique. Just like everyone else.

11.Experience is what a comb gives you after you lose your hair.

12.Well done is better than well said.

13.Everyone makes mistakes. The trick is to make them when nobody is looking.

14.They say hard work never hurts anybody, but why take the chance.

15.I like work. It fascinates me. I can sit and look at it for hours.

16.Where there's a will, there are five hundred relatives.

17.I have a drinking problem - I can't afford it.

18.Good girls go to heaven. Bad girls go anywhere!

19.Love thy neighbour, but be sure her husband is away.

20.Drink 'til she's cute, but stop before the wedding.

21.I almost had a psychic girlfriend but she left me before we met.

22.When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.

23.Ambition is a poor excuse for not having enough sense to be lazy.

24.If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something.

25.Many people quit looking for work when they find a job.

26.I couldn't repair your brakes, so I made your horn louder.

27.Join the Army, meet interesting people, kill them.

28.For Sale: Parachute. Only used once, never opened, small stain.

29.Skill is successfully walking a tightrope over Niagara Falls.

30.Intelligence is not trying.

Time of your life

Time 6:04 PM. Saturday 7/12/2008
Place: lab 2 block C IPDO,Dr.Reddy's Lab. Outskirts of Hyderabad, AP, India.
Current Mood: Hasty
Now Playing: Sajda (Lata & Jagjeet)

Was this anyone (including me) thought about me 1 year back. So we see how unpredictable our life is.

With no one around and still connected to the world via web. Got news from New York (Shanu), Paris(Aditya), Belgium (AmitC), IITK (Shadab), Patna (Krishnam), Gandhinagar (Vinay). Internet is amazing discovery. You can keep in touch with your loved once at every instant.

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

I'm here

This post is just to declare that I've still not mutated into non-blogging species.

Recovering…

Written: 02 July, 2008

With 1 day medicine, I'm recovering. Temperature is normal and no headaches and stomachaches. Now 16 days to go here. All left for the final presentation on 18^th this month and then we leave on 19^th morning.

Falling ill

Written: 01 July, 2008.

Falling ill at home is so different from falling ill outside home. I understood this on Sunday and the following days. Got a fever on Saturday late night which was preceded by digestive system disorder. Probably it was a coffee attack. I was under coffee addiction from 2 weeks or more. The outcome was a manifestation of 4-5 coffee per day.

Whatever the reason was I lay in my bed at 3 a.m. in fever. Infected with harmonically varying fever, headache and weakness all of Sunday. Missed office on Monday.

At home when you are ill you are surrounded by mother and siblings for anything you need. Thousands of healthy diet stuffs ready for you.

Testing MS Word Blog

Title: Hallucination is reality

Written: July 25, '08

Steve Jobs is inspiring. "You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever."

But how do I know what to trust?

"Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking."

This is my first experience of blogging offline since I'm deprived of internet connection.

I'm really puzzled over what my love is? L

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Hallucination is a reality but I don't see it anymore. Though everyone keeps saying this every time but hallucination is not a reality at all. But if you keep saying this to yourself like this 1000 times you might get into believing that hallucination is really a reality. K

We don't need no education, we don't need no thought control.

Hey teachers. Leave those kids alone.

All in all we're just another brick in the wall.

Life is an Affair

Life is an affair. You need to do justice with it. You can't just walk away cheating with this affair with your hands still clean. You ought to make it a successful affair as you would wish for your love affair.

When you are young opportunities are endless. Capabilities are infinite. It's only a matter of choice. Choose one and go for it. Only one thing that you like can make a successful affair.

 

Love it! Live it!

    

I am alive!

Isn't that a thing to apppriciate! I'm still alive in Hyderabad and not getting time to blog....
23 days left here...
Trying to wind up the the no-work work. [:)]

The Moment It Clicks

"What you see on these pages is not about a particular place, people, time or cause. It’s not about one type of picture or another. It’s not about sportsmen or fashion models or war or politics or the news of the day.It’s about being a photographer."

--Joe McNally

Travelling 26 hrs from Delhi to Hyderabad now I arrived here. Right now in the IDPO (R&D section) of Dr.Reddy's Lab. Its doesn't seem to fit in my profile. I doubt I would have been better working in an auto industry or any damn foreign university.
But let's be optimistic. Leaving it as for now will not be a good choice. Now Im sitting idle on a bloddy Win2000 PC where orkut/gmail and even IITK webmail is blocked! God why will anyone block webmail. The guide assigned to me

Time and Space

What would happen if time and space would be exchanged! This can be a concept of next Spielberg blockbuster.
It would be no big deal traveling time. We can easily travel back to our childhood. But then space would be unidirectional. We cannot experience the the same place as before. We can only go forward and forward. No looking back.
And then wise men would say. "Space is money".
Much more interesting can be added to this topic but only when i have space.err.. time.

!!

Exam 2mrw + on 17th !! Tkcr.
I wonder what does only this means.

Matlab poject: Done!
Abaqus Project: Done!
Exam Preparations: None!
Going Home tomorrow?: Done!

