Day with Mom and dad

In the evening, shaved my 20 day beared and went to recive mom and dad at VH.
Had dinner in the VH mess. Aah! As good as angel compared to our hostel mess food-- daemon. Chatting with mom till 10:30. Then they were to sleep when I left with the woolen cloths bag.
Next day they came at nine when I was sleeping. After they left, I had a long chat on Ymsngr with - the girl who met on orkut. She is much like me, complicates thing and "a gr8 thinker". here is the chat session:

[21:32] myname178: hi
[21:32] pushpa_mim: hi!
[21:32] myname178: r u there??
[21:33] pushpa_mim: how are yu??
[21:33] myname178: why r u apearing offline
[21:33] pushpa_mim: yes!
[21:33] psp: just like that..
[21:33] myname178: ok
[21:33] psp: tell me howz life in kanpur
[21:33] myname178: Life here
[21:33] myname178: 1st
[21:34] myname178: mostly confined in the campus
[21:34] psp: okay
[21:34] myname178: U C Kanpur is nt a gr8 place fr outting
[21:34] psp: yeah! I know..
[21:34] myname178: have u been here?
[21:34] psp: though I never have been there.
[21:34] myname178: k
[21:35] psp: why??myname178
[21:35] myname178: wre hav u completed ur graduation
[21:35] myname178: hey
[21:35] myname178: its the ID I crated long ago
[21:35] psp: ok
[21:35] myname178: i think in 9th class
[21:35] psp: I did my graduation from Azamgarh only.
[21:35] myname178: wen I used to chat in chat rooms
[21:35] psp: ok
[21:35] psp: ohhhhhhhhh!
[21:36] myname178: and now?
[21:36] psp: Now I completed my MBA from NOIDa
[21:36] psp: n working...
[21:36] myname178: so u in ur office?
[21:37] psp: no ..today is sundaay
[21:37] myname178: wrking as??
[21:37] psp: Consultant
[21:38] myname178: ok
[21:38] myname178: good
[21:38] psp: you must haVE Heard HR
[21:38] myname178: ya
[21:38] myname178: much
[21:38] psp: so your family is there in Allhabad
[21:38] myname178: ya
[21:39] myname178: family staying in alld..
[21:39] myname178: tell me ur brief journey till date
[21:39] psp: ok
[21:39] psp: it has been bad
[21:39] myname178: why bad
[21:39] psp: nothing good is there..
[21:40] psp: once I had dreamt of getin in IIT
[21:40] myname178: ohh!
[21:40] psp: that couldnt turn up due topersonal reasons
[21:40] psp: though I was good in studies..
[21:41] myname178: what does that word exactly mean?
[21:41] myname178: topersonal ??
[21:42] psp: due to some personal reasons
[21:42] myname178: then wat
[21:43] psp: then..I got admission in DAVPG Azamgarh which I never dreamt
[21:43] myname178: okey
[21:43] psp: so compltd my B.Sc.
[21:43] myname178: sometimes life is like that
[21:43] psp: anyhow like a B.A.
[21:43] psp: then I came delhi...Bt it was too late
[21:44] psp: I realised I stand nowhr
[21:44] psp: then again I wasted a year again
[21:45] myname178: wasted means?
[21:45] psp: barbadd kiya
[21:45] psp: then finally got admitted in Maharishi MBA programme
[21:45] psp: that too was a wastage of 2 years
[21:46] psp: so now finally working..
[21:46] psp: this is the whole journey
[21:46] myname178: and how r u feeling now
[21:46] psp: COOL MAN!!
[21:46] myname178: nice
[21:46] myname178: !
[21:47] psp: still discovering
[21:47] psp: what about you??
[21:47] myname178: me...
[21:47] psp: Life seems quite smooth for you..
[21:47] psp: is nt it??
[21:47] myname178: Smooth??
[21:47] myname178: thats a qualitative word
[21:48] psp: ya! simple
[21:48] psp: wow
[21:48] myname178: it must have smooth
[21:48] myname178: if I ha been it so
[21:48] psp: i didnt get you
[21:48] myname178: I hav a habbit of complicating thngs in ma head
[21:48] psp: Hey! Same here
[21:49] psp: that's what the problem is??
[21:49] : Buzz!!
[21:49] myname178: ya
[21:50] myname178: room pe jhaadu maarne aaya tha sweeper
[21:50] psp: ok
[21:51] myname178: Studied till 4th in Jaunpur
[21:51] psp: ok
[21:51] myname178: then family shifted to alld.
[21:51] psp: so very nearby
[21:51] psp: ok
[21:51] myname178: yaa
[21:52] myname178: jaunpur is almost 70km
[21:52] psp: yeah!!
[21:52] myname178: in St. Josephs college at alld till 12th
[21:52] psp: ok
[21:52] myname178: gave JEE that year but it was a setback
[21:52] psp: ok
[21:53] myname178: then a life of hell in Kota for 1 yr..
[21:53] psp: hun1
[21:53] myname178: Got selected in JEE with 736 rank for the price I paid
[21:54] psp: ok
[21:54] myname178: Thought that IITK would be a great place
[21:54] myname178: Had dreams like any gut in teens
[21:54] myname178: *guy
[21:54] myname178: dreams...to be cashed at IITK

