Way

Whatever was swaying is on way now. I'm not on sway. That too fast I believe.

This is the last post of this year. With me finding a way for myself I close the 2008 chapter of my life and my diary called Saucy Unplugged. Let's hope for some more new one ways and the wisdom to chose one right way whenever it is a sway.

Sway

I don't know what others would have done if in my shoes. Im really confused though and not quite convinced of what Im doing. May be there is bit of impulsive action which is driving me but its not only impulsive action. There is more of it. I don't no what. just before the moment Im undecided and when the moment comes it takes me through.
All I know is that I am not wrong in doing it that way or rather the way things are doing. It's right as long as policies are right and I'm not here to hurt anyone. Its just that I don't know which way to sway! Till I know which way to sway, lets keep doing things which do not appear 'wrong'. Although the terms right and wrong are relative terms and change in circumstances they can be taken in their usual sense.
At the same time lets refrain from changes that are irreversible. Sure things cannot be undone on time scale but there are things which have binding outcomes and (related) actons and there are things which don't. Sort of cause-effect relation.

New Dell

"From now onwards I will be owning this laptop."
--Saucy, February 10, 2007.

This was when I first had my laptop. http://saucy-unplugged.blogspot.com/2007/02/dell-inspiron-6400.html

Round and about, with and and without laptop I had been since then (gave that to my sister). But now is new stylish spring green dell inspiron 1525 n series. Mine is here. But as the first love is the best love, my first dell was the best laptop.
This is the first day of blogging from new laptop and brings back memories of the same when same happened to fall on me for the first time (Feb 10, 2007).

Flying back into archives I got some more memories of the lad I used to be nearly 2 years back. Here is a poem I posted:


She's been down and out,
she's been wrote about,
she's been talked about,
constantly.
She's been up and down,
she's been pushed around,
but they held her down,
NYC.
She has no regrets,
she accepts the past,
all these things they helped
to make she.
She's been lost and found,
and she's still around,
there's a reason for
everything.

You know I've been holdin on.
Try to make me weak,
but I still stay strong.
Put my life all up in these songs,
just so you can feel me,
so you can get the real me.

So take me as I am,
or have nothing at all,
just take me as I am,
or have nothing at all.

Now she's older now,
yes, she's wiser now
can't disguise her now,
she don't need
no one tellin her
what to do and say,
no one tellin her
who to be.
She's on solid ground,
she's been lost and found,
now she answers to
G-O-D,
and she's confident
this is not the end.
Ask me how I know,
cause she is me.

You know I've been holdin on.
Try to make me weak,
but I still stay strong.
Put my life all up in these songs,
just so you can feel me,
so you can get the real me.

So take me as I am,
or have nothing at all,
just take me as I am,
or have nothing at all.

So it's all or nothing at all,
all or nothing at all,
don't you know I can only be me,
I can only be me, yeah,
I can only be me.
So it's all or nothing at all,
all or nothing at all,
don't you know I can only be me,
I can only be me, yeah,
this is me.

This is me,
this is me,
this is me,
this is me,
this is me,
no one else, no,
you can't take that from me, oh.

So take me as I am,
or have nothing at all,
just take me as I am,
or have nothing at all.

Written by Mary J. Blige

Lazying

Im in one of my most lethargic modes of existence. 10 days since Im home enjoying doing nothing. Got stuck after Alexander the great - chapter 5 of History of Europe. It's almost over with this period. 27th is the registration date. It was my last winter vacation at home btw. Watching cricket matches on TV was delightful. India beating England and SA beating Aussies! That was great!

What quite makes my laziness lethal this time was inability to practice it fully. Everything I do bears high friction coefficient owing to this inability which in turn strengthens itself. Sort of deadlock!

Many a time why are we not able to speak our hearts? Why are we forced by ourselves to unnecessarily draw the covers when we know they are transparent? From whom may we hide it when everybody is aware of the truth? Its just that we are not willing to accept the facts as the appear. By concealing it we are fooling ourselves into unreal world. Isn't it logically fallible!

Many times we have heard about expression of thought. The power of expression of thought. The power that you can control your expression of thought is more important than the power of expression of thought we are proud of. If we were not able to control it then what wonders it might have brought to us. Just imagine that everybody around you knows what you think just like they hear what you say.
The fact that the feeling and the expression of the feeling can be varied saves the world for us. Sp it did saved for me.

Change

Metamorphosis should be the word because this change is occurring over a period of time and since it is distributed over a time span its intensity is diluted. Nevertheless the change it is.

I am not the usual shy looking simple guy who I used to be. I have come a long way about initiating conversation, convincing people; quite confidently many times.

The change has saw me solving rubik's cube in a minute. The change has saw me involved in sports other than cubing. Squash, badminton, cricket (in earlier days) basketball (sometimes).

Beliefs have changed. Principles have changed a bit too. I have caught myself doing things I thought I will (or can) never do. And all this for good, positively.

"People, relationships and then you with your 'self' ". Yeah! All of 'em changing. Me to myself, people to me and me to people and their relationships are changing. Not a phase shift though but again a change diluted over time; still noticeable.

Waist size is also changing; on farther side! [:P]

Naukri

Its season for employment, though not the best this year, people here are getting jobs. 8/11 pf my friends appearing for placements have been placed. So coming days are those of treat party and celebration of last few months of life we will live together for the last time in our lives. No one knows what is in the next chapter but this chapter of life has been kindest.