As exams are nearing, canteen bill mounting up. Spending about Rs.50 daily.

All day doing the project. This time I may experience whats it give endsem without preparation.

Might go home on Friday.

Exams up! Me down

Finally committed to Computational Heat Transfer for the thesis with our own PSG sir! So 5th year may be kinda cool with all the coding from the comforts of hostel room.

Besides this semester really gonna hit hard on me. With close to failing in 1 of the courses. (I still much chance of passing). OK. now no more of this stuff. Exams come and go. Life keeps on going.

Planning for a break in summers. With the internship already fixed in Reddy's lab, HYD, Im looking forward towards it as a learning experience. With the working environment of industry it will surely be a exciting. Besides I plan to read up some of the history and geography, at least the Indian portion of both of them.

Search for Thesis

On 2nd April I got a mail from department that you have to select thesis guide and topic for you for the M.Tech. by 6th April!!!!!
Good. I have to decide thesis guide. On such a short notice! People take years to know what they like and I ve been given 4 days!
Bewildered by this, I tried getting Computational Heat transfer, the only thing that was uninteresting to me in Mechanical Department. Huh! Kudos to me. I was rejected by the professor since he had already taken a student and the golden rule in this dept. says 1 prof can take 1 student!

I believe I can see the future
Cause I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
Then again
That might have been a dream

I think I used to have a voice
Now I never make a sound
And I just do what i've been told
I really don't want
Them to come around

Home calling

It's 11:30 now. I've to attend a lecture 2-3 and then leave for home!
2-1/2 hours left. I've to take brush, bath, shave and make my bag ready for 1 week visit to home. Also to carry all the cubing gears.
It's good time ahead.

Exam plethora

Close to getting my first 'F' in college. It's 15 min before I gave exam. I can't speak now. I can't think. I am choked. It feels suffocating. Somebody give me respiration.
I'm still. I can't move. Feeling dizzy.
Now no expectations upheld. I'm ready to take in anything. And back to business! Get back to study. plethora

Unable to concentrate

With mid sems at the doorsteps I am not able to concentrate on studies. Partial reason is that I have not studied well this semester. Results are going to be unforeseen. But then how far is it going to effect my life. I don't wish for a 15 lpa placement from the campus. Neither do I aspire to sit in AC rooms and instruct people/machines for 15 hrs a day. So these things matter less for me.
Or they may?
I'm not sure.
But at last I am not able to concentrate.
Longing for the much awaited MID-SEM BREAK. One week at home. Nothing to haunt. It will all be fine. I'll be back to my good old form after that.
Task at hand is to bear the exams without much of damage.
Hope it's done!
Good night!

With dreams....
--Saucy

Poems

I came across this girl's blog randomly moths before. She writes amazing poetry. Read the following two which I found touching:

Just Because
Just because no one has been
fortunate Enough to realize what a gold mine you are,

Doesn't mean you shine any less.

Just because no one has been smart enough To figure out that you can't be topped,

Doesn't Stop you from being THE BEST.

Just because no one has come along to share Your life,

Doesn't mean that day isn't coming.

Just because no one has made this race Worth while,

doesn't give you permission To stop running.

Just because no one has realized how much Of a woman you are,

Doesn't mean they can Affect your femininity.

Just because no one has come to take the Loneliness away,

Doesn't mean you have to Settle for a lower quality.

Just because no one has shown up who Can love you on your level,

Doesn't meanYou have to sink to theirs.

Just because you deserve the very best There is,

doesn't mean that life is always fair.

Just because God is still preparing your King,

doesn't mean that you're not already A QUEEN.

Just because your situation doesn't seem To be progressing right now,

doesn't mean You need to change a thing.

Keep shining,

Keep running,

Keep hoping,

Keep praying,

Keep being exactly what you are already -




You Don't care but I'm here for you

You don't care,

but I am here……… for you

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears.

But I can listen to you,

and together we will search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,

nor the future with its untold stories.

But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.

I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;

Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;

I can only support you, encourage you, and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,

from your values, from me.

I can only pray for you,

talk to you and

wait for you.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,

But I can cry with you

and help you pick up the pieces

and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.

I can only love you and

be your friend.

Exams haunting

Ever since 2nd sem my performance has been down the slope seems this will be 1 more semester like previous ones. Exams from Monday. Hope to see Dr. Mahendu before exams

Today's Count

Today I slept for 10+1.5 = 11.5 hours.
Man! this is serious. I'm sick. I'm looking for the psychiatrist visit. I definitely need to consult. I need treatment. Its getting worse. I will screw this semester badly.
I also discovered that the throat infection problem which I am facing since 3rd semester hits hard only when exams close in. May be that's related to anxiety. My sister says that I have a high anxiety level.

Your choices are half your chances!

Choose carefully Choose confidently.

Sleepiness...