[21:55] psp: why??
[21:55] myname178: thats what i was then
[21:56] : Buzz!!
[21:56] myname178: ..
[21:56] myname178: ya
[21:56] myname178: Was shaken by ragging
[21:57] psp: that is everwhere??
[21:57] myname178: had been in close touch with ma mom
[21:57] myname178: never experienced such things
[21:57] psp: ok
[21:57] myname178: had Never abused any1
[21:57] myname178: bt u know hostel life
[21:57] psp: can understand
[21:57] psp: ya!
[21:58] psp: You have to abuse,booz everything
[21:58] myname178: ya
[21:58] myname178: Had problems settling but finally after 1 yr. I did
[21:58] myname178: at the beginning of 2nd sem
[21:58] psp: ok
[21:59] myname178: started thinking too much
[21:59] psp: why??
[21:59] myname178: and redefined my life
[21:59] myname178: Earlier i was given a goal everytime
[21:59] myname178: board in 10th
[21:59] myname178: Jee in 12th
[22:00] myname178: but now wat wen I got in IIT
[22:00] myname178: ?
[22:00] psp: What??
[22:00] myname178: ya
[22:00] myname178: that was a big questions
[22:01] psp: so what you decided now??
[22:01] myname178: I observed that Im doing lots of things without reason
[22:01] myname178: just for the sake of doing
[22:01] psp: like
[22:02] myname178: like....
[22:02] myname178: Why am I studieng a subject when I dont like or really abhore
[22:02] myname178: it
[22:02] myname178: wat good it wud do to me
[22:02] psp: yeah! I do understand
[22:02] myname178: just fr marks??
[22:02] psp: still you have optin
[22:03] myname178: then i said to myself
[22:03] myname178: I will do nothing without reason
[22:03] myname178: Now I try to find reason in everything
[22:03] psp: ok
[22:03] myname178: from the end of 2nd sem....
[22:04] myname178: Los of thought turning in ma head
[22:04] myname178: nd no 1 to hear
[22:04] myname178: then I turned to blogging
[22:04] myname178: started writting blogs
[22:04] psp: ok
[22:05] myname178: and thats it
[22:05] psp: okay!
[22:05] myname178: I write abt everything
[22:05] myname178: still love to think apon unsaid and left-out things
[22:06] psp: hun!!!! so you are a thinker..gr8 thinker
[22:06] psp: like MEEEEEEEE
[22:06] myname178: may be I am
[22:06] myname178: but the habbit of complicating things still there
[22:06] psp: hun!!
[22:07] myname178: nd I hav learnt to love everything
[22:07] myname178: even ma failures
[22:07] psp: good..
[22:08] myname178: In the summers before this sem
[22:08] myname178: read the book Monk who sold his ferrari
[22:08] myname178: have u read it??
[22:08] psp: howz it??
[22:08] psp: nooooooo
[22:08] myname178: at start boring
[22:09] myname178: lots of things mentioned in it
[22:09] psp: ok
[22:09] myname178: a good 1
[22:09] psp: ok
[22:09] myname178: but there is 1 thing wh i like most
[22:10] psp: what??/
[22:11] myname178: He says... "learn whatever u think is necessary for u. even frm this book where I mentioned so much take whatever is appropriate fr u"
[22:11] psp: nice quote
[22:12] myname178: u set ur own rules fr urself
[22:12] myname178: do blogger act?
[22:13] myname178: do u hav blogger act?
[22:13] psp: I dont know really??
[22:13] psp: I am really confused till date..
[22:14] : Buzz!!
[22:14] myname178: how
[22:14] myname178: do u know wat a blog is
[22:14] myname178: ?

