Back from home

Yet another post on 'Back from home'. And 1 more semester going to go. After this one 50% remains. After having badly spoilt 2nd mid-sem, now only hope is end-sem. Too few hope. Departmental Winter trip of Pune-Goa-Bombay cancelled due to cousin's wedding on 6th dec.
Not in a mood to write more coz it always feels bad when you arrive at college from home. It takes some time to recover.

Unprecedented unfamiliar

An unprecedented, unfamiliar, unimaginable, unthinkable, unusual, abnormal feeling surrounds me. Can't tell what is this feeling. I have my exam from 9:30 but I'm awake and idling with blogger at 3:00 a.m. Why I am not able to concentrate I know not. Out of the remaining 5 tomorrow's is the only exam which I can hope to do well. And still doing away with it in this manner. God help for other's?

What is causing my state miserable? What is it I know not? What is that haunts me? What is it I fear? Has anybody answers to this? What is the gloomy I see in everything around me? Is it intuition?

My nose is bleeding and I had bad dreams too. There is something bad going to happen. I can smell it

I stand on the verge of giving all up, but I will not give all and stop writing the shit and try to concentrate and try to recollect the broken pieces and I will die! But only till next morning.

Saucy breaks!

It was never again since the Maths exam of 12th boards. I have been taking acads seriously but never felt like too much affected.

Today I felt like I can never recover what is lost. I have studied too little for Mis-sem 2. now exam starts this friday with philosophy. then five more from monday to wednesday. I would never be able to do all of them. With miserable performance in first mid-sems I think I will screw this semester badly. All these thoughts brought tear glands into action. And twice in the day it happened to me.

Here I start my good old attitude. When you think you are failing, think that you have nothing to lose and try to gain as much as you can. So I start from zero and start preparing from now. Rest will be tackled in the end sem exams.

Only good thing today was that I got a reply from Tyson Mao(WCA delegate). He asked to contact Ron as he has better connections in India. He himslf deals in USA. Tyson Mao is the same person who taught Will Smith cubing for the famous movie we all know.