I feel like I am sick these days. Sick with what? Oh I'm sick of my sleeping habits. I'm sleeping like anything. Sleeping like 10-14 hours! Is there something called sleeping sickness?
I feel sleepy all the time and anywhere. In the lectures, at room. And once I felt sleepy in the toilets! Oh God! there is something serious about it. May be I am really sick. But what wight be the treatment for it. There are sleeping pills for those who have problems with sleeping. But where do they get these waking pills. [:D] I've tried coffee, biscuits (I don't drink tea). Once in a wile I was joking with my roomie that they say in Hindi movies that pyar me need ud jati hai. I wonder how. And I seriously need it. Coz I've skipped double the no. of lectures that I skipped in all previous 5 semester totaled.

Sometimes deception may be deceiving!

Sometimes even deception may be deceiving. You may be knowing the truth without even knowing that you are knowing it! But does that means that it is truth? Because truth is justified true belief and it satisfies all 3 condition. But the flaw is the justification is not that which corresponds to the belief.

Anyways I'm not in a mood to discuss epistemology(although I loved to read it when I read). The big show is over and now all set for the second challenges. At the beginning of the semester I accepted some challenges. I've successfully conducted Indian Open '08. I also finished near 60 (though not under 60sec). I got an internship in Dr.Reddy's Lab, Hyderabad; this actually happened 4 days before. The next thing up is academics in this semester. Im lying on the edge of 8.0 CPI. To keep above 8 B.Tech. graduating CPI I will need to work very hard and actually devote much time. Given enough attention this can be done in spite of the damage done in 1st mid sem exams.

But then at other times I think do I actually need to worry about CPI for the goal I have in my mind? If I screw my 2 semesters as bad as 7 I will still not go far below 8 which is not very much different from 8 . But the look of number EIGHT 8 might be of use.

Deception

Kai baar jo dikhta hai vo hota nahi aur jo hota hai vo dikhta nahi. Sometimes you try to judge people with what you see and hold them in high regards. But however convincing it may appear there is equal chance that its all DECEPTION. Equally true is the converse(not inverse) of the statement. You think that you have conducted yourself well but you might be very well misjudged by people. Deception is inherent in our life.
Existence of it (at least apparently) defies logic and rationality.

I'm dying to write about IORC experience

I'm dying to write about IORC experience but Monday is havoc day for our batch of Mech Engineers. Hard time preparing for two labs on Tuesday. It's painful to wait 1-2 days more.

Techkriti '08

Techkriti ''08 seems promising. With 39 sponsors for the festival as compared to last years 15 seems a big difference. Prizes over 10lac to be won!

But the little Saucy is too busy with it. Im not sure I'll be able to witness many great things this time. With the professors making it hard time with their assignments and lab reports and organizing IORC fort the first time little time is spare. I feel sorry to have not written so long. Very few posts over last few months. Even today I was half mind to write since I have to wake up after 5.5 hours for a lecture and then do 1 assignment, 2 lab reports and 4 lectures in the coming day. And the follwing day I am supposed to attend 2 lectures and 2 Labs till 5 p.m. And amidst all these I have to make sure that IORC is conducted smoothly, confirm participants for accommodation, buy some gadgets from city and ShopC, make calls to pidilite Mumbai office and arrange for silicon spray from Delhi, innovate ideas for publicity. Save me.

Mid sems

I will not say I am having worst mid sems but exams were disasterous. It seems I was not able to work upto level. Sttill 2 of them remain tomorrow. Hoping to do well in that. Good Luck for me!!

I'll be busier after the exam than before exams. I need to do lots of stuffs piled up. Using google notebook in Mozilla addon is really good. Its workig cool for me!

Newe best score 49s!

Exam time nears. With the least of preparation lets hope to make best out of the rest! five exams to prepare for.

Awaited at my room no 367 are three posts
1) a parcel containing stackmats and other things from London
2) cubes from Shanghai
3) eyemasks from Maharastra

First one expected to arrive on 30th Jan and no idea about the others. Hope that it reaches before the big day - the day of IORC.

With the decreasing temperature of Kanpur my best score keeps on lowering. From earlier best of 59 to 57 to 53 to 51 and now 49 today!!! I wish we experience sub-zero temperature in Kanpur on the competition day!

Get busy living

The cubing business and studies, first one being prominent contributor, are keeping me busy these days. I am sorry for not being able to write a full post since long time. I hope my time spares me to report all the worth-remembering stuffs here.

New chalenges

This semester sees challenges one after the other for this Saucy little creature who is called me(I dont need to introduce myself). I have never been into those things stamped as extra-curricular- activities. In fact I don't like involving myself in activities just for the sake of resume building. I was strayed in first year and been exploited for Dramatics Cell, Antaragni '05. That was the first semester. That was the time when I was left open so many unprecedented things and I tried maximum of them.

But that was only for first semester, or rather first year. After that I did everything to my liking, anything that makes happy. And following that course I am in sixth semester with bigger challenges than the first semester.

Techkriti '08 invites me to devote my time. I didn't go for doing-'anything'-in-Techkriti but still I was there. I am coordinating the Indian Open Rubik's Cube 2008 that falls next month. Honestly speaking I was not wiling to do this initially. I would have prefered somebody organizing the event and me taking part with all entusiasm. But I friends made me realized that it was only me who was appropriate for the job