[22:14] psp: nOT EXACTLY
[22:15] myname178: its a web log..
u can write urself.. whatever u want
[22:16] myname178: and publish it on web
[22:16] psp: okay
[22:16] psp: how you do that..
[22:17] : Buzz!!
[22:20] myname178: a site called blogger.com
[22:20] psp: okay
[22:20] psp: I never have done..that
[22:20] myname178: u can find my blog address on my orkut act..
[22:20] psp: so how you find it
[22:21] psp: ya! I saw it..I will go through it sometimes..
[22:21] myname178: when u write and publish u create a web page wre it appears..
[22:21] myname178: u can make it personal also
[22:22] psp: ok
[22:22] myname178: wen can I catch u next
[22:22] myname178: My parents hav come today here to meet me
[22:22] psp: ok
[22:22] myname178: so gota go

Winter Trip

We are deciding a trip as soon as the Exams finish up. More than 10 people in our wing are ready. it will be a great experience. More of this latter.

Mom and Dad to visit me.

Tomorrow is saturday. Mom and Dad are coming to see me on a 1 day visit. Also the ME lab presentation tomorrow so gota complete its Report by night.

The day was average with 40% performance in Thermo quiz and 70% percent in maths quiz. But Im satisfied. Jo bhi pyar se mila ham usi ke ho liye.

Here is the ME Project Report:

TA 201 ME Project Report

MECHANICAL MULTIPLIER

Section :M3 Group:2

Group members:

Santosh Kumar (Y5408)

Satyartha Dixit (Y5411)

Saurabh Chawdhary (Y5415)

Saurabh Upadhyay (Y5418)

Shashank Shekhar Pandey (Y5428)

Acknowledgement

A project can’t be considered as finished until we say thanks to everyone who has contributed to our project. We would like to thank our instructor Dr. N. Venkata Reddy for giving us the opportunity of a project. We also express our gratitude to our tutor Mr. K.K.Kar who helped us at every stage of the project with his valuable suggestions and support.I would also like to thank Mr.Nafe Singh for his help.

Last but not the least, we are very much thankful to all the staff and guides who not only helped us in the project but also trained us in various skills and supported us in various types of experiments. Without them, it would be impossible to complete the project.

Objective

To make a mechanical multiplier to multiply two numbers showing the working of a new type of gear box.

Motivation

Before the advent of electronic computers, the complicated calculations were carried out through means of mechanical computers, the main components of which were- the adder and the multiplier. The component that we built serves as a prototype for “The multiplier”. The same principle is extended to countless mechanical devices which serve as force multiplier or displacement multiplier. The motivation to build the machine came from understanding this vital feature of worldwide used machines.

Working Principle

The working principle of the project is based on the working of a typical ‘Gear Box’. Gearbox is defined as a metal casing in which a train of gears is sealed. Gearbox is also called gear head, gear reducers or speed reducers. Their job is to convert the input provided by a prime mover into an output of lower RPM and correspondingly, higher torque. Therefore they use the ratio of gear teeth to vary the output rpm.

Device Description

This device uses the principle working of a gear box and does multiplication. In this device a 60 teeth gear acts as the driving gear where we decide the 1^st input value which is displayed on a wheel attached on the same shaft. The other shaft has three gears attached on it, they have teeth number 30,20 and 15. These gears decide the number of times we want to multiply the 1^st input value. As the input wheel is turned the number of divisions equal to the value of 1^st input the driving gear drives the driven gear the number of degrees depending on the gear ratio. The display of output is done through using a partial gear attached on the same shaft on which the gear system is attached, this partial gear helps in displaying the tens place. What it does is it rotates the wheel on the other shaft through one division when the 1^st shaft is rotated by 10 divisions thus on every one complete rotation the wheel on the tens rotates by one division, this is how the output is displayed.

DESCRIPTION OF THE COMPONENTS

Sr. No.	Name of Component	Dimensions of Component	Material of Component	Manufacturing Process Used	Number of Pieces
1	Spur Gear	Dia. = 93mm	Mild Steel	Turning and Milling	1
2	Spur Gear	Dia. = 48mm	Mild Steel	Turning and Milling	2
3	Partial Spur Gear(3 Teeth)	Dia. = 48mm	Mild Steel	Turning and Milling	1
4	Spur Gear	Dia. = 33mm	Mild Steel	Turning and Milling	1
5	Spur Gear	Dia. = 25.5mm	Mild Steel	Turning and Milling	1
6	Wheel	Dia. = 48mm	Mild Steel	Turning	2
7	Wheel	Dia. = 90mm	Mild Steel	Turning	1
8	Shaft Rods	Dia.= 16mm	Mild Steel	Cutting	3
9	Sheet	408x190x8mm	Mild Steel	Cutting	1
10	Sheet	150x120x3mm	Mild Steel	Cutting	2
11	Spring	Length = 150mm	Spring Wire	----	1
12	Angle	40x40x6mm	Mild Steel	Drilling	3
13	Flat	80x50x6mm	Mild Steel	Drilling and Cutting	3
14	Pipe	Dia.= 20mm	Cast Iron	----	1
15	Nut and Bolt	¼”	Iron	----	18
16	Rod	Dia.= 8mm	Mild Steel	Bending	3

Difficulties Faced

1. The gear ratio used to convert 10 units in the ones place to tens place was difficult to achieve as the gears turned more than the desired angle.
2. We needed gear ratio varying from 0.5 to 5 which was not possible because no. of teeth in a gear which can be made in lab is limited.
3. As the spring wire available in the lab was very stiff, the spring constant of the spring we made was very high, so we had to use long spring.

“K is proportional to 1/L”

Possible Modifications

1. The device can be scaled down to much smaller size.
2. The no. of digits of input can be increased, keeping the no of gears constant.
3. The no. of digits of multiplication can be further increased by increasing the no of gears.
4. By using a more sophisticated method, the way of changing the gears can be aptly modified.

IITB Tech fest

Recieved a mail regarding IITB Tech- fest. This time I thought I will certainly go for.
But for programming?
Kush told me that he had alrwady teamed up Aman andd with Ashish Bhatia and Piyush. Ohh! Again a setback Do I take this as omens from God to tell me that Inow is the time to decide priorities and leave this programming thing but that's something I love to do. They left me out [:(]. But its going to be that way. Even I accept that apparently the team of four is better without me. It would have been difficult to make a place for me in spite of the fact that I had taken part in many competitions with Aman and Kush. Now I have two options.
1) Leave the thing and concentrate on my IAS preparations.
2) Do the above thing and keep this as my hobby and try to prove those friends that in reallity the team without me was only apparently better.

Lets see what life has in for me.....

Quizzes: Chem quiz today was an easy one. Cracked it! Thermo and maths quiz on friday. Preparations for them are on. Still having feeble headaches. Feeling sleepy all the time. Sleeping around 9 hrs per day. Overall not in best of my health these days. Took the first Disprin of my life and now going to take the second!

Quizzes

Lots of quizzes ahead. Tomorrow batti quiz. Chem on wed, maths on friday. Loads to syudy. AS usual miserable condition in electrical. That's all.

Old friends

Got in touch with some very old friends from St. Patrick's High School, Jaunpur through orkut. Vinay Srivastav, Nishant Gandhi, Manvendra Singh. Orkut is amazing man. Haven;t thought of meeting any of them like this. craving to know about them. I still remember the day at University Road, Allahabad when I almost wept for this guy Vinay. He used to be my bestest....est friend. And still he is! But things change with time. He is still a bestest for me. But I wonder the measure of feelings he has for me. Ok. Im going to accept any measure he gives.

TA 201 lab sucks!
The casting pattern which we made over days. It ate hours of our time and hard work. Destroyed in the lab. The lab people poured less metal in the mold and the whole pattern gone in 60 seconds.
We sat last night for 5 and half hrs. and half ade a new pattern. Hope this is the final one.
Rest of the day classes and lab. Nothing interesting.
Today is Mathr's B'Day. Really missing his treat.

Blunder!

Missed the Philosophy course! PSY151- introduction to psychology is the course alloted to me. I can't afford to lose it in any case! Gota go for it. Im going to give a full try to get it changed. Heard that if instructor agrees he can give the course to me. Hope that Mr. S.Rao understands me. Not a happening day. Boring classes allday. Missed the TA and Thermo lectures.
Mid sem marks: 10.5/25 . quite low. But I'll try make up for it.

Exams!

It's over now. The last four day largely affected by three incidents.
1) Taking pics all around
2) Myself not able to take part in fashion photography competition
3) Camera wrecked

Slowly coming to usual life of IITK. Lecture, quizzes, labs, lab-reports, exams, courses, proffs, grades, CPI......

One more suicide from IITK. This time a M.Tech. guy from Hall-4. I don't know what's happening here.

End-sems from 27th. Nothing much to write. Less happenings in life now. Exams coming so less postings. And that ends all I have for now.

A Spoiled Day 4!

Day 4 starts late. Last night the camera malfunctioning gave a headache to me. Now no coverage of any event. Will not be going to Audi or SAC anymore. Wake up at 10. Lazily lying in the bed for one hr. Chat with Mamma for about half an hour. Mamma was least concerned about the camera but the fact that I would be worrying about the camera was something which troubled her most.
After lunch in the mess, came to CC. Only blogging whole day. Less of Antaragni. Decided to go to Kavi Sammelan and may be Euphoria at night. Lab reports due tomorrow. Gota complete them also.
****! Just now as I am writing his post Ankur came with basanti and her friend akanksha. All three of them sitting behind me on comps. Gota complete the Karma Theory post.
The HSS course Request for next sem is open now. the only philosophy course offered is PHI143 - Introduction to Ethical Theory. Option list goes like this.
1) Introduction to Ethical Theory
2) Microeconomics - 1
3) PSY 151- Introduction to Psychology
4) Sociology
5) English Literature
6) ART- Western Art

If Im lucky enough I'll get my first choice. Can't afford to loose this course. Rest of the day to come. Will be writing soon.

Returning from CC, slept from 5:30 . Got up at 8:00. Had a maggi in canteen. No dinnerr me. It was none of Antaragni left for me. Missed the Kavi-sammelan and Euphoria too.
The HSS course next sem is going to be exciting for me.

Day 3

Day 3 starts of a little late because of tierdness of Synchronicity and the setback in Infocus event last night. Woke up late, got ready by 12:00. Now completely focused on humor-de-antaragni. Collecting photos for it from ever where. Reached ShopC for nukkad event. Then in audi for a dance event. In SAC for pics of tatoo making. It was 4:00 by now, one hour before submitting the pics for Infocus.

Now to L7. An ediotic mime play was going on. From the other side entrance of L7 I could here a soft voice and music of guitar. A girl practicing for the western musicals. From the half opened door I could see her face, a little tensed, with hair-locks over it and the upper long portion of her brown colour guiter. Sitting on the space just outside the door from where the staircase start. Leaning over her guitar. Her other belonging were a black colour Tata Indicom cellphone, which she used as watch, and a scribbled sheet of paper. In the background was a tree with fallen leave and behind that I can see the library building in contrast to her beautiful face. All this was making such excellent shot that I couldn't resist myself from taking her snaps. Huh. But I sort of spoiled the photograph. I think the shutter speed was low giving a much bright and blurred image. The background being highly illuminated by Sun appeared bright and the main content of photo was in shade. Had I composed the focus in the background, then it would have given a dark portion in the main content. The only option was a smaller depth which means higher F number. Means I had to get close to her. Thus disturbing her and spoiling the mood of the photo.

Latter when I showed the pic to her and her comment was: "Bahut kharaab lag rahi hu mai." My God! Ab kitni achhi lagogi? I don't know why all the girls tend to react like this on seeing their photograph. The girl was from some DU college. Wish I could send her the link to this post.
Also shot the fallen tree.
To hostel after taking snaps of India Inspired event. Sorting the photograph to get the best 10 from it. While doing this I realised that I had not mae a great collection, not even decent.
To SAC for submitting the pics. Haven't done a good job this time. After dinner went for the Bandish performance. That was hopeless. The guy shouted cheers to IIT after every song. After that was the ritambhara- the fashion show. I was too exausted to attend any function now. Earlier Kala has asked for my cam to take pics in the internal round. Refusing him was a difficult task for me. Its not him sying anything but I don't know why When Im refusing something when someone, and that too so close to me, asked for it I feel like guilty. I feel like refusing help. Now if I repeat the guilt that would be enough to disturb me so much so to keep me from sleeping that night. Stayed back at hostel. The camera was taken over by Aditya and God knows what this man has done to it, it got horrible stuck. My digi-cam went mad. Now no photography on last day of Antaragni. Nothing to do. I guess the tittle of neat post would be "A spoiled day 4".

Other Incidents:
1) Returning from Audi, heard a group consisting mostly girls singing BC Sutta! Surprised! The fact that it was common in girls too was known to me, but singing loudly on road is a different thing, even if they were boys.
2) Surprised by a scrap on orkut: Pushpa: Hi! liked your comment on how to enjoy solitude...Kind of me...I do try that..

Camera Fucked!

oooo.. ooooo.... *sobs
Camera got fucked very badly. Came from Bandish show and gave the camera to Kala to cover ritambhara. He passed it on to Aditya and he came back to hostel with lens out and no display on screen. It is hanged on in this condition. On pressing the power button it gives a horrible beep sound. Don't know what will happen to it. May be I can get it repaired.
Now all lost. No coverage of last day or antaragni. No coverage nothing anywhere. no lab report copying. No funny pics in the wing. No nature photography. No instant photo. No potrait photography.

Day 2

The day two starts. Out from the bed. In half alive state. A toothbruh in the mouth. In front of bathroom. Stralling in the corridor of my wing. Then a girl and a boy appeared! The boy seemed to be a very familier face with resemblence to Asif. The other face was as much unfamilier as the first was familier. Next second I was full awake and Asif bhai told that she was Shikha. A class- mate, coaching-mate, city-mate or whatever mate, I don't remember exactly.
Ready for the Day-2. Bathed and Hanuman prayer, as very usual. Taken the breakfast, as little less usual. Decided to take part in a competition, as unusual!
In for Rangoli competition with 3 other wingmates at TB. Copied a Rangoli figure from flickr.com. Pretty satisfied with our performance coz we were not the worst! This is what we made.
Then othe events I saw were Nukad and the word game competition by ELS. Now in SAC. The situation ws dramatised when we decided to write in a qute of the day competition. The theme was Is love worth it? A vast topic indeed. Bet I can spend nights thinking on it. But writing a quote was not possible for me. Kush bhai wrote something: Worth of love is double the worth of a person.
Now concering my newly developed passion, went to Photography desk and got myself registered. Got to know that, if you don't have your own subject you need to photograph on the same night on any damn subject they give us. But the biggest problem was the subject. A female subject would no doubt be preferable. Reasons - female beauty is more appealing, all the tutorials on net imply mostly to female subject, more sample ideas on flickr.com are of female models and it would be a fon But where to get her. I had already talked to Asif last night for a model and he had said that he may try for one of her friends.
Coming back to hostel, read some more tutorial on fashion photography and studio lighting. Now chated with Asif if he can get the JSS girl as my subject. Talking to her, she agreed. We dicided to go and talk to her in the audi.
Next, in the audi grounds stumbling here and there for entry for awaited rock night with Asif. In the way Asif told me to keep looking for he girl - Inesha (I think I got it correct this time). While waiting in the queue (something I abhore) looking for the girl, horses of imagination speeding up. Somehow it appeared to me that she will come on the road, ridding on a horse-cart and I have to catch her in between. Situation parallel to basanti ridding on dhanno! The queue was in. But basanti never came. Stumbled from one gate to other, but couldn't find her.
Now the rock music and nothing else for next three hours. But still looking for basanti. Asking Asif: yaar basanti ka kya hua? Parikrama was awesome. The one on Vocals was rocking. Got some nice shot from my cam.

After the show, at last I caught basanti. But the response was as cold as ever. I asked about her shedule for tomorrow but she was very diplomatic in answering that (you see. that is why women are better politicians than men). Even I heard her saying: leave it yaar. Now see my answer to this: "Yaar mai tumhe force nahi kar raha, lekin take it that it will be a setback for me." Now people take meaning of setback whatever you want. I said to Asif bahi " Yaar Asif, Basanti to bhaav khaa rahi thi. Kya kare yaar apna time hi kharaab chal raha hai, bhaav to dena hi padega." Then back to my hostel. Gave a thoght on this.

The Thought: Basanti tune ye kya kiya. My lord, Basanti I extend my heartiest no thanks to you for such an unkind, non-cooperating, and non-helping behavior. But you are right on your on your part. You come all the way down to kanpur from delhi traveling in general class class compartment. Then your fashion event in the night. Your Dramatics event next day from 5. You are so busy. How can you give time? Although you will get a lot of time in between but who am I to you? Are you my sister or mother or a relative to help in accomplishing my passion? Why will anyone help Saucy just like that? Im so stupid to expect like that. But thats Saucy for you madam. Shaken and stirred by every small incident in life. Even things which are worth less than penny may appeal/ hurt me.

First you tell me that you will be subject for me, so that I cancel the without-subject slot at night and then you are are so much reluctant when I ask you latter that if I would ask you any further it would be like torturing you. And Saucy can do any thing save torturing anyone. Thus leaving me in a helpless situation. Sorry basanti. It's not your fault. It's me who always makes things more complicated in his head than they need to be.

Now I am left with one other option which some of my friends adviced : go straight to a girl and ask her for. But I think this wont work. Even if it would have worked I would not have done it. Reasons? Reasons being combined effect of two things- first the fact that in doing so I will not be acting "Just be yourself" which is against my principles. The second reason being my first blog post. So what is the tip for me. Mr. Saucy, this place is not for fashion photography. It is not your cheese. So better cling to the nature photography community.

Clarifications:
1) It may appear from above written material that I despise or Im angry on basanti. But the same is not true. I still hold her in high regards. This whole blog is what I observe and that might not depict the reality. To say in Engineering Graphics language, it's a one point perspective and it may not nececcarily show all the actual details of the object. And the Theorem of Appreciation is also applicable here.

First Day

The first day of the four day green revolution of IITK popularly known as Antaragni started from the evening. That speaches were as boring as ever. And Mr. DOSA repeated the sentence that he says every year: girls don't like smelling cloths and mouth.
Then some boring performances. The other event of the night was the discotheque. There Asif introduced me to 2 of his girl coaching-mates - one Akansha and the other one was a difficult to remember name, most probably the name was Itisha! Sorry girl for forgetting your name[:(] ! Former in black beauty and the latter in pink beauty. Exausted in the disco. Leg aching. No not only legs, in a bihari's language salla pura body headache maar raha tha. That DJ was really sucking. Broke in the middle. We left but there was still some energy left in us. So it needs to be exausted too. The best way SAC! In front of Coca-Cola open-air threatre watching an ultimate chaatu movie CARS.
IN 15 min. exausted completely and then back to Hall-2. Discussed over the photography events with Bhargava. Decided (OR determined ?) to take part in the two events viz. humor-de-antaragni and the fashion photography. The first one was a cumulative collection of 10 pfotographs to depict the mood of antaragni. Went to my bed with some plans fext day and then I died. I was dead till 9:00 next morning.

0th day of Antaragni

Today the zeroth day of Antaragni today. Got some pics of Antaragni. Now I have to compose an exqusite balance between Antaragni and my studies so that i can handle the photography as well as my studies. Planning to cover the whole event through my cam and then make a photo diary for the event. In Focus! the competition. And then the fashion photgraphy and theme based photography event. All this exciting. But in balance with my studies. Got a tutorial on digi-cam photography and another one on studio lighting. Gota study them before the contest.

Decided!

This man seems more frustrating than ever these days. Now I have decided and am firm on my decision that I will change my room-mate next sem. He and his ****ing Godfather asshole S***. The man sleeps in my room, somkes in my room and I can't bear the smoke and had to sleep in some other room. I told him to tellhis Godfather not to do such thing but h again does it! All this is frustrating! I can't bear it anymore. Just one month in this sem and then I leave this man. The biggest problem with him is that he is a great asshole!

mID-SEM MARKS : 17/40 in maths. No probs because I was ready fo it. #1.5/40 in TA but hoping to increase upto 34.5 or more. 22.5/30 in inorganic chem. not quite upto expectation but alright.

Other: End sem exams starting from 24th. That means I have around 24 days from now. And 5 courses. By unitary method around 5 days to prepare for each course. Seems less. B.ut I will pull it. Thought of seriously involving myself in IAS preparations leaving aside IITK acads so I must get good grades for a decent overall CPI Remember: Never let go of hope. One day you will see that it all has finally come together. What you have always wished for has finally come to be. You will look back and laugh at what has passed and you will ask yourself... 'How did I get through all of that? Just never let go of hope and never let love depart your life.

Antaragni: Two days to go for Antaragni : cultural festival of IITK. Planning to practice on photography and take part in photography competitions.

Weekend

Exam just ended so weekends are very lightt. The maximum amount of free time without any tension of exam, quizzes that we can get here is not more 7 days.
Played cricket today. And tried hand at basketball last night.
I've started believing in what I said to Aman yesterday: Mai bahut kuchh seekhna chahta hu. I want to learn everything new. Meri jawani fir se laut aai hai. Shayad kuchh dino k liye mai boodha ho gaya tha.
I am serious for the end-sems also. Starting from 25th nov this time. Now I don't want to lose in any game of life. I want to excel everywhere. I want to doo everything which I like.

A post after a long time

So much happenings in the past 2-3 weeks. First of all the mid-sem exams- main culprit for the tittle of the post, then diwali at home, back to IITK, studies again, mid-sem marks.

1) Mid-Sem 2, sesond semester! The worst exam preparation I had after coming to IITK, or may be worst of I ever had. Done a blunder in maths and Electrical and thermo, TA and Chem were so and so.

2) Last exam at 6:00 p.m. and train to allahabad at 8:30. I ran like Bond but it Bond didn't helped me the train being late. Finally reached home at 3:00 at night. Then celebrating diwali and a short break at home.

3) Finally back at IITK at 8:00 a.m. on Monday Morning.This was first experience of early morning journey from allahabad to kanpur boarding alld. jn. at 3:30 a.m.

4) Mid sem. marks: 31.5/40 in TA, 16 or 17/40 in maths. more to come. Missed the IIITA online contest because the server were down all night yesterday. Caught hold of a really nice flash game. Attended
one more workshop on photography, potrait photography this time, by the same proff. Dr. Anupam Pal.

Introspective. Trying to search himself and his world. Doesn't like the conventional rules of living..so is very anti-social in that way. Does not feel good about himself.

In essence, he is on a trip of typical identity crisis.

iews on me by someone on orkut.
Am I this? Not exactly. I carry my strong identity. But I don,t run for the so called fame.

Exams up!

I've been back from home last sunday. IAS. done! Im going to prepare for it. The subject options before me: Philosophy, geography and ME. Most probably I'll be eliminating ME because as I've heard, Engineering subjects are difficult to crack in IAS exams.
Now exams coming up next week from wednesday. Very miserable codition in maths and batti. Lets see

I can feel the change!

Yes Im changing. Saurabh at the end of second semester was hell lot of different from Saurabh this day. The external and internal environmental changes have induced a metamorphosis in me. Some of the prominent factors/agents being my good friend Matty, my mother, me, a world called IITK and Mr. Robin Sharma.